Angels and Rainbows - remembering our angels and praying for rainbows

[missalexandra]

New thread ladies, hope it brings us all good luck.

Thinking of youblue.

Thinking of you blue hope everything goes well

Blue been thinking of you all day, hope everything is going smoothly and maybe you already have your new rainbow additon to the Blue family...sending big hugs and love to you all xx

Quick message to send good luck wishes to blue, sending you and your little wriggler all the love and luck in the world. I can imagine how terrifying this time must be.

Hello and tight hugs to everyone else, I am emerging from the tent of gloom. We are fostering a little dog this week and he has really cheered me up, he's super gentle and sweet. Starting a new frozen cycle now with another transfer towards the end of the month, not holding out much hope but really grateful to have the chance.

Just checking in to see how Blue is doing x

Critter, your strength and positivity is really inspirational. Lucky little pooch coming to live with you! x

Hello all thanks for thinking of me, sorry I have no news yet - we're on the second pessary, no sign of anything happening still. But she's still wriggling and the most I have to complain about is being a bit bored (well other than crapping myself about what might happen next) so that's something.

Your little dog sounds lovely critter and glad you've got another frostie to have another try xx

Blue great to hear there is lots of wriggling going on to reassure you. Just a few more hours and she will be snuggling in your arms. Rest as much as you can before the real action begins

Kayleigh your Mums comments about Ben being "a trauma" make me so cross. Unfortunately I too seem to be hearing more and more often A being referred to as "what happened". Cowards. Its very sad to hear the Jessie is missing her brother, its so hard to know how affected children are by this type of loss isnt it? I suppose it depends a lot on the personality of the child. Hope she had a nice birthday

Ruby glad to hear there is lots of cuddling going on! I keep getting lots of (unasked for) advice about how to handle a new baby and how to not "spoil" him by picking him up a lot etc. After 9 years and all this heartache do they seriously think I will miss one instant of cuddling him whenever I can Has the next-to-me cot been a success? Is E still gaining weight?

Lake I think its best to just block people like your colleague for a while. Its very hard not to look when its so in-your-face and can only be upsetting. I'm sure the people who put flowers on E's grave just wanted to make a kind gesture, though I can imagine how it made you feel and I agree about there being nothing worse than seeing dead floweres on a grave, makes it even more sad somehow.

Critter so glad you are starting to feel a bit brighter. Fostered/adopted dogs are very special they give so much more than they get. We fostered a completely blind/deaf/ancient little terrier from the local shelter, she looked as if she was on her last legs and was being bullied by all the bigger dogs so I wanted to make her last days comfortable. She ended up living with us for over two years in the lap of luxury until she finally passed away, but she helped me through some very tough times. Best of luck with your frosties, nowadays they say the success rate is just as good as with fresh.

AFM saw both endocrinologists about the macrosmia, one of them says I need to start insulin, the other one says I dont, and the obstetrician is sitting on the fence and wants me back in for more monitoring tomorrow before she decides. Its a bit disconcerting that three professionals cant decide on something when its directly affecting the baby already. Will just have to wait and see what the obstet says tomorrow I suppose.

Hello to Earth, Ducky, Owl, Madem, Betty, ATM, Spaniel and everyone else, hope you are all doing ok x

critter the pooch sounds lovely. I'm glad you're feeling a bit brighter and will keep my fingers crossed for your frostie

blue thank you for keeping us updated, i will continue to keep you in my thoughts, and i hope you manage to get some rest before things start

Thanks MissA i agree, some people are cowards. I appreciate that some people might not want to say anything in case they cause an upset, but personally i think referring to our babies as "traumas" or "what happened" is all the more upsetting (and i find it disrespectful too.) Jessie has been amazing for the most part about Ben, but she does have the odd "wobbly" day, which i fully understand. We'd had a cuddle when she'd gotten upset the other night and she was ok afterwards, and she's had a lovely party tonight with friends from school. Sorry to hear you're getting conflicting advice of your doctors, as you say it's disconcerting. I'll be thinking of you also tomorrow.

Waves to ruby, owl, ducky, mademoiselle, earth, betty, atm spaniel and lake xx

Have missed out on so much on here! Just checking in, thinking of you blue x

Have been having problems with movement anxiety again and ended up back in hospital they're sending me for a scan for reassurance

Waves to everyone x

Just updating to distract myself. Having some contractions, gonna break my waters soon. Hopefully not too long now...
(((Hugs))) for the anxiety ducky

So exiting blue!!

That's brilliant Blue, fingers crossed it all goes smoothly and fairly quickly.

How exciting hope it all goes smoothly blue

Blue that's brilliant news. Will be keeping everything crossed (you probably shouldn't!) that everything moves quickly for you and you are having beautiful rainbow cuddles later today x

Ducky, I'm sorry about your anxiety, how many weeks are you now? I hope the scan helps a bit.

Am 29 weeks now I know it's still early to be getting worried but I have found it a lot more difficult than I thought I would

Well hopefully from this point on the movements will become stronger and more regular. I was obsessed with spotting a pattern, but I don't think I ever really had one. Do you write movements down/ use the ctk app? I wrote everything down and sometimes when I was in a state in the evenings thinking I hadn't had much movement I would read back and see that actually he had moved just as much as the last couple of days, so it was my mind playing tricks on me/anxiety getting the better of me. Hugs to you, it is hard x

Blue sending rainbow vibes x

Ducky I'm 32 and a half weeks now and still havent felt a set pattern either. Like Earth says, it also helps me to jot down for a few days every single time I feel movement, and when I get into an anxious moment I look at the 'journal' and realise that there HAVE been a similar amount of movement but as soon as you get nervous your mind goes blank and you just cannot remember when the last one was. But there ARE days when he moves less, definitely. Its normal to be worried right from day one until we get a live healthy baby in our arms so dont beat yourself up over it x

blue hoping you have your little one in your arms now… thinking of you lots.

missalex and kayleigh thank you both so much for your kind words. I am really grateful to have three little frosties left - we will put back one this cycle, and if that doesn't take, put in the last two together. And then if that doesn't work, another fresh round. I will get there eventually, we all will, just a long road.

ducky sorry to hear you've been back in hospital.

lake hope you are doing ok. Good news that you can start thinking about TTC soon although I know it will bring its own stresses and worries.

ruby hope your second little girl is thriving. I know you must miss her big sister so much.

earth thank you for thinking of me.

All good here, the rescue dog is bringing me a lot of pleasure and amusement with his floppy ears, big ears, squirrel obsession and enjoyment of belly rubs and cozy snoozing. Sending love to everyone else - how are you all doing?

My beautiful rainbow L was born this afternoon at 12:52. Thanks for your support and encouragement ladies. Will post properly when I can stop gazing at her for long enough xx

Huge congratulations blue! I hope the birth didn't take too much from you and that you and L are both recovering well. Much love xx

Wicked news blue!!! So happy for you!!! Hope your feeling ok! X

It's been absolutely pouring with rain here this afternoon so we all (me, Elise and our dog) decided to have a pyjama day (1st once since she was born!) a few minutes ago it stopped raining and I looked out of the window and saw the brightest most beautiful rainbow. Thinking of you Blue and cheering you on from afar x

Ducky the anxiety is awful, like Earth I made myself keep track. For me I split the day into 2 hr blocks and counted movements. As soon as I got to 5 in the 2 hrs I stopped counting until the next 2 hrs. It reassured me but also allowed me to have parts of the day where I could put it out of my mind until the next 2 hrs.

Critter really glad your new furry friend is bringing you some happiness. I think dogs are so therapeutic. I know our little terrier helped us a huge amount after we lost 'H'. Thanks for asking about E she was weighed on Monday and had gained 8oz in 8 days so is now only 3oz below her birth weight so we are a lot happier. She certainly likes mummies milk now she has got the hang of it x

Gosh Blue cross post. Congratulations on the safe arrival of L. Enjoy your snuggles and don't worry about posting if there's cuddles and gazing to be had x