TRC 10+ months. Part 15...

[MuddyWellyNelly]

New thread for the lovely 10+ers. 14 was awesome so another like that please!

Negative oh well. The woman at the clinic who called with the results was so full of sympathy it made me cry again! At least I can stop the progesterone now.
I'm still at work will try to post more later.

Buzzy I love that you have forgotten to call the clinic! You must be enjoying the holiday too much!

Euro glad it looks ok. My friend does a lot of reconstructive stuff but some "cosmetic" too. She is NHS but does some private as well afaik. If you worry about the scar in the future let me know. I've already booked in my future face lift...

Gin noooooo I'm not listening. In all honesty I believe Friday will be a bFn. But this is maybe a chemical preg which is closer than I've got before. AF not arrived albeit it still feels on its way, but its probably the extra progesterone keeping it away (last time it arrived "today", but I wasn't on the progesterone that time). I actually feel quite calm today.

Critter I did wonder about your OTD! 5 frozen blasts is fantastic. You're very clever

MrsD what news? Have you heard yet? I am still wishing for a mega surprise for you.

Sweet hope you get some reassurance from the doctor.

Joy sorry we couldn't meet. I discovered a branch of the shop I wanted to go to much nearer where I was. I just bought myself some pour-myself-into-them skinny jeans as a 2 fingers up gesture to TTC. . Next time though.

I've missed loads but will post again in a bit

Cross post. MrsD noooo I'm so sorry. Sending you much love. Next time, they will get more eggs and it will work. Big hugs.

mrsd I am truly gutted for you. This is so unfair. Crying and letting it out is good. I know it won't help how you are feeling now but they would have found things out that would be useful for the next time. A big hug and tight squeeze for you.

euro Glad the op is over. Sorry you are having to go through all this. . Hope you are not too sore. I have used a cream called Contractubex for operative scarring and it's very effective. I think it's prescription only in the UK. Check it out. You do need to "work" at the scar everyday and it gets better results if you use it on fresh scars.

joy I'm not on Humira yet as they had to check that I didn't have latent tuberculosis. Apparently it's one of the things the Humria can bring out. Waiting for my TB results....

critter glad to hear the OHSS symtoms have gone down. Sending lots of positive vibes your way...

madness how is the wait? hope it's not making you too crazy...

nelly hope you had a good trip in London. Happy the line is still there.

gin hope the retching has passed and you are feeling better

Waves to everyone!

Euro - That?s terrifying about the robbery. It is smart of you not to mention when you will be away online. My sister had a cyst removed a few years ago, the surgeon was fantastic, and you can?t even see a scar. Hopefully yours will be able to do the same.

Gin - I had missed your post about your first public retch. How uncomfortable. Right now I am only mildly nauseated at 5 am.

Nelly - My fingers are crossed for your still there line.

Joy - I am six weeks tomorrow and have heard nothing from the OBGYN clinic my gp referred me to.

Critter - That is a huge relief that your blood work will be 9 dpo instead of 17! I was a bit surprised that they would make you wait that long. I haven?t received anything for the progesterone because I am still waiting for that clinic to call me and it seems unlikely I will be getting in for an early scan. I am trying to decide if I should ask the gp to call another OBGYN clinic to refer me elsewhere.

MrsD - I am so sorry to hear that. Big paw squeeze. Hopefully you can escape from work early today.

Hello and waves to anyone I have missed.

Oh no mrsd I am so terribly sorry. I can't believe you had to go through all this for a negative. Can you go home early? I hate that this is happening to you, it's so damn unfair.

Oh no mrsd. I've just shed a few sympathy tears, I do so feel for you. You are v brave being at work. I always had to be at home on results day, as knew I'd be a mess. It will work for you one day and next time they will get your EC right. I used to think the 3 cycles thing was bollocks, but don't now. It really is a numbers game. Big big hugs. Be nice to yourself and maybe plan a nice treat. I hope mr d is ok.

Waves to sea.

nellie if it's a CP, I think something should show in the blood test, but hopefully something better will show!

Waves to grouch too

Gin I'll PM you. I might be telling you stuff you already know, but the French are actually ultra-careful in pregnancy. As well as the stuff you would avoid over here, they often avoid salad too because the risk of toxoplasmosis over there. I had salad in a village café and the lettuce was a bit gritty, so clearly not washed (but fine for me, as if I become immune before any pregnancy, so much the better). And being "enceinte" is about the only permissible reason for ordering a well-done steak in France!

Yes, I call on CD1 to book the first scan for day 6 or so. And then we're off!

buzz how lovely to have met a cycle buddy out there. It does all sound very pleasant and relaxed I must say.

mrsd I'm so sorry it was a negative this time. It sounds like the did EC too soon, so hopefully they will learn from this experience for next time. This is nowhere near the end of your story - you will get there. Onwards and upwards!

sweet I hope you are doing ok. At least it sounds like your GP is looking out for you.

The smear was just fine. It used to be such a big deal - now they barely register! Let's hope the results are fine.

mrsd I am so sorry, big hugs, go home and have a good cry, next cycle will be yours x

nelly I wasn't sure about calling today, i'm of the thinking that less is more, no point in worrying about something I have no control over, i'm happy to leave it upp to them, i'll call tomorrow to see how many of the 7 are still going,

euro its mega relaxing here, i'm in holiday mode not ivf mode could all change tomorrow though

Oh mrsd i am so sorry. we were all hoping for a better outcome for you. Allow yourself to grieve and then you'll bounce back just like all of the other incredibly strong women have done on this thread. Take care of yourself and mrden xx

mrsd I am so sorry that this cycle hasn't worked out. I know that you will be feeling so sad right now and if you felt like me maybe a bit angry too. I so wish that the outcome was different for you and send you lots of love. Take heart that your fertilisation rate was awesome and that the next cycle will be your time.

buzzy so glad that you are enjoying the trip and don't seem to be stressed at all! Good luck with calling the clinic tomorrow. I will be thinking of you.

nelly Good luck for tomorrow. FX crossed for you.

euro I am glad that your op went okay. Rosehip oil sounds like a good idea, I've also heard that Bio Oil is fab too (my sister uses it on stretch marks). Hope that your smear result is okay.
I can't believe all the burglaries where you live. It must be a worry. You need to borrow Big Dog. One look at him snarling through the window and no burglar will bother cringes at the thought of our neighbour very kindly coming round with half a joint of leftover meat for the dogs cooing through the window at a literally foaming at the mouth Big Dog and unconvincingly telling me how cute he is!

gin Oh no at public retch. How did you style that one out! sweet 5am sickness....sounds a bit grim.

sea It's good that your GP is so on the ball. That must make you feel a lot better.

rabbits Sorry that you are blue. The waiting is horrible. I felt paranoid during my wait for IVF that I had been forgotten and wasn't even on the list. I kept badgering the consultant every time I saw her to check that I was on the list. What wait time were you given?

princess I so can't believe that you are so far along. My god the time has flown by.

Thinking of you critter. Not long now till Thursday.

How are you Sarlat Hope the dizziness is passing.

Off now to clear up the kitchen before the Apprentice ignoring the fact that it's yet another new series of a programme I enjoy and I am still not upduffed Love and waves to all.

I know, pout. We've lived here for 5 years and we're in inner London so of course there have been local burglaries but nothing in this road before the past couple of weeks. I reckon some little scrote has "discovered" our little tucked away mews and is working his way along it. My biggest fear is discovering him at it. Our house is behind 6 ft gates and I have a fear of disturbing someone in the front garden and him having a pop at me...

Aw euro that is crap that you are so worried. Do you have a rape alarm to carry when you come through the gate just to put your mind at rest. A loud noise like that would be enough to frighten someone off. You know that it is very unlikely a burglar would attack you, it's not their MO. They are more likely to be spooked by you and run have watched far too many true crime programmes and read too many books on the subject!
When we lived in Kilburn I used to carry my keys in my hand at night. Made me feel happier. What about leaving a radio on while you are out?
Hopefully the thieving little shits will find some other target.

Mrsd - I am so so sorry. Massive hugs. What a shitty process. Take some time to cry it out of your system. I think planning what to do next is often a good healer. Or taking a tennis racket and hitting a pillow very very hard , I found this mildly therapeutic.

Pout - love the sound of big dog. I had a rape alarm once until I dropped it on the bus and all hell broke loose. It rolled under a chair and I had the pin. It was so embarrassing! I think they have designed them better nowadays.

Euro - glad all went ok today.

Good to see they have the usual bunch of twerps on the apprentice

Oh mrsden, I'm so sorry. Sending lots of love to you and mrden.

I hope you are feeling ok after the surgery today euro. Sorry to hear about the thefts near you, it's horrible, makes me really cross to think of people being worried in their own homes. Like pout says, hopefully they have moved on now.

Exciting times buzzy, sounds like all is going well and you do sound very relaxed. Thinking of you.

Good luck for tomorrow nelly, I've everything crossed for you.

Hope you are feeling better now gin.

I sympathise with the waiting rabbit, it's crappy. This whole ttc business is so out of our control and having to spend time waiting in limbo just seems to make everything feel even more difficult. I hope you are feeling a bit better today.

Thanks for the reply about the baby making bible sea, I've pretty much finished reading (not acting on too much yet) in well behaved preparation for my acu tomorrow. I've been trying really hard to think positively this week and visualise having a baby, but after years of listening to the shitty inner voice telling me I can't do it, this could take some time... Good luck tomorrow acu fella

How are you doing critter? Thinking of you.

joy at apprentice twerps

Waves to everyone else!

Den -oh sweetheart, I am so so sorry. Its such an odd feeling after the high of the cycle to get a bfn. Thinking of you and sending creme eggs and hugs.

Euro - really sorry to hear of the cyst op and burglaries,. Not fun times. X

Nelly - thinking of you, what's the latest?

Buzz-best of luck for et. How are the embryos?

Critter - hope you are enjoying being pupo.

Well today is my 4th day in a row with no symptoms. I am almost 8 weeks but not sure the baby is still with us. I am scared. Going to try and beg another scan.

Sar hang on in there. You know logically symptoms come and go, but I can imagine the fear. Can you arrange a private scan to put your mind at rest?

Pout Big Dig sounds fun .

Thanks for your wishes ladies, blood test not actually until tomorrow though. Doesn't look like I will be getting good news though as I broke out the FRER today and there was very much only one line. I am not in a very good place. Why can't it just be simple. Why cant it go right. I've been getting BFPs for days, why can't that just be it? This is truly, unutterably shit and I am fed up of the crap. It is never going to be my turn and I feel hollow and broken. Right now I feel like I'm done with it all.

Oh no nelly, I just feel like wailing on your behalf. It's all totally f'ing unfair. It just never seems to be simple and straightforward for many people who go through AC and infertility , the crap seems to continue. Personally I have always hated FRER, they're overpriced and I got a positive on cheapies before those so I just hope they are being crap for you too. See what the beta test shows tomorrow. Massive massive hug. It's just a rotten experience.

Sar - I can imagine the fear. But symptoms do come and go , that is very very normal. I know it's disconcerting so do go and get a scan for reassurance.

So sorry nelly. I'm in the same place, it's not nice but we will be ok xx

Sar symptoms do come and go. Can you have a private scan?

Oh mrsden I'm so sorry, next time, next time. nelly I hate to hear you are in a shitty place, it's so unfair.
sar do try not to worry. I'm sure it is fine.
Hugs all.

Thank you Joy. We really do seem to get such a rotten deal. It is a total bitch and right now I feel very angry. I checked the frer level online and it seems to be not as sensitive as the ICs, but I am not holding out much hope. There's no chance I'm getting a nice surprise. I feel like such a fool for having dared to dream; yet at the same time, those few days of BFPs did make me feel happy, and who doesn't want that. If I'd tested today without all the previous tests, I'd have been just as upset at the BFN. So at least I got to experience that happiness for a nanosecond.

MrsD how are you? Hope you manage to plan some lovely things to do today. Wishing it had been different for you.

Buzzy any more updates?

Mad how are you holding out?

I can't see much work getting done today. Or tomorrow. Oh dear.

pout our newly installed alarm system includes a personal alarm on the remotes, so hopefully that would make someone jump and bring the neighbours out!

I'd be more worried about a burglar responding if I started. I very occasionally see red and lash out and that kind of high adrenaline situation would probably be just such an occasion! Oh well, hopefully the police will catch the little scrote at some point.

Haha joy. That must have been excrutiating! I used to carry one back in my clubbing days and my fear was always setting it off accidentally.

Oh sar. I hope you are ok. Can you go to your local EPU and just wait there until someone scans you? If not, would you think about a private scan to put your mind at ease? As others have said though, symptoms do come and go.

nelly I'm very sorry it was a BFN today. What a disappointment. It sounds like it was a different test though? Can you test again with the same type of test that you were using before?

Euro yes all the others were just amazon cheapies. I've one left ( though must go check if postie had been as ordered more last week) but not sure if there is any point as a) it's not going to be fmu and b) I think I might be torturing myself. I have sobbed and wailed and feel a bit better. At least the call at work tomorrow won't be a surprise.

Doll thanks for your hugs. How are you, still stateside?(up very early if so!)