Morning ladies! 
Hope you all enjoyed a wonderful Christmas and Santa brought everything that you all wanted?!
I'll apologise for a 'me' post now! Has been a bit of an eventful stressful one here! After the elation of last wednesdays scan and booking in apt (which seems like an eternity ago) the next day I went to see the consultant, and waited 2hours, it was just me and Summer, so by the end of it I was in tears, she was not impressed and bored and grizzly, and it was way toooo much after all my bed sofarest cotton wool wrap... Was a bit pointless as well, not as big a risk of thrombosis, which was reason for rushing the apt through, and saw hard faced woman registrar not the consultant I'll be under, so felt alot of the joy and reassurance from the scan the day before was slightly undone... 
The next day we went to MIL and saw all the nieces and nephews, and on Christmas eve afternoon, got a call to say youngest nephew had broken out in chicken pox... 
Spent the next few hours sobbing, panicly googling, freaking myself out, on the phone crying to NHS direct, who said guidelines show contagious period 2days before rash, so fingers x'd, we might be ok, and I had it as a child, they suggested I still contact a midwife or Dr, cos of history and anxiety, this was 5.30pm on christmas eve, so all I could think of to find a midwife available to talk was the Delivery suite(!), but they got the Senior Midwife on the phone to talk to me and was lovely, but suggested I get the ante natal dept to get the lab to run a test on the bloods they took last week to see if I have antibodies, so will be arranging that today...
So try and focus on Christmas day, and giving my gorgeous girl a great one, and half way through opening her presents she started throwing up everywhere, 
poor thing was so ill, took her up to our bed, and she was still being sick, eventually after calpol she fell asleep, DH picked my mum up, and when Summer woke again she was in such a state, burning up, sobbing, really distressed, calpol helped, we washed her and myself (stinking of sick, still in nightie at 4pm ) and even managed to sit her in her highchair with DVD player and have a yorkshire, while we ate, but she was still attached to my lap for the whole rest of the time, barely walked, and was asleep again by 7.30pm, half her pressies unopened.. She was tossing and turning all night, burning up, and so rough still yesterday, but hoping she has now turned acorner after a good nights sleep last night.. still 3 pressies left to open! Also meant that we didnt get to spend boxing day with DHs parents and family, but also cos the nephew with chicken pox was there so couldnt of anyway pretty gutted tbh...
Anyway, now I'm a ball of anxiety after all the stress, about tomorrows scan, its at 10.40am, and I'm feeling soooooooo scared, symptomless, nervous, and hating myself for feeling really negative.. Just not feeling very lucky at the moment..
Please ladies, hold my hands, say a prayer, I really feel your collective positive thoughts and morning txs help like you wouldnt believe... I could just cry at the moment...
I'm really sorry for such a huuuuuggge self induldgent post... Love ya xxxxxxxx