Emmsy's ladies - 4 years of weebling - still going strong!

[4everhopeful]

Here's to us ladies! Proud to be part of this - onwards and upwards..

So, here we are, in 24hrs I shall have had my scan.... (its 3.30pm!)

Am once again scared to think beyond that, and either outcome, but exceptionally scared as by my dates I'm 8w3d (8w by official dates) and five of my previous pregnancies all ended during wk 8

This wk would be a huge huge milestone for me...

However, maybe crazily, or maybe positively and optimistically, ante natal called me earlier to make my booking in apt as they had slots for next wk, so I've made it for next weds at 12pm I've also (crazily or optimistically) pre booked next wks scan for an hr beforehand.. All v scary as only ever made it to Summers booking in apt, despite having several arranged...

Can't believe I've done all that in advance of knowing the outcome of tomorrows scan, on such a significant wk...

So, prayers, hand holding/squeezing, and positive thoughts much appreciated as always! xxxxxxxx

Ohhh 4ever that is all so significant for you I know. Especially having only made Summer's booking in appointment, you must be feeling so anxious. Praying hard for you for tomorrow and some good news. Tomorrow I will try to remember to get out my llo's rosary (that I bought to remember my angel) and pray some of it for you at 3.30.

I've just heard today that a good friend of mine has miscarried :( her first pregnancy. So crappy, especially at Christmas... I have just bought her one of those little charms on ebay with a little footprint on and 'remember'...I hope she'll like it as I know I would have so appreciated something like that.

buddha so so sorry the target in your head wasn't reached :( but yes, raising a glass of bubbly to you for a drunken Christmas!

sabs so glad bleeding has stopped.

Well no idea what Monday's regression was about cos ds1 is back to being absolutely fine now (no, not ill 4ever though thanks for suggestion) ...I have gone back to massively praising him over dry pants and going on the potty/toilet and he seems to quite like that so maybe he was just feeling like I'd got a little complacent over it!

Hooray! Was just posting to ask if anyone had heard from 4ever and have just had a text from her saying all is well yipppeeeee

Yay

4ever

4ever utterly delighted and relieved for you and your bean. I've been thinking about you all day and was almost too scared to check my phone earlier. Next stop, booking in . Hand squeezing continues apace xx

Sabs - so delighted and relieved for you too honey that your 12+ now and the bleeding isn't anything sinister.

Buddha - you will be +ve over Christmas, what a lovely BFP that would be. Keeping everything crossed xx

Hey to everyone else, full Christmas madness here with card writing, shopping, nativities, parties and work dos (mine tomorrow, wearing a Top Shop t-shirt no less - check me )

Love to all xx

4ever Lovely, lovely news. Now, clearly sitting down crafting is a good thing to do as it's relaxing. Shall email you a recipe for saltdough decorations - just like playdough, Summer will love it and you'll have something to remember this Christmas by next year xx

lbm please can I have the salt dough recipe too

blue not deluded, you're fabulous!!!!

Yes post the recipe lbm I'd love to do it too.
As 4ever hasn't been back to update, hope she won't mind me saying she also said they'd put her forward by a few days so she's officially 9 weeks now! And out of the dreaded 8 week danger zone! So happy for her. :)
Enjoy your party blue!

Aww thanks ladies! I'm still pinching myself to be honest! Was so low & scared of the worst yesterday, id had some twingey pains which had freaked me out & think being at the previously awful 8wk mark, I was a real state all day, so when we finally got there & I was laying there petrified, I sobbed & sobbed with relief when they said 'its ok!' Was magical and beautiful, and it even gave us a little wiggle! That wiggle will stay with DH & I forever, Summer did this funny arm waving dance about 10wks & it was one of those moments!

Even more amazingly, they have now moved me on a whole week!!! Measurements make me 9wks, which is just unbelievably brilliant and gets me to a point I've only previously reached twice before (once with Summer!) Eeek! Huge monumental milestone!

So, a happy 4everhopeful household here! Not out the woods yet, but one week at a time! Do think we may be benefiting from the tail end of the last treatment, definitely sofarest & taking it slow & easy, & lots of praying! Also proud of my pfb Summer, as normally MIL looks after her here, but first time I left her at MIL house and she didn't bat an eyelid! Great for her, reassuring for me!

Cupcake we tx, but your post meant a lot, thank you! Glad J is back to his self too!

Lovelyblue thanks for the continual hand squeezes! Ill definitely still be needing them! Have a fabulous and glamorous time at your work do tonight you trendy young thing!

Lbm oooh thank you yes! Salt dough sounds interesting! Crafty stuff is definitely relaxing, therapeutic even! Watched Kirstie last night & thought of you Christmas special next week!

Yay Rumours lets attempt a joint effort on this salt dough thing, we can swap tips

Waves to buddha, hope you're ok?

Ha ha cupcake!! It took me about 1hr to write my post! kept coming back to it in between washing, potty emptying, playing and tea drinking!

X post! Big waves to you lovely, and no don't mind you saying it at all as such amazing news! X X X X

Congratulations 4ever. So relieved for you.

Buddha Hoping the lovely ladies on here have predicted correctly and you DH gives you the present of a lifetime for Christmas.

Snowed under here but thinking of you all.

Ok - have struggled to find the recipe as I know I cooked mine last time. Kirstie does hers in the microwave but recipe seems same:

Ingredients

1 cup salt
2 cups plain flour
1 cup luke warm water

Directions

1. In a large bowl mix salt and flour.

1. Gradually stir in water. Mix well until it forms a doughy consistency.

1. With your hands form a ball with your dough and kneed it for at least 5 minutes ( or do it in the fooe processor/ mixer!). The longer you kneed your dough the smoother it will be.

Store your salt dough in a air tight container and you will be able to use it for days.

You can paint your creations with acrylic paints and seal with varnish or polyurethane spray.

You can let your salt dough creations air dry, however salt dough can also be dried in the oven. Bake at 200 F until your creation is dry. The amount of time needed to bake your creations depends on size and thickness; thin flat ornaments may only take 45-60 minutes, thicker creations can take 2-3 hours or more. You can increase your oven temperature to 350 F, your dough will dry faster but it may also brown, which won't matter if you are painting your entire creation (you can also cover your dough in the oven before it turns brown).

There are a few options to color your salt dough: 1. Add powdered tempera paint to your flour, 2. add food coloring or paint to the water before you mix it with the salt/flour, or 3. add natural coloring like instant coffee, cocoa, or curry powder.

Or paint and glitter to your hearts content when cold!!

Oh and the bigggest yay in the world to 9 weeks, 4ever , could not be happier for you - well apart from when you are at 40 weeks that is. Now, see how well the sand is serving you? Gte your head right back in - pregnant, you, never !!

Thanks for recipe LBkirstieM

Totally forgot to say how lovely my meet up was with neeko and the gorgeous H last week. Both B and H now using the big boy/girl toilets and sitting up at the table eating their toast while we blethered and the Christmas decorations in Princes Square sparkled

Hope our pregnant Emmsy's 4ever and Sabs are resting and keeping their beans snug xx

Aaarrrggghhh ds2 has smashed the iPad aaarrrggghhh.

And breathe

Thanks for the recipe lbm

Oh no rumours! Have a hug & a baileys!

Thanks Lbkirstiem! Shall be trying that asap!

Waves to Scottish meeting ladies neeko & blue!

In bed now! Dh & I just wrapped the very last presents! Officially completely done! And now to sleep - zzzzzzz... (ignoring slightly worrying twinges & hoping a runny nosed snuffly Summer has a good sleep!)

Nighty night all x x x x

4ever Just to reiterate so very pleased about your scan plus the added bonus of moving you forward in your dates That sand is doing a good job. Thanks for trying to keep me upbeat
lbm You crafty one you
Blue and Neeko Glad you had a lovely meet up
Rumours oh dear is it repairable? You ok?

HoHoHo Welcome back and good news on the ttc front Let us know when you're testing bi take it things are resolved or better with you and dh now?

Thanks for trying to be pisituve about my Christmas pg lovely ladies, wish I could feel the same, but after 15 months of trying its starting to get me down (a lot)

Really hit me for six and I've been vile all week, can't keep on like this. Had a heart to heart with dh he's been putting off his tests as he's worried it's his fault we've not conceived. So I've repeated what he used to say to me when we had our m/cs "I married you for who you are, not what you can give me" Anyway he's diabetic, I'm old and fat so chances are slim Seriously though we've decided to put a shelf life on it as I can't go on feeling this crap and miserable every month, I will go insane and I'm so snappy and irritable with everyone once a month it's worse than pmt! We will get all our tests done and referral to hospital, see what they suggest and then if nothing's happened stop next June when I'm 41. Pg is not kind to me, the chances of spd returning earlier and worse are increased and every pg I've had awful m/s and combined with 9 months of worry like last time if takes so much out of me. At least if we've done all the tests we can't have any regrets or "what ifs"
I can't say it's been an easy decision, I can't say it doesn't hurt (it breaks my heart) but its the right one for us long term
Don't want to bring the thread down but wanted to explain my self pity and negativity, hope you understand x

Sorry for confusion the post to HoHoHo was meant for my other thread (stupid)

Oh buddha bless you, you sound so beaten down by it all :( thanks for sharing all that though, it sound like you & dh have your heads screwed on & are really together on this. Hope & pray the tests will throw up something to give you your miracle before June. If not, would you ever consider adoption? Hugest of hugs to you anyway lady x

neeko & blue sounds like a perfect christmassy date! :)

I'm ok thanks, but how about you? Some heart wrenching thoughts and decisions going on there. I bet it's not easy to go through this. I can relate to the angry emotional woman you are, but with different circs obviously, but it's not great is it. I've got the community mental health team visiting tomorrow to hopefully give me some coping strategies, I gave in and asked for help.
It sounds good that you've got a plan to be going on with, and I hope with all my heart that it gives you some positive answers with a positive outcome. In the meantime I'm here with the other weebles, anytime xxxxx

Oh buddha my heart goes to you, your angst & despair jumps off the page... I know the turmoil you're in and I wish I had a magic wand.... I stand by what I said to you though, don't look upon tests and investigations as an admission of some sort of failure or slow closing of a door, but a possibility of renewed hope, and a potential cause being established, for which there is highly likely to be a cure, it may even be something really simple... In the meantime, hang in there, you're braver and stronger than u feel, pour yourself a large baileys, give your lovely Dh and Ds a cuddle, and please don't beat yourself up.... X

Rumours lovely stoic soul that you are, you always mask up how bad things are for you... I weeble away on you all enough, please reciprocate when you need to...? You have so much going on for you, and although we all harp on about our admiration for you and what you do, i know it doesn't mean one iota when you're crumbling and struggling silently inside, its bloody great you have asked for help and have a support team that can give it.. All I can really offer is the same advice for now as I gave to buddha - give your Dh & Ds's a big hug, pour yourself a large Baileys, be gentle on yourself and don't beat yourself up... Huge hug X

Just want to echo 4ever's wise words to Rumours and Buddha. Wish I could make you both better.

Rumours It's definitely not "giving in" asking for help and support, it's the sign of an amazing mum who recognises the challenges she's up against and realises that there are people out there whose job it is to help you and your children. Take it, take it, take it, you will remain sane Goid luck with the team later x

Thanks guys for being so understanding, I am very obsessed low with it all at the moment and would love sometime off from my brain constantly worrying and over thinking
Cupcake Adoption isn't an option for us as our finances on paper aren't great and I know that affects things (stupidly)

I've got some lovely things planned for today, Ewan and I are off to the panto with nursery, I hope he sits still and this afternoon we're going to visit a one week old baby and kidnap him for a cuddle

Hey Buddha hope you had a nice day yesterday and are being gentle on yourself..?

Blue was thinking I know B's birthday is coming up, forgive for not quite remembering when?! Have you a got a party planned? You and Neekos meet up sounded lovely!

Rumours how did the meeting go?

Big waves to our other weebles! Hope you're all getting excited planning fun and frolics for the festivities!

I'm now in full on pre scan weebly anxiety mode.. Another hugely significant one cos of the hopeful desperation to actually make the booking in apt afterwards at 12pm... Sad and anxious memories of pregnancy before last, where I also had a scan before my booking in apt, which was bad, and resulted in me not making the apt... Its always been such a barrier for me having the booking in's, as have only made Summers, as I know I keep repeating, sorry I really am slightly obsessing here...

Anyway, hoping and praying, I achieve another milestone and make this a really Happy Christmas, hate myself for gearing up for the worst though, I suppose its a self preservation protection mechanism...

Well, its 11am, so appreciate your positive thoughts ladies, know it sounds silly, but your honestly wouldnt believe how much it helps feeling like people are sending positive vibes and willing me on, make me feel a teensy bit braver, or at least a teensy bit stronger...

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