Oh Buddha, I didn't even realise you'd been to the docs or had fsh testing.. Obviously you're gonna be worrying about what you read, did the docs refer you to gynae or do it themselves? Def go back armed with your info, and hopefully a, its nothing to worry about after all cos of timings, or b, you're already pregnant!
I'm feeling pretty crap myself, just got another bfn, very slight possibility still too early, but instinct tells me not.. Sadly know my body far too well having gone through 7 pregs, I know each twinge, & as I know ovulation through ntense pain, may sound wierd, but have been several times convinced conception taken place, nautious, tired, headaches, funny dreams, then followed by painful backaches and pains in tube/uterus area that I'm absolutely certain is implantation pain, pain, because my goddamn stupid hostile body, is seeing a tiny forming embryo as a 'foreign body' & attacking it.. This process is what always usually happened at 8-9wks preg, I'm so worried now its preventing me even getting that bfp, with a yr between my last pregs, and horrific mc like af, I'm wondering how often ttc has actually been successful, only for implantation to be prevented by my stupidly wrongly wired immune system going into attack mode instead of protect mode?
Id so hoped we'd have this 3m protection window from the treatment, the first round I never fell preg in that 3m, and it was 2m later I fell with Summer and had a booster, so maybe a double dose is what was needed? However that's another £1K we don't have right now..
So, the 'time limit' is up on the 31st, possibly enough time to ttc again, but not a full cycle, then not sure, back to a wing and a prayer? Potentially another 9m til I'm preg again if the last 2 are anything to go by? Have been thinking it may not even happen, Summer seemed such a far fetched dream, do feel we should just be so grateful our prayers were answered with her, and its wrong to ask for more.. How many more mc could I take if we do get preg? Another factor is I'm miraculously still dragging out my redundancy, at some point in next. couple yrs will have to think about returning to work, really wanted to complete our family first, that's the point we accept to just count our blessings for Summer, & right now that's what we do daily, obviously, she is showered with love, and spoilt rotten, but what I want to give her most is a brother or sister... She's started playing hide and seek on her own, covering her eyes, counting to 10, & shouting 'coming, ready or not' how heartbreaking is that?
Sorry, I'm totally rambling, just needed to get it all out... Suppose I'm also still feeling the fallout as last mc only about 10wks ago...