Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

blizy I know what you mean.

It's all over for me this month, I have started spotting.

Oh Blizy .

Fan, when is AF due?

Elly, FX!

On the ttc front, our current plan is to wait about 18 months before we start ttc. If I conceive quickly then Maia would be 2 years 3 months or thereabouts, which seems like a good age gap. I am sticking my fingers in my ears and going la la la about the extra cost - we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. I so want more babies - don't know how many more, though. I think it will depend on how the next pregnancy goes physically and emotionally. I am really hoping having completed one successful pregnancy will make me less scared in the future, but I don't know.

blizy - sorry, that's rubbish :(

Well, I'm totally confused - no idea what's going on here. Spotted a tiny bit last night - told DH that the wait was over this month :( but that's all it was, have had a tiny bit more spotting today, but nothing really. It's not usual for me, if I do start spotting, it generally just gets heavier over the day and then AF is here full-blown. Trying not to get hopes up, just a bit confused.

Fx fan

blizy hugs hun I was really wishing for you this month.

too I've only just started tww, so a while yet. Probably test week on tuesday.

Oh Blizy that's really shit. I'm so sorry love xxxx

Blizy sorry xxxx

Thanks girls, it really feels like a kick in the teeth, especially since finding out my dsis and bf are pg. Oh well cyce 11 here we come. I thinkif I am not pg next cycle then I will head to the docs. It's so hard, I am hating this ttc and the waiting for the bfp.

blizy I know how hard it is, I'm on cycle 10 and it just gets worse each time. Doesn't help that every time I see my mum she has that look, the expectant one! Also people looking at my belly, telling me that soon it will happen! I'm fed up with hearing it sometimes. That's why I'm trying to change things for the good like weight loss and hobbies that I used to enjoy, I feel if I start to enjoy life again and myself then maybe I will get that BFP and it will stick.
It does suck when those around just have to look at a guy and fall pg (bff I'm talking about you!) We toil and toil at it and seam to get no where and then when we do it ends so tragically!

Arh Blizy & Fan so wish it could happen for you both... Xxx I remember the emotional roller coaster , stress & anguish so much. Xxxxxxxx
I ll keep everything ( including my legs!!!!) crossed it happens very soon xxxxx
( oh for Miasmum & Ellypoo too xx)

I've been so naughty! I've eaten a bag of aero chocolates and a sandwich from a shop! And now I feel really bed mentally and physically, my stomach so does not feel good! Guess I will have to bust the exercise regime later (as long as the tummy is ok)
Not sure if its the weather or the clocks going forward but I'm really tired. Don't want to think its a symptom. CD19 today so very early days.

How you feeling today Blizy?

One bad day is allowed Fan Aero's are mainly just bubbles anyway

Woke up full of sneezy cold this morning, boo! Good news is K won her Easter Bonnet competition, yay

Huge Hugs to both fan & blizy. I'm finding it hard and have only just had 1st cycle - sending huge cyber hugs & love & total best wishes!!

fan - can't fault you on the choc, and aero is mainly bubbles, afterall!!

Poor you wtw - it seems to be going around loads at the moment, possibly the sun has brought all the bugs out! Well done to K for winning the Easter Bonnet comp though (although I guess you did all the work, so well done to you too!!!)

All over for me now, naughty AF trying to trick me! Oh well, CD 1 again for me - don't you kind of feel like you are constantly wishing time away - CD1 to ov, then 2ww, then start all over again :( I absolutely hate that it has to be like this, it really is amazing that populations ever increase.

We are trying to get a cheap holiday booked - think we both need it after the past few months. Any suggestions?

Oh, another 1lb off this week for me, totally unexpected! 3 mile walk tomorrow to meet my mum friends for picnic lunch - will start this week well if nothing else!!

ellypoo so sorry AF has arrived.

wtw well for you and K for winning the easter bonnet comp!

Elypoo- sooty af got you. . It is utterly soul destroying when he shows.

Whatever- yay to K! Hope you feel better soon? When is your next scan?

Still spotting here, gearing up for cd1 tomorrow. Since having Zoe I have spotting 3/4 days before af shows,( I didn't used to. Af would show on cd 28 like clockwork). I am beginning to wonder if it's causing my ttc problems?

Whatever- I'm ok, thanks for asking. I will come down with a thump on cd 1 though. Dh and I are going to the zoo or safari park tomorrow to keep my mind off it.

Happy Friday everyone

blizy talking about changes in AF mine is now spotting too. Where as before I would just go heavy first day, so actually its better for me, no more accidents! I hope tomorrow is gentle for you, I hope you enjoy the animals. Doctor told me to count from the first day of spotting, as it works out right as I ov around day 15.

Hmm fan- I count cd 1 AA first day of proper bleeding. I ov on cd 17 and af due cd 31.

Does it often happen that you have spotting for a few days before AF starts properly after you have had a baby? fan & blizy this sounds like what happened to me this month; 1st 2 months were normal and 28 days with no spotting like before I had Nancy but this month, as I put above, it's been different.

blizy I hope you have a nice day with your DH at the zoo, I hope the day is gentle for you.

fan fx this month for you x

miasmum hope you're doing ok.

It's really hard when others seem to be getting pg really easily, it just doesn't seem fair :(

I hope everyone else is ok - how many weeks are you now wtw?

Elypoo- I don't know if it's normal. I spot now every month without fail and my cycle is now 31 days instead of 28. It is all very confusing!

I think after a birth some womens AF change, mine before was very changable and long and heavy and painful and since having Ophelia mine are now at about 29 days instead of anything from 33 to 40 days. Also they are not as heavy or painful but they still last for a week. Also my cervix is now in a standard position where as before it faced backwards, so not sure if that has any thing to do with it.

17+3 now Elly

Ellypoo well done on your weight loss.. Xxx
Blizy sorry ..... Enjoy tomorrow xx

Oh ladies not too sure why it's taken this long to dawn on me that I actually, maybe, hopefully might have a baby in 5 months time. But now it's dawned on me I've just had a big flood of emotions and I realise quite how much I really really really want it all to go okay this time and all of a sudden I'm really scared it won't. I think I've been fooling myself into not thinking beyond 'being pregnant' as a coping mechanism and all of a sudden that barrier has fallen down and I'm terrified. I really want another scan soon and it's not for another 4 weeks. Actually if someone could arrange for it to be August I'd be ever so grateful.

I really hope that makes sense to someone!

Mahoosive hugs wtw hun - I'm so not surprised you are having these massive emotional issues, I'm sure that any of us in this situation would feel very similar xx
can't imagine the emotional conflicts that you must be feeling/going through - xxx