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Mothers of Angel Babies United - wishing for, some of us pg with and some of us holding our Rainbow babies

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Bluetinkerbell · 18/10/2011 22:53

Here we go again! Grin
lots of love to all our angel babies! xxx

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TooImmature2BDumbledore · 07/12/2011 18:18

Mel, that's wonderful! June will be such a nice time to be on mat leave.

Blue, so sorry that it didn't work out this month Sad. So bittersweet about your sister, too. I hope you're ok. Glad the doctor referred you for tests - at least they're doing something.

Same for you Fan, with the doc.

Hope everyone is doing okay at the moment.

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 07/12/2011 20:53

Hi all, I 'know' some of you from the bereavement thread from your kind words there. Just wanted to say I am joining this scary journey... and my beautiful Mia is here with us all too. I feel for everyone here so much - and you are helping me understand better the journey that I am on.

So - just thank you. For your honesty and courage.

MelMal · 07/12/2011 21:28

MiaAlexandrasMummy didn't know how you'd prefer your name shortened. Sorry you're here but welcome and I hope you find the same strength and support from these amazing women as I have xx

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Bluetinkerbell · 07/12/2011 21:29

Hi MiaAlexandrasmummy welcome here :) it is indeed a tough and scary journey!
But we are all here to support each other! These ladies on here have been the world to me for almost 6 months now! We all understand feelings of sadness, envy, happiness, confusion, scaryness etc...

and we are all brave and courageous! Grin

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CheeseandGherkins · 07/12/2011 21:43

Thanks for all the thoughts. Yesterday was an ok day, scan went well but baby is looking on the large side at 88.3 centile, her abdominal measurements were at the very top end of normal so we'll see what they show on the next scan which is 23rd Dec, odd as that was my due date with Scarlett.

We bought and decorated the tree yesterday which was good, also put some more lights etc up in the house. Had a few moments but overall it was a good day, bittersweet. I started feeling really rough in the evening though and couldn't eat anything, felt so sick but wasn't and had a headache so I ended up sleeping. I've been similar today but the headache has got worse and I've taken a few doses of paracetamol which isn't like me at all. I have a blood pressure monitor and it's up from my norm which I'm worried about but keeping an eye on. Planning on calling in the morning if I feel the same and hope it's not PE starting (had it with dd1) but I know it's more likely with GD. Crossing fingers and hoping. 25+5 today.

mel so glad your scan went well :)

blue sorry af arrived :( hope the monitor proves as lucky for you as it did for me x

Mia welcome to the thread, good to see you here :)

angel you're just as entitled to feel sad and voice it as anyone, say whatever you need to (hugs) x

fan great news about the flat, hope you really enjoy it :)

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Bluetinkerbell · 07/12/2011 21:53

thanks cheese I hope so too... together with the blood tests this month, it should be a great help to get my head round these absurd long cycles with no apparent ovulation

angel of course you are allowed to miss Georgie! Did you read Caz's blog lately? They had their rainbow baby a while ago and she still misses her Belle every day... because for every first you have with your rainbow, you miss what you should have had with your angel... does that make sense?

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AngelGeorgie · 07/12/2011 22:57

Thanks Blue &. Cheese xxx
Just feels wrong to whinge about missing Georgie when we ve got Phebs although a " rainbow" baby eases the pain 90 % there's always still a degree of pain there and always will be.
Cheese don t worry about having a big baby. As you know other than GD ( which oi didn t have) Phebs was at the top centile at every scan , her stomach also looked big at the 24 & 28 week scans. I was querying a hernia but was advised there was nothing to worry about & this advice was right. Easy to say ; but try not to worry xxxx
Love to all xxx
Hi Miasmum xxxx

AngelGeorgie · 07/12/2011 22:59

Blue haven't read Caz blog for ages , I used to..., she's totally right.also can t help wondering what our Georgie would be like now Sad our poor, poor angels xxxx

TooImmature2BDumbledore · 08/12/2011 12:38

Hi Miasmum, welcome. I've not been on the bereavement thread for a while, so I haven't met you before. Mia Alexandra is such a lovely name. So sorry to hear about your angel, but I'm glad you felt able to join us on the rainbow thread. I hope your BFP comes quickly!

Angel, don't worry about missing Georgie - it's totally natural! Sad at wondering what Georgie and all the others would be like now. I would have gone back to work after mat leave on 28 Nov and Thea would have been nearly 10 months old by now.

Cheese, how are you feeling today? Have you called to report your high BP? FX it's nothing serious.

I had a scan today and Bean has something called a multicystic dysplastic kidney. This basically means one kidney doesn't really function. Everyone said not to worry because the other kidney seems to be fine and lots of adults don't even know they have this condition because if one kidney is working there would be no reason to suspect it. Still! Sad Angry Sad The consultant said the paedeatrician will examine her when she's born to make sure her left kidney is working properly, but she shouldn't have to go into the ICU or need medication or anything. She'll just need monitoring to make sure the one kidney continues to work properly. I'm at home Googling kidney disease vegetating - so glad I took the day off!

Her growth is okay, slightly on the small side. Her head circumference was at about 25th centile and her abdominal circumference was about 50th. We'll see where she is in 4 weeks. Next scan on 5 Jan at 28 weeks.

razzdazz · 08/12/2011 14:56

Hello all
Great news about your scan mel, my SIL is due in June, lovely time of year.
blue lots of good luck with your tests and the cbfm
fan fantastic that you have your flat now, how exciting, I love moving house!! (mad as that sounds!!!)
angeldon't ever feel bad for missing Georgie, as much as having Phoebe helps it must also be a reminder sometimes of what you have all missed out on as well, don't be hard on yourself.
miasmum welcome to the thread, as others have said the ladies on here are fab, we all understand.
too glad you had a nice scan with bean, it is nice for little girls to be petit!! Do try not to worry too much about the kidney.....I am living proof that you can function perfectly well with just one!!!!
cheese so pleased that you have managed to get through the last couple of days hope dh has coped also. Has your BP settled down???

Well, I have been discharged from oxford!!! Felt a bit wobbly at first then it hit me that they were discharging me as they believe that all is well Xmas Grin.
Baby is growing mainly on the 50th centile apart from abdo which is a little larger.......fat before he is even born Xmas Wink

AngelGeorgie · 08/12/2011 15:48

Razz yeh for big babies.so glad all is well. Thanks for you re kind words xxx
Too hope u won t worry too much . Sounds like they are taking good care of you & will monitor you well. Hope knowing abour Razz gives you some peace of mind also. Thanks, again, for you re Lind words.
Love to all xxxx

TooImmature2BDumbledore · 08/12/2011 16:23

Razz, fantastic news! All must be looking really good for them to discharge you. Bean's abdo is on a higher centile than her head too - must stop eating junk!

Would you mind a few questions about life with one kidney? Does it affect your day to day life at all? Can you drink (when not pg)? Blush I know not drinking is a good thing in general, but somehow that's the thing everyone seems to think of first, including me. If she can't, at least I will have one thing less to worry about when she's a teenager. What would have to happen for her to need a kidney transplant/dialysis etc - is the one kidney more likely to fail?

AugustMoon · 08/12/2011 16:36

Hi everyone, welcome Miasmum, I read about your baby girl, so sorry for your loss. I hope you find some comfort here.
Glad scans went well razz (I didn't know you were in hospital - must have missed that, you're ok? Blush), cheese, too I'm sure its difficult not to worry about bean's kidney but it sounds like the doctors are confident that it shouldn't cause any problems.

AugustMoon · 08/12/2011 16:38

I have to tell you all something... I had a funny dream last night that I was pg but it turned out to be a cp / phantom. When I woke up I stumbled straight to the bathroom and did a test and got a v faint cross (ClearBlue), took a picture of it and sent it to my husband who was convinced it was a BFP. I wasn't convinced so after dropping the boys to school I went and bought CBD tests and took one mid-morning. Test said I'm pg 1-2 wks! I can't believe it really. I didn't actually think it would happen. I feel so happy and yet guilty that I'm betraying Jacob by being happy and that i don't deserve this to happen so soon when some of you have been ttc for longer. I still can't get that dream out of my head and in a way am not daring to hope.... What a rollercoaster day.

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Bluetinkerbell · 08/12/2011 16:46

August Yay! so happy for you! :)

Too try not to worry too much about your little girl ( I know easier said than done) glad you get checked out regularly!

razz good to see you again! glad you and bean are ok! x

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AugustMoon · 08/12/2011 16:53

Thanks Blue - I can't help feeling it should have been your month... Cheese's cbfm is going to crack it. Xx
I'm supposed to be meeting some mums from school for pre-Xmas drinks tonight. How do I avoid the wine without inviting questions???

MelMal · 08/12/2011 17:17

August GrinGrinGrinGrinGrin so pleased for you xx

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Bluetinkerbell · 08/12/2011 18:35

that's ok, love, don't worry! I will get my BFP soon Grin January/February is my fertile period Grin

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janedoe25 · 08/12/2011 19:06

august Fantastic news Grin. Is it just me, blue and fan still to get the elusive (sp?) bfp?

TooImmature2BDumbledore · 08/12/2011 19:22

August, yay! Hip hip hooray! Never mind the dream - you are pg and it is going to stick - fact! I remember feeling just the same about getting pg again - that it wasn't fair to Thea, but that wore off after a few weeks. Look after yourself, it's going to be the longest 9 months of your life.

AngelGeorgie · 08/12/2011 20:24

Huge congrats August xxGrinGrinGrin

ciwi · 08/12/2011 21:20

Yay august told you the man pee was a sign Xmas Grin so happy for you. Your mixed emotions are totally normal, I felt like that too. Just think that Jacob is getting a little brother or sister and he will be thrilled too x
too the kidney thing must be worrying for you but as far as I know people with one kidney function just as well as people with 2 they just don't have the back up if that makes sense. I am sure razz will correct me if I am wrong but if the professionals say don't worry, I would listen to them x
razz yay for a good scan, I got told that a fat belly was a good sign that baby is being fed well x
blue you will be the first bfp of the new year, I have a good feeling x
cheese try to rest and take it easy, the stress and upset of the past few days are probably the reason for your bp going up a bit, hope it settles x
Welcome miasmum hope you get your bfp soon x
Hi Jane angel and mel sorry if I have missed anyone x
Is anyone going to any of the lights of love services tomorrow? We are going, it's a lovely service, I went last year x

MiaAlexandrasmummy · 08/12/2011 22:45

Thank you all for the lovely welcome.

Blue so sorry that things didn't turn out for you this month.

Too I can totally understand your concern, but you wouldn't be told not to worry if there were problems.

august and razz congratulations!

Just wanted to ask a question of you all. While DH and I do want to have a baby sister or brother for our Mia, he has admitted that he is (irrationally) scared that if it does happen, that he won't be able to love this child unconditionally, out of fear of loss. I said it was probably normal, and the fact that he recognised it was good - and that if we are lucky enough to be in that situation, then he isn't the type to hold back love. Have any of you had similar experiences?

fanjodisfunction · 09/12/2011 08:40

Welcome miasmummy I just wanted to answer your question and I think it is totally normal for him to feel this way I know my husband did. And he said he is very scared for the future, if Im pregnant again he will be on a knife edge but he has said that what scares him the most is that after losing Ophelia and having a CP that I wouldnt be able to handle another! Bless him. Its a rollercoaster ride that we are all on, and it will have its ups and downs we just have to go with the flow and see what happens.

Its so nice to hear of the growing angel babies, small and big.

august I am so happy for you! Ive got my fx for a sticky bean.

Waves at everyone!

so it is me, blue, jane and now miasmummy fx for us that we have that bfp very soon.

oh and jane thanks for adding me on FB, if anyone else wants to add me feel free to pm me here or if your fb friends with jane Im the picture of the girl in glasses giving a thumbs up to a door with a willy on it!

fanjodisfunction · 09/12/2011 08:42

i didnt mean to put angel babies I meant to put rainbow Im so not with it this morning! (I blame the paint fumes from decorating the flat)