Mothers of Angel Babies United - wishing for, some of us pg with and some of us holding our Rainbow babies

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Here we go again!
lots of love to all our angel babies! xxx

Good luck blue I ll keep my fingers crossed for you x

Cheese thinking of you all today. Happy first birthday to Scarlett, sending you some floaty hugs. Xxxx

cheese thinking of you, I hope today was ok. Scarlett happy birthday angel baby.

cheese sending lots of love xxxx

pff have a little bleed :( what are the chances of it being implantation bleed instead of bloody AF?
I did pick up CBFM cheese sent me today, so I might have to start using it tomorrow!
why does my body always do this, luring me into thinking I might be pregnant and then doing this... :(
My DSis still doesn't have her period, so she might be pregnant...

Love and thoughts to you and your family cheese. Godbless baby Scarlett in the arms of the angels xx

Blue, for you. I know how you feel though, remember you are not alone in this. We are all here to support each other when we need it the most. I am sending you a huge squishy hug xxx

Cheese, thinking of you and little Scarlett today. Happy birthday, baby angel!

Blue, boo! Have fingers crossed for an implantation bleed...Still, even if it is AF, you have the CBDM to play with next month and maybe it will help.

Sorry have been AWOL for a bit - been very tired and grumpy recently. Have a scan on Thursday and am starting to freak out about Bean's kidney still looking abnormal. I'm scared! I might see if I can take the day off, because whichever way it goes I don't think I'm going to be fit for work afterwards. Bean was practically break-dancing in there today, mind you, so she seems fine. I am not going Christmas shopping, though, despite still having quite a few presents to buy. Bloody dog ate a box of chocolates I bought for DH's stocking! He is destroying my attempts at organisation.

thanks ladies, I know I can count on you for support! I will do a Clearblue Pregnancy test in the morning, just to be sure...
Will have to read through on the manual of the CBFM now...

Birthday wishes to Angel Scarlett, cheese
Oh no, Blue - AF stay away! Not lost hope yet....
Too I know exactly how you feel about the dog! Mine got hold of my DS2s book bag and destroyed his reading book! Had to cellotape it back together and sheepishly explain to the teacher.
Good luck with the scan on Thursday, will be thinking of you.
I'm grumpy tonight as well, DH being an arse. Getting on my nerves. hope it's not 'cos AF due. And actually is just because he's BEING AN ARSE - examples to back me up: putting DS1s uniform in the laundry basket all screwed up and packed down when doh, he'll need it tomorrow. Forgetting I have my work christmas party on Friday. For a start.

My sister just had a BFP and :( I want one too...

Blue, I'm happy for your sister. How do you feel about it? I really hope you are ok?

Feeling a little wobbly...

I'm very pleased for her, really! And happy that I'm the first to know! She hasn't told our parents yet... and I will be godmother!
And hopefully our next one won't be too far off in age, if we get pregnant rather soon...
oooh can't wait till the morning, hopefully my temperature indicates a rise, my flow stays away, just slight spotting (but I doubt that)...
If not... CBFM is reset and ready to be used!

Hi everyone,
Also been a bit AWOL lately, just busy with everyday boring stuff really and have loads of work to finish before Christmas. Just a week and a half left till I break up from work (for the Hols) really can't wait for a break. We had our first Christmas without Ciaran last year and it was hard but I feel like I can look forward to it a bit this year. We are going to the sands lights of love on Friday, it's such a lovely service and we have bought Ciaran a present which we will give to charity for disadvantaged children to get presents at Christmas. In that way he will always be part of our Christmas traditions now although not in the way we hoped.
blue sorry you are bleeding a little, really hope it's implantation fx. I got my bfp the month after my sister got hers it's lovely being pg together. You are doing well with the news, I didn't take my sisters news well at all, broke my heart crying. I was happy for her, just so sad for myself. It will happen for you and the little cousins will be very close, really hope it's this month x
too the build up to scans is always hard. I am sure everything will be fine. My next one is Monday. The constant worry has been getting to me lately and I keep crying, just so scared. I know everything seems to be going fine but we all know how quickly that can change. I am trying to stay positive but it's hard so I tend to just try and keep myself busy instead.
august fx for you too, was it you with the man pee? If so, think that is a positive sign. When are you going to test?
Thinking of you today cheese

I'm so sorry that you still have no clear answers Blue!
Can't imagine the mixture of emotions your going through right now!
I pray it's all well for u!
Oh too - Pray it's nothing major with lil ones kidneys!
August - naughty doggy!!!! He'll regret it when it goes straight to his hips!!!!! ( joke)
" Scarlett baby" thinking of u and yours xx
Hope everyone else is well x

:( it is definitely AF... have programmed CBFM :) ah well at least I can get drunk at Xmas now, which I will have to in able to get through it now

Blue I'm gutted for you. I really thought it would be your time :( As you say though, at least you can have a drink at Xmas now. I understand how you feel about your sister, my best friend is just pg with her 2nd and it made me feel desperately sad and, I admit it, a bit jealous, and yet I am happy for her.
ciwi yes it was me with the man pee im on CD 30 today and t normally have quite short cycles, a bit irregular but then having said that I just had a 3 month gap between having Jacob and last AF so it might not mean anything. I'm going to test on Friday I think, it's my work Christmas party so will want to know so I can have a drink. If its a BFP I might not even go - I probably won't go back to work either... got my hands full with my boys and the dog and I'd want to keep my stress levels down as I often wonder if my stressyness contributed to Jacob's death. If it's a BFN I don't think I'll want to ttc this month because I got pg with Jacob in Dec 2010 and I just want it to be different. Does that make sense? Or is it a bit mad?
Hi count and jane hope you guys are ok? X

August I know exactly how you feel, I didnt want to get pg in September for the same reasons. Hoping that your mood means that you are pg!

Blue sorry AF has arrived, I hate it when my body does the same thing. Sometimes I think we so want to be pregnant that we see symptoms in everything and we start hoping and then along come AF just a little bit late just to annoy us! Im so happy for your sister and can understnad why its hard news to hear. I dont have anybody close that is pg, but I think it would break my heart to hear it, but also I think it could help take some family pressure off to get pg, they will be so wrapped up in your sisters news that you can get on TTC without added stress. Not sure if you have this stress, I do a little, my family and my BFF are always going on about it and well I dont think they realise that its stressful and doesnt help me. My BFF was putting it all over FB yesterday after I posted that I had got my keys and was painting my hallway, she puts 'yay new house new baby!' I wasnt impressed!

ciwi thats a really lovely idea.

It was so good yesterday getting my flat keys, we had dinner there for the first time, put up two blinds and painted the hallway a bit.

isn't it bloody annoying fan? I hate it...
I have made a doctor's appointment for this morning. DD is not feeling very well, coughing and complaining of throatache, and I booked one for me too... Just need to tell a doctor about my long cycles and not having conceived yet... maybe they can help... I hope...

well I hope we both get a 'new house, new baby'! :)

and January/February seems to be my fertile period of the year, as both DD1 and Sterre were conceived then...

Blue gutted the witch arrived. At least you get to play with a new gadget (desperately trying to put a positive swing on this).
Fan that's great news about getting into your flat. I bet it feels amazing.
We had out scan today. Everything seems fine. Baby was being a wee bugger for the sonographer but got a due date of 18th June. I was thrilled it was so active on the screen. Not being tested for downs. We'll keep this baby anyway. Feel quite settled just now. Just wanted to let you all know xx

Mel yay so happy for you!

just went to the docs... I was glad it was a woman! and then saw she was pregnant :(
maybe that's why she caved in. I asked if they could do any tests to see when/whether I ovulate. First she said to wait 3-6 more months and asked if that was ok... I started to cry and said no... So she booked me in for blood tests! Need to go to hospital this Friday, as they have no one in the practice to take blood grr... DH is not going to be happy with that...
and then another blood test on the 28th of Dec...

Mel fantastic news! Ate going to the Sands service on Friday?

Blue, I'm glad thongs are moving in the right direction for you. Hope you are ok. Xx

mel thats great news!

blue thats tough, I had a similar thing with my doc the other week, she was so nice it made me cry! I told her I was frustrated and needed my AF'S to be regular and no spotting (as dh will not touch me when I am) and after I said all that she said her main priority was to make me happy again so it would be easier to get pg. I hope the blood tests go ok, or you find out the problem, hopefully its nothing and just a bit of stress because you want to be pg so much.

thanks fan I just want to know when I ovulate... I'm sure I'll be less stressed when we're in our new house and such...

I was just so desperate... when she said wait 3 to 6 months... my heart just sank to my toes... I just wanted to scream 'I can't bloody wait another 3 to 6 months... I should have had a 1 month old baby now...!' What shook me as well was that on her screen, that I could read, I had like a warning note, with my due date! surely if they read my medical history they can remove that!

Blue hopefully it will help to feel something is being done. Congrats to your Sis , sorry it's not you. Xx
Mel excellant news x
Fan how exciting .
Love to all : hope u re all well? We re fine. I m totally in love with Phoebe she's so adorable however., yesterday I still found myself in tears about our Georgie. I m not going to whinge as I realise how lucky I am to have Pheb's but sometimes the pain is just too much...
Xxxx