Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your leathers, black nail polish, air guitar and jump in the mosh pit for some serious metalling. All welcome! (Part 17)

[MarathonMama]

Hello! Just miscarried and ready to start again, come and join us...

Ooops, sorry guys, x-post from me, am slooooow this morning :)!

Summer pinned him down Cds 11,12,14,17 & 19. I'll have everything - and I mean everything - crossed for you this month

Thanks Zebra. Funny image you're conjured up there. It would, of course, have a plate full of cakes and a next to it for occasional re-surfacing. How are you feeling this week?

missg its about time you crossed your legs lady! still soooo excited for you! i got all and pissed off with Beyonce but for some reason i am in awe of the giraffe!! do you realise we now have a giraffe and a zebra on here - praps we should all change our name to zoo animals - i wonder if i could be a tropical summerbird?

gosh missg my poor DH has his work cut out this month!

waves to everyone - notice how active i am on here today - i have sooooo much MNing work to catch up on!

MissG nice work!

Aaargh, how could I have forgotten the and cakes?! All in helpful proximity to the padded cell just in case .

Not too bad here, feeling thankfully more human after being a complete psychopath touch emotional all weekend. Seem to have stopped erpc bleeding, hooray (am looking on bright side as at least that's a step on the road back to action). So am hoping it was maybe just hormones re-setting as wasn't deep and meaningful upset, but more sobbing piteously at really important things like, um, lack of clean socks .

And summer, chuckling at the 'work' and the zoo animals, though if we're being strict I should possibly have called myself 'sloth' :)

Grrrr! I just wrote a bloody essay and MN lost it, I'm so cross, I mentioned everyone individually and everything. Haven't got time to write it again so just want to say a massive CONGRATS to MissG How many weeks are you? Is it 4 yet?

Also, sending big hugs and thoughts to Manda hope you're ok.

No news here, 11+4 today, looking FAT (and not in a good way, I have a new chin that I don't need). Scan is a week tomorrow - eek!

Hello to everyone and welcome to Peps, sorry to hear what happened to you but glad you've joined us.

Where's IQ I wonder

marathon yayyyy for being fat... masses of good luck for your scan and i am thrilled that you are 11+4, you must stay on this thread as i am going to need some PMA when i get my BFP as at the mo i am awestruck that anyone can make a bean 'stick'

treated myself to some lovely Estee Lauder loveliness at lunchtime, got the freebie too so i am feeling alllll positive today its amazing what a free lippie can do for your PMA!

Thanks Marathon Fleeting from excited one minute to nervous the next. A new type of metalling! A very welcome one mind you. Just so cautious about getting ahead of myself again (which, of course, I am doing eg thinking about clearing out the spare room, then cursing myself for thinking about it!)
Think I will be just 4 weeks yesterday or today.

Only a week until your scan! How exciting. What time is it at? Bet you'll be metalling like mad this next week.

Yes, where is IQ? Hope everything's ok in mini IQ land

Summer we also have a crane of the Blue variety . I love giraffes. Did you know that their gestation period is 13-15 months?! Yikes.

Hi all,
Have been at my mums most of the day escaping from DH sorting out car insurance. Then walked the 8.5 miles back from her house to mine so am now Officially Knackered.

DH is winding me up a bit - he is worried about cash, understandable, but seems to think that he works really hard 'sometimes till ten o'clock at night.' This is true, he is often working till ten but he doesn't start till 1pm, then has numerous tea breaks, meal breaks and generally faffs about.

We both work from home but my work, since moving, has been quite slow taking off. I also want him to sort my website and pamphlets, and have been asking for the best part of a year on and off, but nothing has happened yet - he is always 'too busy' with his own stuff or the house. Anyway, I won't go into the ins and outs but lets just say he was winding me up big time so I thought it better to get out the way.

Also, re SWI I would not be surprised if he had gone off the idea due to the cash situation. His ex girlfriend sent him a speadsheet with all the info for his DS's uni stuff and he is now worried about finding the cash for that so I am wondering if the idea of having another DC is about as appealing to him as laying down on the M1. Not that I have asked him, I don't want to in case I dont get the answer I want! I would never admit this in RL but I kind of resent his situation re his DS when it impacts on my life, but I don't want DH to know this as it can't really be helped and I'd, er, like him to think I am more grown up and level headed than that when it comes to his DS.

Bluecrane I am glad to hear I wasn't the only one who hated first being pg. I hated it! I thought I'd like it but instead I felt trapped and uncomfortable. I certainly think the next time will be a very different experience (and hope so in many respects) to the last.

Hi everyone else - sorry I am not doing individual posts, there are too many to catch up with with my tired little brain. May dip in and out tonight though...

My god you lot move fast.....I keep trying to get on but life is so busy right now and work is demanding more of my time....leaving very little time for MN!! Other than my deputy director being a real bitch (childless, petless, DH/DPless and generally married to her work) so is totally unsympathetic that I'm desperately trying to grow a whole person right now which takes considerable amounts of effort and means I have to wake up half an hour early to give myself "puke time"....this used to be "make up time" but hey ho!!!

Anyway the MIL is up to her tricks again....complaining that I'm "drifting away" and that she doesn't see me - I tried to politely explain to her that I love and care for her as my DH's mother but apparently that is not enough. She said she "treats me like a daughter" and so I should treat her like a mum....now I already have 2 mothers so really why would I want another - additionally both my mothers know me well enough not to push me when I'm under pressure as I will just tell you to leave me alone and not bother getting in contact for a few months!!! Damn DH and his clingy family - just wish they would pull themselves together.....ok rant over (really must stop complaining about my MIL or just have her done in)!!

Ok here goes for a mammoth catching up session.....you lot need to slow down I can't keep up with my pregnancy brain!!!

miss g - obviously all your hard work SWI did the job....big fat positive and a big fat congratulations from IQ land!! Hope you are feeling well and the metalling is not getting to you too much.

Baby - sorry to hear about your rubbish weekend but glad that you and DH are on the 'possibly SWI' bus. Your lucky to have so many nice places to walk your dog....we have to drive to get to those kind of places but its still worth it.

bluecrane - well done on your decorating and all your home made items....very sad that I missed the ginger cake. Also sorry the witch is making a repeat performance and your collegues news...very sad.

pebspop - sorry to hear about your story and sending you a huge welcome and hug from here.....hope your taking it easy and looking after yourself at this difficult time. I fully agree with the other ladies.....this is a brilliant thread full of all sorts of wonderful women and stories!! Feel free to rant, rave, cry and scream with us - its what were here for!! Xxx

Eve - sorry the terrible AF got you....bloody crap!!! But good to see you have some great things to look forward to. Sorry you ended up in the river...I won't laugh it did make me smile and after the drama from my outlaws and work I damn well needed it!!

summer - sorry AF got you too...were you many days out or about the same?? Hopefully if not too many days out then you should have a good chance this cycle to get a positive....sending your eggs sticky thoughts!!! Your comment about missg finally crossing her legs made me chuckle!!

manda - sounds like were paddling up the same creek of shit....hope it eases off soon so that you can have some time for chilling with DH and SWI!! Xxx

zebra - also welcome to the thread....I'm glad that everyone has been treating you so well (not that I expected anything less from these lovely ladies) and that the bleeding seems to have stopped. 'Studded metal feathers' sounds utterly fab....its like your one of us already!!! Also good to see your already into the traditional mega catch up!!!

marathon - swearing on your behalf over the lost post!!! I will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for you and hoping your new found fatness is all good signs.....went for my first mw appointment and she said I had "popped out" already and then proceeded to explain my protective fat pouch....wasn't really sure how to take that but as my weight and bmi were bang on I decided to just be happy. My scan is a week saturday so think I will be waiting until friday night to do the scary thoughts, horrible dreams, shaking hands and lying awake all night thing....is it a morning or afternoon one?

shimmery - how are you holding up? Hope you are doing ok and hope that you are taking things steady. Sending you hugs and positive thoughts from casa iq. Xxx

Right now let me see who I have missed....big wave to - whatso, poppy, cuttle, pie and anyone else lurking!! Must go and turn the washing machine off and put the laundry out....its my first house work in nearly two weeks as my sister has been staying and looking after me....can't wait for her to come back at the weekend I desperately need a hot meal and someone to scrub the bathroom!!!

Love to you all!! Xxx

Talking of washing machines... just wrecked DHs North Face jacket. I didn't want to put it in the washing machine, but he said it would be fine.... and it wasn't. Ha! Had the smug lovelinees of telling him "I told you so".

IQ thanks, and glad to hear all is well! Sounds like you have your work cut out your director-no-mates! Hope she isn't making like too difficult for you. It is so lovely that you and your sis have such a close relationship - wonder what she'll be like when it comes to labour?!

Baby sorry to hear how you are feeling. At the end of the day, your priority is you and DHs future (which includes children) so no-one can really judge you for being a bit resentful if his other responsibilities could affect that. I kinda feel for him too, though, as he clearly wants to do right by his DS, which is admirable. I have been getting £25/week from my ex for the past 9 years, but he didn't start giving me that until 2 years after we broke up, as he had debts to pay off - pah. He left me with my student loans, student overdraft and a £3,000 cc bill, and the only debt he left our relationship with was one £1,500 bill. I ran up the student loans and overdraft trying to feed and clothe our child. I knew that asking him for more might have affected his relationship with DD (as he was unwell and unreasonable back then) so didn't. Thankfully, we don't need it, but I sure could've done with it for a few years after we broke up! Sorry, I've totally digressed. What I am saying is that I can understand your feelings about this and can see it from many angles. My ex now has 2 children, but he has prioritised them over DD on so many occasions, she comes last quite often, and I that hurts. I don't think step family issues will ever be easy, and it can be difficult when a partner (or ex) has to prioritise and you (or your child) are the lower priority. I hope he is still keen to TTC though.

Summer I am with you with the treats - although the last things I got extremely excited about were a new toaster and kettle. They are very cool though, and are red to match the kitchen........ ok, I am officially a saddo

God, I didn't mean lowest priority, i mean lower at that particular time. Hope I didnt offend you Baby .

missg i am with you on the toaster and kettle - i saw a fabulous set in Currys ages ago but DH wouldnt let me buy it - ok so it was 10 times the price of the cheapo asda shit stuff but it was a lovely shiney racing car green and would look sooooo lovely on our bench I basically love purchases - any purchases whether they be make up or toasters, i am a marketing execs dream as i am totally sucked in by PR!

and indeed how could i miss our bluecrane tropical swan! i too love giraffes and DS is a tad obsessed with them at the mo, if he sees a picture of one anywhere he literally 'screams' giraffe mummy its a giraffe - yayyyyyyy (well he is only 2!) I am already at the stage where i almost embarrass myself but just manage to stop myself pointing and shouting at 'moo cows' when DS isnt even with me!!

lovely to hear from you IQ and thanks for your PMA, my AF was a couple of days early which she usually is so i have a rough idea when i will OV - i reckon it will be next Thursday so will grab DH for some serious SWI next week! I was a bit dispondent about it last month after the CP but this month i am all systems go again so your scan is next saturday - how exciting! make sure the FIRST thing you do is jump on here and let us all know how you get on (before informing family and friends etc of course )

baby i too can see your DH is probably struggling with his priorities, i can see both sides as he doesnt want to let his DS down (as you wouldnt want him letting your DC down either). But of course his new situation is with you and your priorities, its a bit like my BIL - he was married for about 6 weeks before his D W dumped him, he was heartbroken and vowed never to marry again, 6 years down the line he has been living with his new girlfriend for 3 years and is in love but is scared of getting married again, well his lovely new GF hasnt been married before and would love to get engaged etc etc, he also said he wouldnt want a big wedding as the last big wedding went tits up - again this would be his new GFs first wedding yada yada

What i am saying in a roundabout way is that your DH has his responsibilities but of course you are one of them too, i understand his dilemma but i understand yours too IYSWIM. God i am rambling tonight!

manda i hope you are having a better evening - here have a and some malty-tesers!

waves to marathon zebra shimmery eve blue pebs whatso cuttle and all my lovely metallers. really sorry if i have missed anyone (i always worry about this bit)

can we have a bit of prog rock tonight? i have been listening to a bit of King Crimson lately and thought a touch of 21st Century Psychoid Man would do the trick..........

der der der der der derrrrrrrrrrrrr boing boing boiiiinnnnnnnnnngggg!

IQ good to hear from you! Sorry work is so crazy and for your super unhelpful Director for scan being soon though!!

baby so sorry things are tough...I have lots of experience of family prioritising over the years as have several half brothers/sisters and loads of step brothers/sisters and a complicated family...unfortunately I'm not sure there's ever a 'right' or 'fair' balance. Hope it all sorts itself out soon...especially re. TTC!!

missg I would be excited about matching red kettle and toaster... I have a red brita water filter jug which I love!!

summer PMA this cycle - definitely

marathon I also lost a long post on MN yesterday...grrrr....hope you're doing ok?

Manda hope things are perking up with you and life getting less stressful

Right...must dash off to work so will catch up more later...have soooo much to do as we're on hols next week and I have a deadline the day I get back so need to sort everything so someone else can take over whilst I'm away...which I hate doing as always worry I've missed something!!

nothing to report this morning, unless you all fancy some krispy kremes, they are going free in WHSmith this morning so i snaffled some for you all

Summer jump right in! I also think our dino baby should get in there too!

Please pass some Krispy Cremes my way. I don't know what is wrong with me today, I have been sitting at my desk blubbering for the past half hour . Don't know if it's the pg hormones making me nuts already, but I keep thinking about how - all going well - this wee one will never know my Mum. Need to snap out of this. Am so busy at work as I'm covering for a colleague on leave just now, but I can't face talking to anyone.
Where is my PMA??? has anyone seen it???? (Did it get eaten by a lion on our shoot?)

OMG I adore Krispy Kremes. Far far too much really. Now I know I'm going to have to go and get one befor ethe day is out...

All OK here - gearing up to try again this month. No time to say much, but will drop by again tomorrow.

of courssseeee babysaurus crikey we all have a hidden animal in us dont we?!

missg i understand how you feel, when i had my 2 days of being pg last month i was upset that my bubba would never know my grandad and that grandad would never know about him/her. so yes, pull yourself together, but by the same token dont beat yourself up about it - have a good blub

shimmery thats my mantra this month too, me and DH are all geared up and the Conceive Plus is in the drawer all ready!

See the effects of krispy Kreme... missg that was supposed to be walk at lunchtime...not alk

Thanks peeps. I work from home so am just here at my desk on my lonesome (in my PJs today ) Good sometimes, but not so good other times. Suppose it lets me get it all out in private, without spaying tears and snot all over work colleagues and embarrassing myself, but can also feel a bit lonely when you're not feeling your best. ho hum..... btw, just threw my (cold) cup of coffee all over me and all over a bunch of files. Ooops Time to get out of PJs, dammit! I am limiting caffeine intake to either 1 coffee and 2 teas, or 2 coffees but don't know if that's even right?

Donut down in one go! Need another! Am quite excited about "Operation June babies" for you 3! (and I think someone else is on the SWI mission just now, Pie or Eve maybe, or both?)

missg i just re-read my post and think i sounded a bit harsh telling you to pull yourself together!

Afternoon all - my good you lot don't half natter!!! I will try to catch up!

Baby - i am 38 at the moment 39 in October. When we start ttc I set til my 40th as I am so old. but we fell straight away so am frustrated now it hasn't happened that way again. Good to hear you feel more positive about PG. I felt that way about a Christmas baby. Our time will come PMA!

Summer sorry to hear AF got you - so that is you and me in the June boat :-) Decided to dtd every other day. Thinking I should take temperature and chart but that is all a bit complicated for me! Lets go for it :-)

Manda - Hope you are ok.

Blue sorry to hear about your friend at work. I hope she is taking some time out. People try to be brave and should just have the opportunity to readjust.

Miss G - so excited for you and the scan will soon come round. Bet you can't wait. Feeling emotional is very normal. Get use to it girl you have a long 40 weeks ahead of you :-)

Z - I am very impressed with you keeping up with everyone - I think some of the ladies on here have files on everyone to keep up. It amazes me. Take it easy and look after yourself.

Marathon that scan will soon be here. Hope you are showing the bump off :-)

IQ - so glad all is well. Try not to over do it and rest up lady. You are growing a new person inside you. Tell the MIL to back off and give you some space!

Pie, cuttle and whatso Hope all is ok?

I have a stinking cold this morning from falling in the river - no I didn't hurt myself I was very elegant! Only tomorrow to go then it is the weekend. Ds starts school on Tuesday afternoon :-( going to really miss him.

Off to get some lunch all this talk of cake and I have none in the house. Happy Wednesday everyone

HI ladies, goodness me I have missed so much again - just tried to do a quick catch up whilst DS is asleep - could wake at any moment and demand Peppa Pig be put on my laptop (big mistake to do this for him while we were away - apparently the sole purpose of all computers and smartphones is now to provide DS with Peppa Pig fix......)

So quick one - huge congratulations to MissG ! YAY! So happy for you.

Marathon and IQ hope you're both well, lots of virtual hand holding and hugs for your upcoming scans

Pebspop welcome, so so sorry to hear of your losses but rest assured we will all be here for you

Right, AF finally over, CD 11 here. I was taking temp etc for past few cycles but can't seem to find the motivation this time around. My cycles are so long it just seems a bit dispiriting every morning when there's no temp rise... I guess I will be thankful I did towards the end of my cycle so I know when to test/expect AF.....

Here's to June babies for those of us SWI at the moment, just think of summer days in the garden/park with gorgeous new babies on picnic blankets watching the trees blowing in the breeze.... (PMA PMA PMA) and of course the heavenly fashion for empire line maxi-dresses to ease the transition to post pregnancy tummies

Sorry not to name check,