Spilt - What you're going through is horrible. There's no dressing it up as anything other than, and we're all with you in wishing that you never had to go through this either 
. You have to allow yourself time to feel like this and know it's ok. You will start to feel stronger, but there's no time limit on when that should be so don't put pressure on yourself. Surround yourself with the people you care for most and draw strength from them if you can? Hugs.
Battery and Mouse - sending hugs your way too.
Digi - I still have my fingers crossed you.
If sorry to see the temp dip
As you have all already seen, I did a test last night and got the longed for two lines! I'm impressed with the stalking skills, and apologise for not coming on to update. We phoned family etc, and I am also mindful of not wanting to upset anyone. I wasn't going to test but Mr O was going out his mind for the first time ever and persuaded me to. I had given up testing a long time ago so agreed as long as he did it, as I'm so fed up with negatives. I gave him a 'specimen' and left him with it. I warned him to let me down gently if it was a negative. He was gone for ages, only to come and tell me with tears in his eyes that it was a negative. I burst into tears myself and slinked off to have a look, and lo and behold there were two lines. To give him credit, the line was only still appearing when I saw it, but it was there nonetheless. We both stood there in disbelief and did another two tests just to make sure. I'll spare you the rest of the details, but needless to say there were lots of hot, snotty tears...I did a clearblue digital for the first time ever today and got a 'proper' confirmation (the others were Internet cheapies). I have cancelled our appt at the fertility clinic, and Mr O is cancelling his semen test which were both next week. We now have to sit it out and keep our fingers crossed.
Love to all xx