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[OhWhatFuckeryIsThisNow]

I’ve 4 grown kids. They are all here for Christmas. Ds1 is going home today. I can’t wait. (Of all of them hardest to get on with, hates his brother-it’s mutual. He’s a lazy git.) I’ll be able to relax when he’s gone.
I am also looking forward to dh being in work tomorrow so me and Dd can sprawl on sofa watching shite.
I also hate Christmas cooking.

Bills sorted coming along beautifully you’ll be used to using your pip for the gas and electric as its on pay as you cards taking into account the bastard rise prices in April. At least your pip now can be used instead of being wasted. Not my problem soon, you can keep the pension monthly payout as that pays bills anyway. Notice today I’ve not asked about your music I’m not interested I simply don’t care. In my head I’m gone anyway decluttering is going brilliantly.

Another fifty for weed and baccy well get on with it I’m so praying it’s all infections I can leave with a clear conscience but even if it’s bad news you’ve already said you’ll carry on smoking so why should I stay for another few years and be miserable with you.

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@Holothane " I’m gone anyway why should I stay for another few years and be miserable "

Follow this. It doesn't matter what the scans say. You've already gone in all the ways that matter.

I have lost all hope.

Of being happy, of developing any meaningful career, of doing anything worthwhile.

Shifts mean I can't have any interests, clubs or meet ups, my dead end job will lead absolutely nowhere and it's getting worse.

I'm fucked off, tired and fed up of everything.

Domestic life is shit too.

Stop telling me it is/it will be ok. I hate it all.

Yes I will but I’m still hoping it’s just infections.

Yes yes yes it’s an infections one down two to go.

Starting to wonder if suicide is a career option.

My house is falling apart faster than my capacity to earn money to keep it together, I can't keep on top of the basic housework and had to fish dirty clothes out of the laundry pile to wear today.

These shifts are wearing me down.

I give up you’ve wasted £110 in two days on weed magazines etc you could have waited till we get paid for mags but no. Now you’re on about a medium well you can bloody wait a few months we’ve hospital appointments lined up like planes at Heathrow as for your cd crap don’t even think about it it’s coming out of your pip.

Well you are digging a hole aren’t you? Another 50 0n weed. I give up.

@holothane are you giving him money to buy weed though? Does it come out of a joint account? You always mention it's coming out of his pip but does it actually? If you don't tell him you don't expect him to be spending joint money on weed then it's no wonder he keeps doing it and keeps annoying you.

It’s a joint account I’m afraid I’m putting money aside for my future yes I take it back out of his pip it will go into his leaving fund when I leave him. 0h he’s told I’m taking out of his pip.

If he doesn’t have it sulks or is grumpy another lot today don’t worry I’ll be gone hopefully.

@Gingernaut, are you OK.? 💐
@Holothane, please leave ASAP 💐