Please hold my hand. Possible breast cancer.

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I went to the doctor 2.5weeks ago with two new lumps in my right breast, one which moves around and feels smooth and is closer to my armpit, and the other, moves still but to my touch wasn't as smooth. She said they were probably fine, and both were smooth and movable, probably fibroadenomas caused by hormones. I'm 43, and still give my 4yr old a comfort feed to sleep (not sure they get any milk tho...)
I questioned her saying I felt the main lump in the breast wasn't as smooth and she reiterated it was, but referred me to the breast clinic.
Breast clinic is running behind (their words) in their appts, leaving me panicking by yesterday, so I went for a private ultrasound.
Well the sonographer wasn't very positive, said that the main lump is suspicious but she couldn't confirm either way.
Also some axillary tissue is different or something?
I'm just spiralling. I have three kids who i don't want to leave. If it is cancer, is the smaller, smooth lump already a cancerous lymph node meaning it has spread? The lump in the breast is about 2cm already and has 'some suspicious features'. I can't find a single picture on the internet that looks like mine, not even the cancerous ones. She mentioned a possibility of it being a lactating adenoma that could have been there a while but which I didn't notice until I deliberately lost 1.5stone. It seems unlikely though, given the second smooth lump?
NHS has finally given me an appt with a consultant for mammogram, ultrasound and biopsies for next Friday and in the meantime I am imagining it spreading, and me not being treatable. It's awful.
I really need a hand hold. And I need to be here for my kids.

Thank you so much all of you. I’m 44 with 4 children - youngest is 10! :/ it’s not in my family history either…
I can’t remember if the radiologist said the edges were also spiculated sp?? Yes, I probably need to get off google!

@firefoxx I promise you, you will feel so much better if you don’t google. There is nothing on google that a doctor won’t be able to tell you in a much more reassuring way. Honestly I think the healthiest thing you can do right now is remind yourself you have no evidence of cancer right now, don’t google, be ignorant. There will be plenty of time to research things if you have to but hopefully you never will. I know that’s easier said than done.

@firefoxxif you want more information use Breastcancernow or MacMillan because you will get reliable information and support.
I’m sorry you are in this stressful situation and I wish you all the best. This was me in August last year. I’m fine now I’ve had all my treatment and I’m now taking Letrozole for prevention and it’s not too bad. Keep posting Mumsnetters on the cancer threads are so supportive.

Thank you @LeftBoobGoneRogue my mind has been all over the place and I’ve been so clumsy this week?! Smashed 2 nice cups?! I’m also thinking that actually my right breast is bigger? I can’t believe I didn’t ask the radiologist if both lumps were similar appearance? I’m wondering how unusual it is for there to be 2 suspicious lumps? :/

Hi all,
Hope everyone is doing ok?
So, I ended up in hospital overnight on the emergency neutropenic sepsis iv antibiotics two nights ago as I spiked a fever from getting a cold. In the end it was an ear infection/sinusitis but it was scary and a horrible, horrible 24hrs. And this is only the first EC 😔
I've also lost a bunch more weight, now only 8st 5 and struggling to get enough good veggie protein inside me I think.
I am so sad all the time xx

So lovely to see you post...I was thinking about you earlier and wondered how you were doing? If you want to contact me privately/DM I'm not sure how you go about doing that.but would love to be your not family/friend support, someone you can share anything with.
I want to give you a big hug and say it's going to be okay, but when you've been going through a shitty time and it's so awful I know how horrid it is and that doesn't actually help! You will get through this though.

I knew you weren't in a good place, but would come back.
So massive love to you and be strong...not sure how we share details...but pm me and hopefully we can. xxxx

@Maisy7 I have messaged. You kind, kind soul. Thank you xxx

@biops how are you doing? I've been thinking about you so much xx