Evening ladies, just a little apology for being rubbish and for the fact I'm going to be absent for a while again, just found out DPs best friend (DS's godfather) passed away this morning, was meant to be his 30th birthday tomorrow, and it's totally rubbish. Also just before DS arrived DP was made redundant and his best friends little girl died aged 4, and now that I'm pregnant again DP has been laid off again and now his best friend has died, I jusy feel (however unreasonably) that it is my fault and that my being pregnant is a jinx for everything else.
Have had a lot more cramping and pain than I did wih DS and with all the additional stress I called the midwife this morning (despite not booking in yet) and have an appointment at the EPU on Tuesday at 8.40 for a scan, hoping to see a little heartbeat and hoping that will bring me out of this hole as only just recovered from PND and don't want to sink into depression again...trying to think happy thoughts!
I'm going back to my mum and dads tomorrow, despite being a grown up with a baby I'm having such a rubbish time I just want to go home and be looked after by my mummy! Also, was meant tobe going across on saturday to tell them we're pregnant, what a downer on our happy news!
Sorry to be so miserable, I'm hoping a break at my parents and a scan will perk me up and I will be back next week and you won't recognise me!!
Welcome to all the newbies, I will get to know you all when I return! To everyone else I hope you are all well and continue to be so!!