Hello everyone
Am really sorry, but there is no chance of me being able to catch up, have just heard about Diege and wanted to add my congratualtions to her, CS under GA? Sound's a bit of an ordeal, hope mother and baby are making a good recovery.
DH and I are working things out slowly, I think I had bottled everything up for so long that once I popped, it was more nuclear than even I was expecting, stuff going right back to the MC, then the problems I had while I was pregnant, and then not being able to feed him, and then right through the fact that the house is far too small for us, am sick of the mess and stuff everywhere, to me not being able to drive, and having the freedom that that brings, and feeling like a single mum for 6 days a week because of his bastarding job, god just so much crap, I blamed it all initially on his controlling issues (which always sound's way OTT to me, he isn't controlling in the sense of "you're not wearing that" or "you're not seeing your mum/friend/whatever" it's not like that at all) but he is really trying, we've made some major decisions, we're moving, I'm learning to drive, he's cutting his hours down, we're no longer spending each and every night sat in front of corrie and eastenders, we're turning the telly off, putting music on, talking, basically grabbing our way out of the rut we were in. TBH, we're both really pleased that it all came to head, we've gone through the shit, we can see our way out of it, and we're working together, pulling in the same direction for probably the first time ever, to get out of it. It's almost like a new relationship, we've both changed our own boundries, we're both getting to know the new boundries, some hiccups along the way, but they are getting fewer and fewer, and we're just enjoying each other again.
We're putting a load of stuff in storage until we move a) because there is no way anyone would buy our house with all the crap about everywhere, and b) I can't carry on, being practically trapped in the house looking at everything that needs sorting through, when I've no where to sort it to, day in day out. So I have been really busy sorting what's going to the storage place, looking at houses, we're in the middle of changing the car (again - bloody DH's!) so I'm scouting websites for the sodding car he's after. Which is why I have been awol for so long. Can't say I'll be back every day because I just don't think I'll have the time, but I will get back on more often.
Hope you are all OK, really sorry I can't do a catch up. Am about to go and start packing up DS1 and 2's room, this is not going to be fun! Having said that, I finally finished the play room last night, it only took me 4 whole days! But every single piece of sodding lego is in the boxes, all the tracks are together, I found every single last piece of all the jigsaws (which I actually did a rather loud HOORAY to!) and all of the board games are back in their right boxes! Most of it, along with fuck knows how many books, cars, nee-nahs, trains, DVD's, CD's, (you get the idea!!) is either already at the storage place or being taken over there this week. Have gone through every pen, felt tip, pencil, crayon, made sure they work/sharpened/not snapped in half etc. must have thrown over 1000 felt tips out (and I'm not joking!)
Anyway, I am gone, lot's of love to you all xxx