First and foremost I want to reasure you ladyhelen that if your milk has come in it doesn't necessarily mean that it'll be gushing out or that your boobs will be hard, neither happened to me with ds, even though he thrived. If you think your milk has come in, then you could try and see if you get more milk off with a pump if hand expressing isn't successful. Do bear in mind that what you express is by no means a sign of how much milk you actually have. I could never express more than a few ml, but my dcs thrived. Secondly and I know this will be hard, if you top up with formula in a way you'll get into a viscious cycle of baby feeding less because he's topped up and then as a result you'll make less milk because he's feeding less from the breast, which is why you'll top up more etc, etc, etc.
If I were you I'd get in touch with any of the organisations fi mentioned earlier e.g. La Leche League, the NCT or the Association of Breastfeeding Mothers, because they could maybe send a lactation consultant round to see you. Another useful place to visit would be a local breast feeding support group. Your cmw might not be able to provide enough support as she's limited in the amount of time she can spend with your. Maybe your trust has a lactation consultant who can visit you and has plenty of time to spend with you to have a good look at what's going on, because you sound like you're struggling a bit.
I know you said that if bf didn't work you wouldn't get upset, but I'm sure that now you've started it will be v. difficult not to get upset. It's a very very emotional thing to do and is not just about the milk. So find yourself all the support you need, use MN and keep your chin up. You'll be able to bf, honestly, you can do it! But these 1st few weeks can be very hard!
Jennster Bantam How exciting, any time soon, you'll be holding your baby!
No signs here. I'm now officially past my due date. I've not slept quite as well today. My mum and I went to Asda today and I ended up having to go for a sit down, because I was feeling dizzy and weak. We're going for lunch now in a new cafe that opened in my 'village' over winter and that looks really really nice, but I just haven't managed to go there yet. After that I'll just have a bit of a rest until it's time to pick up ds.