MOAN ALERT!!! Feel free to skip this post but I have to vent!
I have had the worst day. DSD had a sleepover at her friend's house last night, and, as expected, came back tired, overstimulated and horribly grumpy. She was being horribly whingy and obnoxious and we had a bit of a run in - I didn't handle it too well but I wasn't awful or anything - and I went downstairs to moan at DP and he went all super-Dad on me and said 'Oh you really should have left it'. I wouldn't mind but he was SO BLOODY SMUG and I felt like I had done completely wrong and he didn't back me up at all. And that when he has a run in with her it's just one of those things but when I do it I get a load of 'constructive' criticism. So we then have a row and I storm off to have a bath. Meanwhile DSD has been moaning and crying in her room for about a million years because I told her to hang her coat up (yes, this was what it was about grrr) and he goes in all bloody reasonable and sorts it out and she apologises to me and I suppose is all OK.
Apart from it isn't. Cos am not made of stone and I am still fucking FUMING with her behaviour and right at that second I don't even like her let alone love her. But I do nothing, give cuddles, have bath, all calm.
However, she is tired and is just babyish and silly and irritating and whiny ALL day and by the end my nerves are in shreds from the effort of Ignoring the Attention-Seeking Behaviour and I want to throw her out the nearest window. And DP is all reasonable and super-Dad and she is cuddling up to him and being all baby-like which I hate anyway so I just sit and sit and get irritated but say nothing.
And now she's gone to bed and DP says to me 'She's really irritated you today hasn't she' and I say 'Yes, but I tried to not act on it' and he goes all sad-looking and says 'I wish she didn't irritate you'. And now I feel like the wicked witch of the west and Cinderella's step-mother combined while super-dad saves the day and protects his darling girl from the machinations of her evil step-mum.
I want to cry. Very sorry for long and moaning post, just needed to get it all off my chest.