Well it's finally the day of my scan at the EPU. 11.10 my appointment is, I've wished the time away and just wanted it to hurry up.
I had the bleeding on Sunday, and then very early Monday morning more bright red blood and some clots / possible tissue - mostly small but one larger which was quite distressing. All of this have been red or brown - nothing white or grey, yet. I've had stomach cramps, but nothing too severe (again, yet) - nothing that doubles me over in pain etc. Constant diarrhoea since I got my positive test (could be anxiety related). Still feeling nauseous but seem to have lost some other symptoms (sore breasts, sense of smell). This morning I am getting bloody discharge type (Christ sorry this is all so TMI) but no actual blood. Haven't had anything actually on a pad yet at all - just when I wipe/pee?
So I haven't got a clue what is going on. I'm worried wee one has died but my body isn't doing what it's supposed to do. My gut feeling is not good - my gut thinks baby is no more, but I don't know if that's my anxiety talking re the blood etc.
I just hope we can have definitive answers today- if they send us away with 'could go either way, 50/50 wait and see' I think they will need to straight jacket me!
I'll let you all know what happens later. Thanks again for all the lovely messages, you guys have been wonderful. So sad to hear of the losses on this thread, just shows how fragile and precious pregnancy is - I don't think I ever appreciated that until now.