Thank you so much for your words of support.
We can't really afford the harmony. Looked into it in our area and its £600. Plus they say if you get a positive result they recommend the CVS/amniocentesis anyway to confirm.
Going to have the CVS and hope that I'm not in the 1% that miscarries. Hopefully I can have it asap, the waiting and not knowing is really hard.
DP is adamant that if it does have downs we should terminate. It's less black and white for me but I see his POV.
I know it's a selfish thought but I can't help thinking how unfair it is that I've been so ill through the first trimester and now this. I've kept going through the sickness and dizziness etc with the thought of our baby and now we might not have it.
Felt the baby moving last night for the first time as well, bittersweet. I don't want to let myself get excited just in case. I don't know whether it's better to let myself hope, or whether to resign myself to a bad result.
I'm sorry for the selfish outpouring. Going to try to keep as busy as I can through the sickness to distract myself. And try to see the odds in my favour as you've all pointed out