Oh kitty, my heart goes out to you.
I am currently in an oblivious bubble of calm. I had CVS yesterday and for the moment feel at least there is nothing more I can do. The consultant was surprised that I wanted to go ahead and not go privately, but aside from the two week wait and potential amnio anyway I felt morally that although we would be able to afford it, so many people wouldn't, I don't feel that I should be treated differently because of how much we are prepared to pay.
Ethical rant aside, I got my actual results from the screening back. My background for downs was 1:931, a NT of 2.5mm made it 1:996 but some dreadful blood results- hcg 4.3079 MoM and papp-a 0.4868 MoM took me overall to 1:18.
For anyone that hasn't been called after 48 hours, you are probably in the clear, they called me the next day.
For anyone offered CVS, it wasn't any fun but considering what they are doing, not that bad! Having the anti d afterwards was more painful, the CVS was more unpleasant And weird than painful.
On the bright side I really enjoyed the scan (before the needle got involved) as it gave us another look at the baby and this time it was kicking it feet about and waving at us. It sounds strange but I feel more at peace for seeing him/her again. I am going to have a medical termination if it comes back positive but knowing this, and having taken the misscarrige risk withwith CVS, I feel a much stronger bond than before. Totally can't explain this...just making me tear thinking about it, but I guess I love them and will do whatever happens.