Good luck to everyone having scans this week
apologies in advance for a very long post - I'm hoping someone will understand where I'm coming from - I'm feeling a bit crazy today 
i have a scan dilemma. I'm 5+2 today and i had a little bit of pink EWCM last Monday night and some bright red blood - only a few spots when wiping (once). of course it looks more dramatic on damp toilet paper! that was last Monday and i was 4+2.
after MMC i am petrified, but really trying to take each day as it comes. i remembered the EPU said i could self refer if i became pregnant and worried - so i rang the midwife last week and she said its too early to see a heartbeat (i knew that, i just wanted her to say it's normal and i'll be okay).
she said bleeding in pregnancy is never a good sign but it doesn't mean it's a bad thing either. she said it could be implantation bleeding where the baby is burrowing in deeper (although it's scientifically unproven) she's seen other women attribute spotting to that.
Anyway, she made me an appointment for next Monday - 8th - for a reassurance scan. i know this will sound daft - but should i go?
I'm worried about it already. i don't know if it will reassure me - i saw the heartbeat at 7+0 before and it was great, but it wasn't to be and the baby's heart stopped beating after my 10 week booking scan and we found out at what should have been 12+4 after some brown/red spotting.
This day next week I'll be 6+2 and I wonder is it too early? it won't be reassuring if it's too early.
part of me thinks i should eat healthy and rest and try not to get excited, ignore it really (not get excited by looking at scans) BUT I do feel a real a connection with this little bean.
last time I struggled being pregnant at the start, even though we were TTC when we found out it felt like my body didn't belong to me - like I'd been invaded
this time feels more natural and normal.
would you do? rearrange for another week? go, don't do? hang in until booking scan? i have constant nausea and I donâ??t know if it's nerves or hormones.