Need a hand to hold, ladies. Don't read if you are eating/squeamish.
I thought my UTI was back, loads of stingy pain when weeing and pain in lower belly.
Mw yesterday at clinic took a pee sample but said it would take 48 hours to get results.
Today it was worse so I rang labour ward. They were a bit more helpful, and spurred on by the prospect of getting more antibiotics, I decide to check that all is well down below, in case I had thrush or anything from last lot, and to look at stitches for first time.
Really really fucking wish I hadn't. My episiotomy has reopened, and is weeping and red and oh grim, just a hole with white pus in. It's so vile. I'm going to the GP first thing tomorrow, and I don't know why I'm so scared, but I am. It just looks like carnage down there, I've never seen such a mess.
Then I looked at my internal stitches from the tearing, as a comment the consultant had made had come back to me ('basically your vagina was like butter, hence the damage'). There are more stitches than I thought possible. All small and neat, but it's this awful long gash, there's just such a huge scar. I really didn't expect it. DH keeps asking if we should go to A&E and when I say no, asking to look at it, and I keep saying no (I am not squeamish in the least and I am horrified by it).
I don't even know why I'm posting, just need a hand/grip I guess.