Hi all,
Sorry to hear some of you are having such rubbish sleep. I have been the same and the other night I actually started having a major panic moment. I had been so tired I went to bed at 8pm and at 1am I was still tossing and turning. I suddenly had an irrational anxiety moment where I decided there was no way I could cope with a new born and sleepless nights and came to the conclusion he would have to be adopted as being so tired was going to ruin my life make me depressed and affect my children.
So after falling asleep at about 3am I woke up feeling normal again, be it very tired. And can't believe I was thinking like that.
Anyway the bit I wanted to get to is, I had a bath on Wednesday night. Haven't had one of those in a long time (I do shower honest). It was very very hot and I just lay there for an hour with some lavender in the bath. After I felt too hot and regretted having the bath. BUT! And here is the exciting bit, I had the best nights sleep of my whole pregnancy so far. Did not toss and turn all night and only needed to go for a wee at about 6am. So maybe we all need to be taking very hot baths with lavender.
Last night however, I was too tired to run a bath and yet again I slept badly. And the addition of my little girl wetting the bed and having to get up and change all her covers at 3am.
So some good and not so good news!
I started my work at the school finally, suddenly I have no time to do anything. But enjoying being busy and a new challenge. I have been put with year 6's and I have only ever worked in infants before. So it's really great doing something new. I never would have chosen to work with year 6's as would have been worried about attitude. But apart from one girl all seems ok.
Teachers, you may advise me here. This girl was so rude to me (testing new teacher) and told me her name was something it wasn't. So here I am calling her the wrong name and she thinks its hilarious, her and the girl next to her are in fits of laughter. When I ask her to get on with her work she just says no and carries on being silly. So I asked the Teacher what she would usually do if a child is consistently rude. She told me the consequence and I did this for the girl. She was not very happy with me but hasn't been rude since. So I am hoping that I have done the right thing. I just have always been very soft and gentle in my approach to working with children. I don't want that to change but I am thinking I may have to be a bit more stern at times as they seem to think I am a bit of a push over. Also it's hard only being a helper as I don't feel like I have the authority of the teachers.
Another bit if good news, my friend is throwing me a baby shower tomorrow. It's only a small group of us about 5/6 I don't know exactly who is coming as she has not let me be involved its all a surprise. It's a bit early I know but didn't want it to get in the mix of Christmas and new year as then everyone would be busy. Plus as I may have prem baby late January may be too late. So I am quite excited to see all my girlies all together and eat cake.
Bad news is that DH is not entitled to Paternity leave as he is new to the job. Which means he will have to use his annual leave. Which in turn I know means he won't take more than a week. I wanted him home for 2 weeks that might be greedy but I am worried about school runs and getting myself together in the morning. So I just wanted a few weeks to he used to things. Oh well I suppose I am lucky to have even that. DH and I were separated when our first was born so I didn't have anyone at home then and that was hard. At least I have him home for a week.
And to end on a good note, I am really excited about the secret Santa I have decided on one little thing but just have to think of the other thing to add. I am buying for baby is that ok?