PFJ I'm so incredibly sorry. I don't really know what to say, as I know there's nothing I can say that can make this any easier. I've sat here crying in disbelief and through sheer devastation for you. I hope that when you feel strong enough, you're able to come back and read this.
The thread isn't going to be the same without you. All the way through; from when I was petrified of telling my parents to gutted because they reacted badly, to excited and happy but paranoid over the slightest thing, you've been there for me. You've offered sound, fantastic advice coupled with hugs and support every single time, and it's been invaluable, it really has. I'm not sure what I would've done without your advice and support.
You deserve this so much after everything you've been through - and also because you are simply such a genuinely kind, caring person. If we are totally awesome then you are the giver of awesomeness, if awesomeness is even a word. The thread really won't be the same without you, and we're all going to miss you so much.
If you do feel able to come back and let us know how you're getting on, please do - but also, take time to grieve and to heal.
This is turning into a bloody essay now but I'm gutted for you, I really am. If you ever need anything, all you have to do is ask - whatever help I can be, I'll try my hardest. It's the least I can do for everything you've done for me.
Take care lovely. Massive hugs and lots of lovely cake 