Hi ladies,
Just thought I'd say hello!
I too am feeling rubbish and down. I'm being so irrational but I can't help it!
I've been really angry with my poor husband, the house is a mess and I feel like I can't keep on top of it all. Trying to get my 2 DS's back into one room but can't find the screws for the bunk beds! So it's just not being done. I've got really angry about my husbands bad breath - just wish he'd go to the bloody dentist and stop drinking so much coke! I wake up in the night wretching because it's so bad. I've tried subtle hints but he gets in a strop and says 'I always brush my teeth!' (He does, but clearly he has something wrong!).
Had a nice quiet day at work yesterday - couldn't even be bothered to put on make-up. I'm trying to juggle my remaining leave so I can fit in Uni' too - and swap my working days around my days off Uni' - this is proving more stressful then it should.
Got all upset at Uni' this morning as a lecturer I'd emailed asking for feedback on my exam hadn't replied - when I approached him he just avoided the question - ie - he blatantly doesn't want me to see my exam paper - I'm not at all questioning him - I just want to know where I went so wrong in my exams (usually an A student and that grade was far from an A). To make this worse, this lecturer is quite attractive - we had an end of year ball in June - I was pregnant so not drinking; he got very drunk and made a 'proposition' - obviously nothing happened. Now I'm heavily pregnant, and I feel like he's being an arse - maybe he's just embarrassed, but I'm trying to be 'normal'.
I got home from Uni' and had just missed a delivery (I said no one would be in 'til 1) they tried to deliver at 1225 and I walked in at 1230.
Got really upset and cried because everything is going wrong. I feel like there's no time to do anything at all. I want to clean the house but feel drained. Husband suggested I go for a nap - which would have been great had I not had the school run to do, kids homework with them, dinner to cook, a sky high pile of ironing - as well as lots of study in prep' for tomorrow's lectures.
I actually felt better after doing a few bits. But how do people fit everything in when they're heavily pregnant?
Ugh!
Just climbed into bed - awaiting the 6 am alarm for school runs, Uni' work and housework to stat all over again.
To boot I look huge! Massive! My boobs are enormous. I feel like a whale. I am so unattractive right now.
Sorry for the rant. Sure you all feel similar. Just wanted to get it off my chest.
Much love x