Hello Bryzoan and Newbie. Better late than never I keep telling myself that over and over so welcome to the thread!
I had a full on snot fest of a cry last night - not sure DP understood why I was crying, even when I managed a few words between the snot. He gave me a hug though, hugs help!
Tucked DS back in bed when he got home this morning, with a bowl and a towel over his bed (shuddering at the memory 4 years ago when he was sick and it went all down the sides of the bed, and I had to take it apart at 2am in the morning to get the sick out of the metal runners that hold the slats between the base and the sides...) and some flat coke to sip, at his whinge request. I went back to bed for a bit, but didn't sleep and DS eventually called me to him at 11am whinging in hunger! I've relented and let him have a dry slice of bread. He accused me of being cruel for not letting him have anything else! Bloody kids! If he is sick now...!
Oh, by 10am I had 3 missed calls and 2 voice mails from 2 different community midwives. One letting me know she is on call for me on Thursday, and was checking all was okay, and did I want her to come and see me at home tomorrow?
The other letting me know that she was the team leader for some of the midwives who were on call for me this week.
Anyway, after ignoring, I composed myself to ring back, and let them know that I was fine, but had a sick child, and wouldn't be attending anywhere today. I explained that I didn't attend yesterday due to the events of Sunday and the rude Registrar. I have left it as it is for now. I think I might go to the unit tomorrow. But why? It isn't reassuring me at all - I am far calmer and more reassured feeling him moving than being on a sodding CTG. He wriggled for 3 hours last night as I lay there, unable to sleep! He has wriggled all morning on and off too. He is clearly quite happy still. The minute I am concerned, I'll be out of here!
I'm trying to give myself an end date, I had thought that if things didn't happen by next Sunday, I'd go in for IOL. But I can't quite accept it. And if I did agree to IOL, I'd be the WORST patient ever. I'd refuse continuous monitoring, refuse to be without DP (unless it is mine or his decision) and demand to use the pool. I'd walk out after birth without any checks/paperwork. It won't go down well. Really, it won't. I think it is in their best interests that I stay at home to be honest
. If you thought my initial birth plan was crazy, you wouldn't want to see my contingency plan!!!!