Gummi - hurrah! :)
JoJo - go to DR re scar ASAP. Seriously you do not want an infection. Also invest in some tea tree oil and was it with said oil plus water every night, it's great stuff.
Same for weeping mole sore - get it sorted now woman. Only you can make time for yourself so I don't wish to hear any excuses! (I know easier said than done but come on).
MrsR, lord where to start? Ok... First of all you're in an emotional quagmire, you feel trapped and it's clearly overwhelming. It may not feel like it right now but you're not trapped and there is always light, even if it seems dreadfully dim, at the end of that tunnel.
Secondly; divorce is tough on everyone and you need to make a decision based on what you want. Which means, are you ready to walk away yet or do you want to try and sort things out? Only you can answer this. So be honest with yourself.
Thirdly; let's be practical. Has he actually said, in these words or similar - I don't love you, I don't want you? Have you had counselling of any kind as a couple? To what extent are you playing a role in the marital issues? I don't mean by this that you deserve any of this by the way, far bloody from it. What I mean is what is the cause of the friction you have with him and family? You say you walked out & it was two hours before he came to find you - why did you walk out? There are two people in a relationship, if there are issues on both sides and it's not wholly that he's an unreasonable mentally abusive controlling twat - then what is your role in the communication issues & friction? Again it may be that in all honesty you're blameless here and he is that much of a twat. But you've several kids together and choose to have another kid together this year despite issues so my Spidey senses tell me you're hurt & disappointed by him but not perhaps out of love. Again, my impressions not answers - only you know truth of it all.
Fourthly; let's look at a few other practical points. A) get legal advice re: childcare support & financials ASAP. That salary in Liverpool, gees princely. B) schedule a meeting, just the two of you. Arrange a childminder for the evening or day if at weekend. Make sure you're not in the house but in neutral ground. Pretend it's a date night if you must. Make notes for yourself before this meet and make them RATIONAL. You need to start discussing problems practically. So strip out accusative language (this takes bucket loads of courage & self control I know, believe me I know). Start by saying, calmly - I think our marriage is in trouble and I'd like to know if you would agree with this? Do not react to any scathing or emotionally hurtful comments, just make your way down your list. Said list should include - if yes agree what do we need to consider practically? Eg. His moving out, childcare support. If no- counselling, areas which need to be addressed that are causing issues, points of action for both of you to help get through the problems.
And just as an FYI - locks can be changed quite easily and suitcases of clothing and toiletries with a note explaining why a break is required and he needs todo honourable thing and hole up in a hotel for a couple of weeks is v easily sorted. First resort, no. But as a means of dealing with someone abusive - v effective. But sort out legal counsel first, know yours and your children's as well as his rights. And you can report abusive spousal behaviour to the police too.
Sorry - rather a lot to say for someone who is basically saying only you can do and know what is right for you. Just remeber money is a concern but it's not an acceptable excuse for doing nothing.