I'm glad things are looking more positive for us all today, I know I've certainly had a better day than yesterday!
Caz that sounds like a very difficult labour, stuff of nightmares, but as always, you sound very strong, and I hope things can only look up from here on in.
With all the discussion of fear of birth, I must admit that I am terrified this time round, much more so than I was with my first. I was so relaxed, even excited, about my first labour, I knew it would be painful, but I knew I would cope. Er....except I didn't, and I have always felt like I failed in some way because I couldn't do it. So now, I'm frightened of history repeating, but I'm also terrified of the idea of a c-section, or more specifically, frightened by the thought of an epidural. Funnily enough, when you are doolally in the middle of labour, the fact that someone is poking a hole in your spine with a massive needle matters not a jot, whereas the idea of going into a room fully aware for someone to do it is enough to make me run for the hills! Or waddle for the hills, more likely. But, like everyone else who has been through it and out the other side, I too think it was so worth it. My life has improved immeasurably in every possible way since becoming a mother, and my DD wasn't even planned, I was 30 years old before she was born and was never one of these women who always yearned to be a mother. I'm going with Pam's idea, to be honest, denial is where its at, and when it happens I'll be in the middle of it and it will be too late to worry about it. Thats the idea anyway.
There are too many names in my head to say what I want to say to everyone individually, but for all those having stress over birth plans/venues, I hope you get sorted out in the next couple of days and can start to relax again.