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[crumpette]

This is a thread for anyone who has lost a child or been affected by the loss of a child no matter how big or small or how recent or long ago. We understand.

In memory of the light of my life, Lucia, and all of our little ones taken too soon. x

Morning girls xx

it does suck!!

morning. Sorry again for my whinge last night

Shelley you are on a thread where you dont have to say sorry.....this is the place where you can winge, moan, laugh, get drunk, fall over, etc etc etc xxxx

Sassy I have times when Im back in the 'shadow world.' Thankfully not like I was when I began to walk this god awful, crappy path xxx

Shelley - just had a thought!!!! Im kind of stalking you across the internet facebook, mumsnet....see you on ebay in 5 minutes!

Hey folks

I think we're all slaves to 'could' and 'should'. It's wrong that we are, but sometimes it's all we have.

article on Wilf and I in local paper

Morning girls xx

Brilliant article Lottie

Hi all

can I just sit here and cry for a moment?

I'm sorry I haven't been around, my friend dying. Dp redundant, etc, then L became way too painful to talk about. all too much.

I hope you're all OK xxx

sorry I am incoherent have been up all night

Crumpette hope things soon improve for you. Just one of the things you have talked about is enough, never mind all your worries at the moment.

Shelley - thinking of you today and your lovely brother....xxxxx

Thinking of you today shelley on your DB's birthday xx

Thanks shabs, it's also been the date my father died and is nearly the day my grandmother died last year and I have just tonight found out DP has been cheating on me. For sure. Hundreds of emails. He met her while L was in hospital. He met her for s*x!!!??? I mean, wtf. Even after she died it continued. You know when you think your life can't implode anymore....?! He doesn't know I know yet. I miss L so much I can't think straight. Argh.

Sorry for rant x

I mean, he met up with her while L was in hospital. It started just before L was even born.

Lovely article lottie.

Crumpette im so sorry for everything you've had going on.

Thanks guys. Goiing to go town when its open to get a balloon, printerpaper and flowers. Its going to be so hard going there again i haven been since October. Happy birthday Matty, love and miss you x

Too many sad things, too much worry Crumpette. Write down how you are feeling and what you can do to change any of it. Make a 'plan of action'. Some days when I feel the world is caving in on me I write down what is going on. Then I try to find some kind of solution and write that down as well. Its only when all my fears and concerns are in black and white in front of me that I can get on with sorting them out.

Shelley - hope our Matts and Gareth are out on the lash tonight...hope that it will involve a supermarket trolley to push each other home in I would pay to see that. All joking aside I will light my candle for your bro.....in honour of him and lit with love and respect. Happy Birthday Matt xxxxxxx

I hope they are too. Thanks shabs. First thing i did when i woke up was say happy birthday to him and write on his fb wall... i wanted to make sure i had before some1 that annoys me about it all did lol

Morning folks.

Crumpette - i am so sorry my lovely, he is a twat of the first order to do that to you. What do you think you might do now?

Thinking of you today Shelly.

morning dee. thanks. how are you?

Would it be really bad for me to ignore the fact that im late from my past few cycles?? Ones before that where longer.

Oh shite and double shite - Danny has been in a car crash on the way to work....Ems just rang me....she says he is fine but the car is a write off [sick to the pit of my stomach emoticon] He is going to the hospital for a check up - other than that I dont know any more......oh my dear God - my beloved firstborn.....sat here shuddering and crying.

Oh shabs. > I saw the first part and my hearts in my mouth. Thinking of you. completely understandable that your shuddering and crying. Thinking of you all xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you love. I just texted him and asked was he ok. He just texted back 'not really.' He will be thinking all sorts. He will be worried about work. Worried about how he is going to go on without a car. All kinds of things - he is a real worrier. Oh if there is a God he has a strange sense of 'humour' - just leave us alone please God....oh shite this is not a great day!

Aww bless him. Hope the doctors give him the all clear. I agree with that if there is a god hes got a strange sense of humour.

Shelley he has grown into a truly amazing man - Im so proud of him. He cares (too much) about everybody else. Pretends he is confident - but hes not. He is the most wonderful Daddy. Think he must have had a couple of guardian angels this morning

He sounds absolutely amazing. It wouldn't surprise me if your Matt and Gareth (think thats the first time ive typed the full version for a long time lol) where watching over him