The very special thread for bereaved mums , dads , grandparents and anyone who has felt the agonising pain of child bereavement . Whatever madness you are feeling you will find a knowing ear .

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Welcome one and all , old and new .

We are all here in all our different stages and memories to support each other along the way .

Its so scary isin't it FM. Yesterday I waited for Tom at the bottom of the road. I watched him cross to the island in the middle and then he misjudged the cars speed and ran across the next part of the road. It missed him by inches. I remember thinking I could hit the driver for going so fast at school chucking out time and I could have really slapped Tom for taking a chance. I ended up with panic attacks last night and a migrain.

When Tom saw the look on my face I didn't need to say anything.

FM , it is horrible when they are poorly . I hate it , I get so tired as well because I can never settle at night properly because I keep checking all night .
I am glad he seems a bit better today .

Shabs that must have given you such a fright yesterday . I bet he felt awful afterwards though .

Yes he did TW - no words needed to be spoken. I cannot imagine the time I will ever allow him to cross the road at the top of our street without waiting for him. Its a long, bendy road and also a bit of a shortcut for traffic coming from Bolton. The drivers speed up coming down and then have to brake quickly for the bends in the road. Everything went through my mind last night in about 2 seconds.

In that very short time I imagined my conversation with my mum and dad, imagined the police interviews, imagined the funeral - I had to give myself a damn good shaking and talking to. I am always an optimist but it failed me yesterday.

{{{Shabs}}}

{{{FM & Ross}}} a hug for you two too. I hope Ross gets better as the day goes on.

When I took M to the GP last time (for croup) I openly admitted that I knew there was nothing he (GP) could do and that it was only a mild case, but the appt was just as much for me because I get anxious when M is ill because of losing C. The GP was fine about it and asked me a few questions about it. They are human (sometimes!) and will understand.

hi girls ,hope you all ok,my dd had a scan yesterday and is sixteen weeks pregnant,im off to be a granny for fifth time,omg

Congratulations Hazy - I couldnt text you back yesterday - no credit again xxxxx

Morning girls xx

Good morning all ,

I hope Ross is feeling a wee bit better this morning FM x

Congratulations Hazy

How is everyone this morning ? I have still got this stinky cold , I am bored now .

morning girlsxxxh

Same here TW. Apart from the bored part as my minds working overtime trying to think who it was that had been going to see my db and if they know whats happened. Just going round in circles really.

Shelley , that going over and over the day thing is exhausting . I really feel for you . Those early days are just so awful .

hi everyone

Ross was still running a temperature of almost 40 overnight last night so took him to the doctors this morning

and apparently I am a neurotic mother and he is fine!!!! they never actually said that but that was the gist.

I am glad he is ok but it would have been nice for them to show some empathy

sorry small rant

shelley its terrible when you go round and round in circles like that isnt .. makes you feel like your head is going to explode ..

i do feel like my head is going to explode. So many questions but the only answers i have are ToD, CoD and location. And a few other little ones but not the main ones i need

Hi there. My daughter died of Acute Myeloid Leukaemia in 2007 just 19 weeks old. I have just started the second year of a Photography A Level at college because photography is my main interest. The whole year is based on a project which has to be something personal so I want to do my piece about my daughter.

I want to celebrate her life and her and our friends and I certainly don't want to be morbid so I am looking for any ideas from people on here about what sort of images come to mind when you think about yourselves, your children or parents.

Any comments will be welcomed and thanks for reading this

robinj

Welcome Robin - so very sad to hear about your daughter. You will get support, loyalty, honesty and friendship on this very special thread.

When I think about my two sons who have died I think of massive hugh Sunflowers....they always look like they are smiling - just like my Matt and Gareth were. Butterflies remind me of them as well....only here for a short time but beautiful to look at while they are.

I really, really like your idea of celebrating your daughters life....trying not to be morbid. Most of the time I am a total optimist....some of the time I have to take my Elanor Rigby (thanks to The Beatles) face and put it on before I leave home.

Morning girls xx

Good morning all xx

Morning folks.

Sorry for not being around for a while... reallife just seems to get in the way.

Hope you're all as ok as can be. Much love to all x

morning girls

Morning all.

Congratulations to you and your dd Hazy

How are you doing Dee? Funnily enough I was thinking about you last night and wondering how you were doing.

I'm ok. Just been diagnosed with gestational diabetes, which is a bit of a pain in the arse, but im ok. Hows you?

When are you due Dee? Do they give any medication for that?

I'm due on the 19th Jan, by their dates, but by mine it's a week earlier. They are talking about inducing me at 38 weeks though, which would be about the 5th Jan or so.

I have a blood sugar monitor and need to do bloods a couple of times a day for a week, and if my BS are consistently over 8, then they will give me meds.

OMG not long to go then? My DH has diabetes (type 2) and he checks his blood a few times a day as well - he tries to keep it around 6 - but when it drops lower than that he is like Jekyl and Hyde - really, really irritable and bad tempered.

I was induced at 38 weeks with my first three lads and then Tom was 20 days late!!! My problem was always pre-eclampsia.

Hope everything goes brilliantly for you Dee - didn't realise you were so far along

Wow Dee, not too long now.

Hopefully you will be able to control the GD by diet only.