Hi Charley, good to have you here. Like Shabs said, you don't need to give anything......although I'm sure that you will give without even realising you're doing it. Just having someone say "I know, I felt the same" is often enough.
My day yesterday just got crapper and crapper. Dp (although less of the D at the moment!) told me that his mate needed company down the pub - his wife left him a while ago, etc, etc. So d(???)p buggered off down the pub! I sent him a really shitty text telling him that he made me feel like crap, that I needed him desperately yesterday, that he knew how upset I felt at the 6 month mark, that I'd been back to the hospital, to the same room and that basically I felt like he never gave a crap about our baby and that he hadn't even managed to stay in the room when she was born, etc, etc (it was a LONG text!). I then started bawling with only my 9yo dd for comfort. She did a very good job at it but she is only 9 and shouldn't have to, IYSWIM? Anyway not so dp walks back in 10 mins later telling me that he was already on his way home and that he'd decided not to go to the pub after all, that he'd just gone for a walk to clear his head. Bullshit (excuse the language) but I suppose at least he came back. Anyway, I cried for ages and today I look like shit and have a headache and my eyes ache too.
I only realised while bawling last night how much I feel like the rest of the world has moved on and how I'm left alone to face my grief. It's strange cos I'm sure my family and friends would listen if I talked, but it just isn't like that. Talking won't actually make any difference. But I have to carry it around with me forever. What would be the point in talking about it when nothing can change it? I suppose it comes down to that thing about how you can be surrounded by people but still feel like the lonliest person in the world.