Evening all. My, you've all been busy here this weekend.
Lily, I was thinking about the cast things last week but TBH I didn't pursue the thought. Eris died at some point on the Sunday and was born at 5.54 on Tues morning. In the time between her death and birth her skin had already become very fragile and was peeling in places. I just thought that trying to do casts 4 weeks later on such delicate sking would be a difficult and rather upsetting thing to attempt, so I didn't pursue it. But it is a lovely idea - maybe they should suggest it at the time at hospitals along with the hand and foot prints.
We made a bear for Eris in a build a bear factory but it is too big for her coffin so we're keeping it for cuddles. We'd even put a beating heart in it that goes off when you squeeze it. Instead, I found a little pony that is small enough to go with her, and that plays "You are my sunshine" when squeezed.
Shabster, dp laughed when I hugged him fromyou! Your forget me nots for your 2 boys is a lovely thought. And I agree that the next should be for Eris. Would be lovely if ours flower on Tuesday....
P.S. Dp wants to know what is with the beard? Is it really uou under there?
Frasersmummy, will probably shed a tear for your little angel on Tuesday too then, if it is his birthday
Dippy, it is lovely to have someone else here "waffling on" with the rest of us! I really think that people like you (and many others) coming here and sharing your losses from further down the line give me some hope. I know things will never be the same again, but at least I can see that we will go on, and get by, and that time will pass and soothe our hearts but we'll never forget our preious angel.
Am loving hearing about your childrens songs! Shabster, yours are so funny - Two Little Boys and Pump up the jam!!
Lottie, lovely to hear that your boy got his song played on his birthday! Typical cocky teenager (he would have been turning 13, right?)
Beautiful song you put the link on for, BTW.
Sadkim, what a beautiful little girl! How did you lose her, if you don't mind me asking?
OK, have been smiling at all your messages but now want to admit to you all that I am getting scared about Tuesday. I keep running through everything that needs to be done, then realising that it doesn't actually matter if the food isn't right, etc, but I think it is just my way of denial. I'm petrified of the journey to the crem in the limo with our baby with us in a coffin. I'm dreading the moment we have her with us for the last time, and that we have to walk away from her knowing that all that will be left after that are memories (and so few of them. Tuesday is what I've been leading up to since I started this thread and the thought of it takes me right back to the beginning - being told there was no heartbeat and me just wailing in the hospital, giving birth to my daughter and hoping beyond hope that they'd made a mistake.
I know you'll all be thinking of me, and I know you'll all be here afterwards. God, I'm going to need you all!