One of my 11 month old twin daughters died 3 month ago and Imfalling apart no one want to know, even my DH has left me!

[summersun06]

I feel so alone and yes I still have my 9 year old and the other twin, but I feel empty.

summersun my email is vgeordielouv at aol.com

I also have a daughter who has just turned 10 so is roughly the same age as your eldest.

yes and replied
I missed a letter out of your address, that's why it didn't work

I havent received it yet but im sure I will soon

Thanks Tequila I will make a note of your email address and mine is posted above

Hi inamerryfuddle and TequilaMockinbird have either of you received my email, as I have not received any back. I just want to make sure I have done it proply

Summersun, my thoughts are with you. I once heard grief described as a hole in the ground that you fall into every time you take a step but with time you remember to look ahead and walk round the hole, and don't fall. Eventually you will get used to going forward and walking round the hole, while looking around you. Keep strong.

Thank you readinginbed x

I think I will have another glass of wine, is anyone joining me?

yeah i will join you if you are still here

im not great with words, but not bad company x

Hi harleyd Im back, I was just pouring another glass of wine. Its become a good friend to me on an evening. Are you having a glass to?

yeah im having a couple of drinks tonight
have you looked at any other threads summersun
there is one tonight i have just posted on, 5 things to be thankful for this xmas
life is shit and deals really shit hands
but there are always things to cling to

please excuse my language btw. i forget myself x

Summer - I have only just seen this thread and wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts, although I can't imagine what it must be like to lose a child I did lose my husband suddenly 16 weeks ago and like you have found that all my friends have dissapeared , they all say that I should let them know if I need them but when I do they are all too busy, I also have 2 young children so know how lonely the evenings can be, I am going to try to get some sleep now (early night) but I will try to send you an email tomorrow if you feel you would like to chat. Take care and my thoughts are with you

Yeah you are right there are always things to cling to,I just had a look at that thread and its hard to think of good when you are down but I must try

Hi Mummy2TandF, I am sorry to hear of your loss its so hard isnt it, I dont know about you but I just feel empty and yes the evenings are the worst. Yes it would be really nice to hear from you, so if you want to talk email me on [email protected] I have left the R off summer (by mastake) in the email address. Goodnight and try to get some sleep x

Thank you justjules

summersun06 I am so sorry you have to go through the terrible pain you are feeling I have no words of advice to give you as i havent been in your situation,the only thing i will say is that you no longer have to bear it alone.The mumsnet mums will help you to get through this.They are all fabulous and will do their utmost to help you.

Hi summersun, how are you today, Ii am clearing up, but will pop back soon.

summersun - time is the only thing that can make this easier for you. the pain and sadness will never go away but one day you will be able to remember your dd and think of the happy memories you shared. if you want to chat i have
msn - pink__diamonds at hotmail dot com

Hi Thank you for your message Dingdong, The kindness that has been shown to me is wonderful, so many messagers and emails it means so much. It has repared my faith in humanity

HI Wotz today I have to wrap presents and tidy the house so I am very busy too. The girls are coming back tomorrow and I am counting down I hate them being away.

Well that's great, only one more night before you can see those lo's - get some rest too, so you can whizz around with them tomorrow.

I am glad that you have some MN email addy;s there are alot of MNer too, who will be here anytime to listen if you just want to ramble.

Mummy2TandF - thinking of you

Hi Addicted Thank you for your message, I will email you sometime, thats very kind of you. You are right thinking of the good times is what will keep me going, my email address is summesun0606 at yahoo dot com. When I made my email address last night I had a few glasses of wine and I left the R out of summer so its summe sun oh dear theres hope for me yet!!!!!!!!!!!