One of my 11 month old twin daughters died 3 month ago and Imfalling apart no one want to know, even my DH has left me!

[summersun06]

I feel so alone and yes I still have my 9 year old and the other twin, but I feel empty.

Thank you giggle I cant stress enough how good it is to be heard.

Yes Spawnchorus i am very new to the internet (yesterday) and new to MN but very gratfull

I'm so sorry this has happened Summer and that you are not getting the help you need from your GP. Do try the links given here, they have people who truly know and understand what you are going through.

Also keep talking on here about whatever you like - you don't have to be defined by your circumstances here. Some days you may want to talk on a frivolous style thread and others you might want to off-load.

I don't pray myself but my thoughts are with you.

summersun. that is really awful. i hope you and your are getting support. x

If you feel up to it,and you feel it is appropriate (It is still very early days and I cannot begin to imagine how painful it must be) I would nag Gp to see if you could get some form of bereavement counselling.A bit that gp has not been moer forthcoming.

SANDS and The Compassionate friends are 2 organisations that may help (sorry,complete technophobe and crappy at links).

Feel crass writing that,nothing will take away the pain.

Keep posting,Wrinkly xx

Sorry really don't know what to say but feel so just reading.

So sorry for your loss summersun, prayers are with you x

Thank you I will make a note of these organisations xx

Compassionate Friends, call 0191-384 3519 (County Durham)

This is the phone number for the bereaved parents support group near you.

thank you again I will try and pluck up the strengh to call Compassionate friends, this is so very kind of you all.

Summersun -very very sad for you.
Nothing more cruel than the loss of your little girl.
Please do stay on MN - there are other people who have suffered the same sadness as you, and they will understand, like no-one else can.

hi summer nothing usefull to say but im very sorry for the lose of your little angelshall say a little prayer for her

Thank you all prayers gratfully received

im so sorry, wish i could say something helpful but i'm at a loss. thinking of you and pleaseuse mn as a rant/cry/talk board

So sorry Summersun to hear about your loss. I can't begin to imagine how you're feeling and like everyone else, I know there's nothing I can say that will make it any better but know that my thoughts are with you. I agree with wrinklytum - you should push your GP for help - I can't believe that your situation isn't classed as a priority.

I guess everyones problems are equally important to themselves, I wish I could be a piority but sadly so does everyone else.

summersun.

I can't do links (another technophobe here. ) But if you google TAMBA I hope you'll find some numbers specifically for people who have lost a twin.

I can understand how you are feeling, to some extent, as one of my twin sons died during labour. Obv not the same as losing a child that you have got to know, though.

The TAMBA specialist page for bereavement

(TAMBA - Twins And Multiple Birth Association)

I think every parent who has lost a child feels the same pain.

Thanks, Blu.

How did you find MN, summerson?

I found a leaflet with the website on!

well, welcome. MN is big and busy, but you will find that people will listen, and get to know you, especially on particular boards.

Tell us about your little girls - both of them.

I mean all three -if your 9 year-old is a girl - oh, all your kids!

another thought, i have no idea whether this is something you would want or not - and it would have to be if/when you felt appropriate for you and family..... you might like to have a look at "gone too soon", a memorial website where people set up a site in honour of a loved one.

a little girl who i taught, went to be an angel in may, her mum talks to her through the website and friends light candles and post condolences.
This wouldn't be everyone's thing, but just thought if you are new to the internet then maybe something you may want to know about.

My 9 year old girl (I had three girls) she is such a beautiful and brave little girl the last two years have just been hell for her, as I was in hospital for most my pregnancy and then lived at the hospital after my twins were born. The sick baby was in and out of intensive care for 11 months and on a ventilater for 9 months. You cant even imagine what that does to a 9 year old and now after her Dad left,I feel like I cant take any more life has to give me and im an adult.