One of my 11 month old twin daughters died 3 month ago and Imfalling apart no one want to know, even my DH has left me!

[summersun06]

I feel so alone and yes I still have my 9 year old and the other twin, but I feel empty.

Hi orangehead thank you for your messages. Im sorry to read of your miscarriages and then your husband leaving you also. Please dont feel bad for what you said because what you went though is just as bad as what I went. No matter how pregnant like yourself or how old the child was like myself, the pain is still as raw for us all. I am pleased to hear you found better friends and I hope I do too. Take care and I hope to hear from you soon xx

Hi hazygirl, Im so sorry to hear of your Grandson Jayden. Losing a grandchild is also distroying for Grandparents and they need to be remembered in the sorrow. I am pleased you received help in the end, but nothing heals the pain, and I dont really no but does it help? Hope to hear from you again and take care xxx

So sorry for your loss, and for all the other MNetters who have lost a child or grandchild.

I am glad that you are finding more support here on MN than you got from your friends.

Thank you Kindersurprise. I have got alot more support from MN than from (so called) friends

Hi summersun06{{{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}} I am so very very sorry for your loss, I have just read your thread and wanted to offer my sympathies and support. So pleased your getting support here from the lovely MN. I live in Newcastle so not to far from you. I would be more than happy to offer you support in any way, whether that is on email, phone or meeting up. I have seen your email addy, but do not want to assume it is ok to email you. Let me know I just feel you could do with some new friends to lean on.

JSo Thank you for your message it would be great to hear from you sometime. I would be more than happy for you to email me sometime.. You are right I do need some friends to lean on and it would be great to make some new friends. When I made my email address I made a mastake my address is summEsun without the R in summer. So its [email protected]

hi summer,just wanted to send you a hug. what has happend to you in your life is terrible..i cannot express to you how sad i am at your post and the loss of your little one.
i hope that you find the strength from somewhere to carry on with your life for the sake of your other daughters. keep posting on mumsnet, even if you never meet up with any of us, you will be sure to receive overwhelming support from us all. also there is something theraputic about typing down your innermost thoughts. x

Summersun, I haven't read the whole thread but you might like to know that St Hilda's church in Hartlepool has a link with Compassionate Friends and they have a service on the Saturday before Mothering Sunday and a drop in on Christmas Eve with opportunities to light candles, leave flowers and cards, and chat with others for whom this is a hard time. If you think this would help I could find out times and things. And I know one church in Durham is thinking about something similiar. In the meantime, prayers and hugs.

I lost one of my twin sons, Gareth, aged 7 months almost 26 years ago. The pain is unbearable and unbelievable. When you have a multiple birth you are made to feel very special - then if one of the babies die the world dosen't know what to say to you. The only thing that I used to say over and over in my head was "One foot in front of the other and dont forget to breathe" so sorry for your loss

Summersun - just wanted to say you come across as really together and articulate, when inside I know you must be falling apart.

Im sure your girls are some comfort, without even knowing it, children can be the best comfort and im sure your little angel is watching over you all. I dont think I would even be able to type if I was in your position, I really admire you.

Im so sorry your friends are not being supportive, have you told them you need them around?? Its easy for friends to say "we are here" but its not easy to be the one to say "actually I could do with a bit of help/support/company, etc", it sounds like they are waiting for you to go to them which they shouldnt really, are you able to send them a text or something and just say "be lovely to see you, fancy a cup of tea and a gab" etc. Is it because they dont know what to say to you??? Real friends should be there for tears and difficult conversations.

I hope MN helps you, everyone seems really lovely on here and im sure they will give you lots of support.

Keep going, you are amazing x x