One of my 11 month old twin daughters died 3 month ago and Imfalling apart no one want to know, even my DH has left me!

[summersun06]

I feel so alone and yes I still have my 9 year old and the other twin, but I feel empty.

Thanks again Giggle

Summersun. Keep posting. Whenever you need to. Mnet has helped me through so many of the dark hours when I felt as though I couldn't talk to anyone in real life. I hope it can do the same for you.

xx

Again no advice, but reams of sympathy, hugs and prayers. Use the resources these wonderful ladies have given you, they will be helpful. You really need some support and MN will certainly do as much of that as possible.
Your little 9 year old sounds like an absolute angel send her a hug and a prayer too.

I hope so to. Thanks Bauble x

My 9 year old is the reason I get up in the morning, I cant let her down.

Thank you

summersun can i ask what was wrong with the sick baby? were they born very prematurely - i know it happens a lot with twins. please ring the organisations mentioned. they are there to help. thinking of you

It is so difficult to 'keep going' as a mother, isn't it?

Even if your children are old enough to know what has happened, they are still too young to fully understand the effect it has had on you and they just want their mum to be OK.

Your eldest daughter sounds lovely. How is your little one?

On top of this, you are going through this without your DH, too. Is he in regular contact with the girls?

Summersun...you are here and you are looking for help for you and your daughters, to make sure you can make it through this awful time...that in itself demonstrates your strength.

I hope you find the support and the peace you need.

How are you doing today Summersun? We are all thinking of you xxx

Summersun only just seen this, I hope oyu manage to contact one of the organisations linked and get the support you need. Sorry to hear about your little girl it must be devestating for you all.

So sorry to hear that summer. Just remember that what you are feeling is totally natural and normal and indeed necessary. Have you tried Acupuncture? It changed my life. It lead me to Reiki and Reflexology, which are also totally wonderful. Maybe one of those might help you. Lots of love XXXXXXXXXX

So very sorry about your loss summersun.

I have no words that will comfort you and would not try to.

Have you contacted cruse or on of the other bereavement helplines???

I think there is one for especially parents called gingerbread(????)

Will google it for you... hold on....

how heart wrenching my thoughts are with you. hope that you are ok and that you feel bit better for talking here and getting some support

I can only imagine (tho I don't like to) what you must be going thru. Children are very resilient, I think, as long as your 9 is allowed to be sad, and cry and talk about her sister then she can also work thru her grief. We as adults who understand exactly what it means often find it harder to do that.
I have never lost a child, but have lost a couple of people very close to me and it is the worst thing in the world when you love someone.

I am glad you have found MN as it is a sanctuary and you will find so much support and love on here. I hope you get counsilling soon so you ccan begin to work thru all your feelings and hopefully come out the other side sane.

I am so sad for your loss.

The cruse website is; crusebereavementcare.org.uk.

It might help you to talk to a trained councillor...I cant find the web address of the other site I was thinking of although lots of hospitals run groups for breaved parents.

I cannot imagine what you and your family are going through...my thoughts and prayers are with you all x

I am so sorry to hear that you have had and continue to have such a tough time.

My thoughts are with you and I hope that things improve for you. In the meantime, please continue to post.

I'm so very sorry, Summersun. Hope some of the links here are helpful.

Again no advice really, but needed to say how sorry I am, You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry your gp is not being helpful, a friend of mine had a stillborn and her gp was similar, but not all gps are like that it might be worth trying to see another or even talking to your health vistor. My health vistor arranged counselloring for me very quickly. You shouldnt need to wait that long. Your older daughter sounds wonderful. Keep coming hear for support

Summersun, what a sad story and what a hard time you must be having.

Keep posting to update us - this is a fabulous network. Someone always responds and there is so much sharing of positive thoughts and support -I really hope it helps you.

Your 9 year old sounds lovely - hope you manage to have a nice Christmas and a good start to 2008.

xxx

Just seen this, Summer. I've linked you to the prayer thread. I'm just so glad you came on here so we can support you. Ring the Samaritans if you get truly desperate, they are there day and night.
With love and {{{{hugs}}}

Summersun how are you and your dear ones doing today? Your message has really stuck with me . Please don't regard yourself as less of a priority than others. Grief has no hierarchy. As others have suggested get in contact with those groups mentioned.Use your friends on MN. It is often easier to talk to people here than in RL anyway. I lost my DM, my lovely little 3 year old cousin and dh's best friend all suddenly within days of each other this year and the senselessness of it turned my life upside down especially in terms of my values and beliefs. You have suffered huge physical and emotional trauma this year . Give yourself time to heal and take comfort in your lovely children .I imagine they are the only reasons that you out of bed in the morning but thats ok. What other reasons do you need? My mother, a deeply religious woman, used say that life was for the living. I used to think it was an odd thing to say and never understood it until now. Sending you and your dear ones love.

Summersun, what a sad time for you and your daughters, I am so sorry.

Please stick with MN, I have never witnessed such amazing acts of kindness as I have since I've been on here, you will find lots of people will understand your pain and grief. I can only imagine what you are feeling, but just wanted to say hello and make sure you knew that I was thinking of you.

summer, praying for you and your family. I hope and pray you can get the support you need.

Hi to you all I would like to say thank you so much for all you kind word and links to helpful organisations. Today is a differcult day (like most), the girls have gone to there Dads until Christmas Eve so im on my own. But its great to be able to talk to people on MN, thank you for your support xxx