My beautiful brother has just died

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He was 42. Had a brain tumour diagnosed about 4 weeks ago. I saw him yesterday

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I feel numb. I can't cry but I love him so much and I don't know what to do

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I don't even know how to get throgh this morning without him. Let alone my whole fucking life. Fancy leaving me to do this alone
I feel sick. I feel wobbly. I feel tired and numb. I can't face anyone today. I just don't think I can

I’m so sorry OP.

My dad died early hours a few months ago. When we got back from the hospice we mowed the grass and pottered in the garden. We needed something practical to do.

The shock is harsh. Your dc will keep things a bit more real which will help and hurt all at once.

I felt numb and empty too. Just take it hour by hour.

Wishing you strength op. Life really can be very cruel at times.

Sorry to hear this OP. I've shed a tear for you this morning

Strength to you x

I’m so sorry to hear this. Your love for your brother shines out of your posts.

So sorry for your loss .

Sending you strength. X

I can't really do this. I don't know how. I feel ill and tea isn't helping. Mind is in overdrive

I work term time. I'm not going to be alt to go back in 2 weeks. I just won't

I am so sad for you. Life will never be the same again. I wish you the strength to carry on. It makes no sense to lose your brother at such a young age. You have to be there for your Mum now. She needs you. ((Hugs))

OP I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your DB.

As an only child, I can't comprehend the loss you are going through but I wanted to say that it sounds like your relationship was an absolute blessing.

It's heartbreaking and unfair and totally shit that he was taken from you so abruptly. Drink all the tea. Hug your nearest and dearest. Cry. Stamp your feet. And keep talking to us.

I'd love to hear more about him as and when you feel able to talk.

You're not alone OP.

Is your DH awake? Can he help you today with the "normalities " of life while you are not feeling strong?

And do NOT worry about work. Not for a second. You can cross that bridge when you come to it. If you can't go then your GP will sign you off without a second though. That really isn't a concern for you.

She's in bits. I can't imagine losing your child. I'm not much use today

Have you got anyone you can call to be with you?
Try and eat something. Just a biscuit or a piece of toast.
I know that awful sick feeling.

I’m so sorry for your loss. I am impressed that you could be selfless and loving enough to put his not suffering at the forefront of your mind. The pain and horror of a drawn out death from cancer is indescribable and I am so glad your brother didn’t have to go through that but so sorry it meant you lost him sooner. He sounds like a lovely brother and he was lucky to have had you. .

Your mum will be distraught but so glad she still has you. You will get through this together.

I'm so very sorry

Dh and dc at here. Going to attempt to see my mum later. Not sure I can face going to see SIL at their house. All his stuff. His bike on the drive. I can't do that. I want him too much.
The pain. I've never felt pain like it.

Can you do something like a sudoku or crossword? I hope that doesn’t sound trite but might be a way to stop your brain whirring.

Oh no, I am so sorry, it must be a massive shock for you, glad you got so done in real life to support you💐💐💐💐💐

Well dh has dozed of on sofa. Peppa pig is on tv foot the youngest. Others are playing with lego and on computer
Dog snuggled up on sofa next to me
I feel lost. Completely lost.

Thinking of you OP. How utterly dreadful and unfair. We are here should you wish to talk, whether about your dear brother or just chit chat. Take each moment at a time, try and force down some toast or cereal too