DS1 has died

[endofthelinefinally]

I tried everything to save him. He was 27.

I don't know how I am going to get through this.

Endof my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry that your son has died and for the agony you are in.

The fact that you tried the Samaritans and are posting here is a sign of your strength to survive this.
Use anything you can to help yourself survive this initial nightmare.
Sending you strength and compassion.

I am so terribly sorry.

I am sure you did an amazing job raising your DCs. The love you have for him shines through in your posts, and by the sounds of it you raised him to be a gentle soul who put the needs of others before himself. What a credit to you.

We, as parents, do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time. All of the choices you made were made out of love and with the best of intentions. If not you wouldn't have been here.

You DS would not want you to be second guessing the way you cared for him. Deep down I am sure that must ring true. I am sure he'd be telling you he was a grown man whp made is own choices in life.

I know this pain is too much to bare, and it is such early days, but please, please be gentle to yourself. If not for yourself but for him.

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. I wish you all peace X

I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. He sounds like he was a lovely, kind man for trying to help someone the way he did, in spite of his own troubles. Love and hugs to you all

I'm so sorry to hear this.

You did do everything in your power to raise your children as best you could.

Your son sounds like a very lovely person.

What has happened is not your fault.

So sorry for your loss. So much love, so much pain.

Hope you all manage to get some sleep, or at least some rest.

You might not think it now, but it will get easier. Not dealt with a child loss, but have had my fair share and some, of bereavement over the last few years and talking to the right people, be it RL or with the fabulous online community here.

Take each day, hour, minute as it comes.

and a massive hug your way

This is very hard to read, for reasons of my own. Be kind to yourselves and allow yourselves to accept that it is not your fault and you've done what you could, and loved him.

I'm so sorry for your loss. He sounds like a lovely young man.

There just aren't enough in the world right now OP. I lost my younger brother to alcohol addiction a few years ago. He was only 29. Please take good care of yourself in the weeks and months to come. My parents never really recovered from losing their little boy and my dad died almost a year to the day after my brother, and my mum died a few months ago. Your other children need you too. Much love x

So very sorry for your loss you must be beyond devastated. Echo all the others re blaming yourself- people are complex and sometimes the reasons we do things that we know are bad for us are not anything to do with anyone else but just a problem in u s

Oh Endof I'm so very saddened and sorry for the loss of your darling DS
May he rest in peace x

Fwiw, although he may have been confused about his choices, helping someone the way he did, is testament to his kind soul, and his fantastic upbringing. Please please don't blame yourself for any part of this journey.

The only 4 things you need to do at the moment are eat, drink, sleep and breathe.
This crashing, suffocating drowning will eventually lessen slightly.

Just try and be as gentle as possible with yourself.
Keep your other babies as close as you need to, and lean on DH.
We're all here

endothelial I'm so, so sorry. I can't imagine what you are going through, but my heart goes out to you.

I am so very very sorry

I'm so sorry
Wishing you all strength, in your shared memories and through one another x

I'm so sorry

I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

DD and I having yet another cup of tea now.

She is wise and strong beyond her years.

I'm so terribly, terribly sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

I'm so sorry for your loss

So very sorry, my heart goes out to you and your family

I am so sorry to hear of your devasting loss.

I hope you all find the strength in each other that will get you through this.

I cannot imagin what you are all going through. As others have said do not go down the blaming yourself route, your son sounds a lovely young man and wouldnt want you to do that I am sure.

Get as much support as you can from any source.

Keep posting if it helps, even to scream and cry at the world at the unfairness of it all, you know you will get support.
R.I.P your darling boy.

Please don't ever think twice about posting . Mumsnetters are here for you.

The Compassionate Friends also help parents after the loss of a child of any age. They have a helpline and lots of useful information here

www.tcf.org.uk/

Endoftheline, we are so terribly sorry to hear of the death of your son. Peace and love to you all.