DS1 has died

[endofthelinefinally]

I tried everything to save him. He was 27.

I don't know how I am going to get through this.

oh, lovely, it is so hard not to blame yourself. of course you are going to go through the if onlys. it is only natural. this does not mean that if you had done something different things would be different now. you can never know that. please try not to beat yourself up about alternatives you could have tried. you did your best and on-one can ask for more.

go easy on yourself. take it one small step at a time. give yourself time to grieve.

Shedding tears for you all especially your beautiful son.

Sending strength and love to you all

I am so so sorry Endoftheline. Please don't blame yourself, you did everything you possibly could and addiction is a powerful enemy.

None of this was your fault endoftheline, you did everything you could.

I hope you manage to get some sleep. Wishing you strength x

Just wanted to say how sorry I am, truly heartbreaking news

I'm so sorry, every parents worse nightmare

endof if only our love could protect and rescue our children. Thinking of you all and your ds1 tonight.

Everyone is up again eating cold pizza.
Ds1 would have loved this. Midnight pizza and then curry for breakfast were his favourite things.

That sounds good. Midnight pizza is good for the soul. It's so good that at least you are together xx

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I know we shouldn't... But have this hug. Xx

I am so very sorry. To lose a child is horrendous. My 18 year old son died two and a half years ago. It is a living nightmare and yet somehow we find the strength to go on. My thoughts are with your family xxxx

Op, your tribute to him is wonderful. I hope my last action will be equivalent to spending my last pennies to help someone. Keep hold of that. Troubled, yes, but also a giver.

Do let your DD's university know, if you haven't already. She'll need some tlc, want to make arrangements.

Holding you in my thoughts.

Huge hugs X

I am so very sorry to read this. Hope you can find some comfort in your memories of a special, if troubled, Young man.

DD is emailing the course director tomorrow morning.
We have agreed that she should go - I don't want her to miss the beginning of term.
She can come home for the funeral.

They have gone back to bed. I know I need to rest, but I can't face trying to sleep.

I can't bear the thought that I won't see my son alive again.

I am so angry - with him and the person who gave him the drugs.
The other person woke up and my son didn't.

I want to scream and rage at this person that they were sleeping and my poor son was dying - and I had no idea. I thought he was somewhere else entirely.
It took the police 6 hours to come and tell me my son was dead.
I had cooked his dinner and was waiting for him to come home.

I'm so sorry for your awful, horrible loss. The circumstances of accidental overdose must be bewildering. Your children, all 3 of them, sound wonderful and you have done a great job as their mum.

Wishing you strength to get through each minute and holding your family in prayer.

Im so so sorry for your loss

I'm pleased your daughter is going- albeit hard.

It's disgusting the effect that drugs can have .

Scream shout rage away - you have every right xxxx

I'm so sorry for your loss

I will go up now and make sure DH is ok.
I will try to rest my eyes. I keep seeing DS's face when I close them.
I know he didn't mean to end his life.
I just can't take it in.

I am going to miss him so much.

I feel any words I post simply do not reflect the sadness of this situation.

Thinking of you & your family...

I'm so sorry for your loss

So sorry for the loss of your boy

You sound lovely, op

I sorry for your misfortune.

I found this phrase helpful when I lost a relative in similar circumstances: "The illness (addiction) was NOT the man." With deepest sympathy.