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DS1 has died

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endofthelinefinally · 29/08/2016 22:25

I tried everything to save him. He was 27.

I don't know how I am going to get through this.

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endofthelinefinally · 29/08/2016 22:33

I have been on MN for years under a different name, but I only posted about DS1 and his problems under this name. Can't risk being outed.

I made him leave about a year ago because of his drug problem, but he was back home and trying hard.

This was just a stupid mistake that went wrong. The police are certain it wasn't deliberate (suicide) or suspicious.

His brother is in deep shock and I am worried about him.

I have been ill for a while and had to stop work.

DH is alternating between frenetic activity and dissolving into tears.

DD is trying to comfort everyone - she is only 18 and supposed to be going to university tomorrow.

I thought he was getting better.

I don't know what to do first.

No support available because of the bank holiday. Can't even get his property back or speak to the coroner's office till tomorrow.

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homeBird9 · 29/08/2016 22:33

FlowersFlowersFlowers so terribly sorry to hear. Wishing you strength.

RustyPaperclip · 29/08/2016 22:34

Sending my best wishes Flowers I'm sure that there are lots of people to help you here when/if you need to talk

2gorgeousboys · 29/08/2016 22:35

I'm so so sorry. Not sure I can say anything helpful or constructive but thinking of you, your DH and DC.

dodobedoop · 29/08/2016 22:37

So very sorry. My heart goes out to you all. Wishing you strength Flowers

endofthelinefinally · 29/08/2016 22:39

He was so clever, good looking and talented. But troubled.

He was kind too. He spent the last of his money helping someone destitute and ill to get home to his family halfway round the world.

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Racheyg · 29/08/2016 22:39

In so sorry for your loss. Please feel free to talk about as much or as little as possible. My heart goes out to you. Xx

2kids2dogsnosense · 29/08/2016 22:39

How dreadful!

i can't imagine how terrible it must be to lose your darling child.

My prayers are with you.

MagnumAddict · 29/08/2016 22:40

I remember reading your thread last year and what an agonising decision it was for you to have him leave your home. It was so obvious how much everyone was hurting and how much you loved him and your other dc

So desperately sad for you and your family. He's at peace now and in time I hope that brings you some comfort

thatsn0tmyname · 29/08/2016 22:41

So sorry to hear your news. X

regularbutpanickingabit · 29/08/2016 22:41

Oh god, I am so sorry. Nothing of use to say or offer but offering you another silent hand in the darkness.

ageingrunner · 29/08/2016 22:41

I'm so so sorry Flowers

Mycatsabastard · 29/08/2016 22:41

I am so sorry for your loss Flowers

No matter how many problems he had, he was still your son. You will have wonderful memories of the good times and those are the ones you need to hang on too. He may have been troubled but have no doubt that he was loved and he loved you.

reader77 · 29/08/2016 22:42

I'm so so sorry for your loss.

WhoKnowsWhereTheTimeG0es · 29/08/2016 22:42

I'm so sorry Flowers

thinkingaboutfostering · 29/08/2016 22:42

So so sorry for your loss. Xxx

Peanutbutterpussycat · 29/08/2016 22:42

So sorry to hear your sad news op. I have a ds and can't imagine the pain you are going through.
You said you've tried everything to help him, it must be such a shock.
My friends son took his own life recently at 15 yo and she is going through hell, it's the worst thing in the world, hugs to you and your family x

vinoandbrie · 29/08/2016 22:43

Love from me to you, I'm so sorry Flowers

Ginxed · 29/08/2016 22:43

I am so sorry, my thoughts are with you all Flowers

UnderTheGreenwoodTree · 29/08/2016 22:43

Heartbroken for you, OP Sad Thanks

OrsonWellsHat · 29/08/2016 22:43

Flowers so very sorry for you and your family.

RubyJack · 29/08/2016 22:44

Sorry for your devastating loss

AdoraBell · 29/08/2016 22:44

Very sorry for your loss Thanks

Beeziekn33ze · 29/08/2016 22:45

So sorry, crying for you and your family. All my own petty problems faded away as I read your post. Thinking of you in your sad loss. 💐