Our special thread where we can be who we are. A thread to remember our children who are no longer physically here. Our 'safe haven.'

[LilyTheSavage]

This is it. Here we are. Thank you to Shabbs for noticing how far down the last thread we got.

Remembering all our precious children. Sending love to you all. This is just so wrong. I could howl to the moon tonight.

Afternoon girls xx

Thinking about all of you today - weird, sad, odd day - for no real reason. xx

Thinking of you and your family in remembering your wonderful Paddy today. Xxx

Hi everyone! It's been a long time since I last posted on here but I do read the thread most days, just find it difficult to say anything, although I'm not really sure why!

Just marking my place today and berating myself for not being more active on here as I know that reading others posts has helped me and made me see that I'm certainly not alone in what I'm going through and feeling. And, most importantly today, I want to send a big hug to my friend lily and let her know that my candle for Paddy is ready to be lit when it gets darker outside and that I've already toasted him numerous times ... Will have to open another bottle soon

and for everyone. cathpip I will happily drink your allowance and you can have my and in return ... It's my birthday on the 16th and my eldest sons on the 15th, us Leo's are an alright bunch

Thank you everybody for your kind messages. I kept breathing and (mainly) managed to just be gentle with myself. The day has passed. Just one more day but so many more to get through. My DS3 was with me and he is lovely and wonderful and kind and gentle. I was so conscious that I didn't want to inflict my own grief on him and make the day worse for him too.

Louster - thank you for the candle and wine..... I did the same!

shiney - I hope you're being kind to yourself.

Sending love to you all.

It has been 6 months today, and is still just bewildering how this could happen.

Raising a glass to you and Paddy (love that name) its sparkling apple juice (or a 3 quid massive bottle of strong cider - because I am such a lady sending my love and thoughts xxxx

Hope you are all muddling along ok. At the moment life is too hectic to take time out and think of my darling girl and all I miss. I'm assuming it will hit me at some stage and I'll fall in a heap.

Keeping really really busy is the way ahead for me at the moment. I can't cope with stopping and standing still and thinking.

Today has been one of those sad days. It had to come at some stage. Just feeling down but nut able to name exactly why that is. Even though we have our little community here I feel completely alone today. There really is no rhyme or reason to this roller coaster that we are on. It's one of those days I'm wishing for the impossible and feeling helpless that I can't have it.

Mojito -- Hope you have had some better days now. I know it just seems to hit worse some days than others, without any apparent reason. I have been having some quite low days recently.

Thinking of you all.

I am home sore but happy with a rather large 11lb 6oz Henry Thomas, who is also the absolute spitting image of Pippa. Xx

Hurray for Henry Thomas. Welcome to the world. Hope you can still walk cathpip. Ouch!!!

Hugs for Mojito and Wood. Hope you're ok.

Shiney - wearing the masking is exhausting and relentless. It's going to slip sometimes. Don't worry about it. Nobody will think any less of you for letting it go. Have a very large

Aw, Shiney ... hugs. Sometimes it just all comes out ...
Thank you.

Congratulations, Cathpip Hope you and Henry Thomas settle in well back at home.

Thanks, Lily

Hope everyone is taking care of themselves ...

Not surprised you're feeling panicky Shiney. We had DS3's 21st 9 months after DS2 died and it was very difficult. I was determined to celebrate it with him though and it was a lovely occasion. Hope it goes well.

Congratulations cathpip. He will keep you busy and may even have some of Pippa's cheeky traits as well as her looks.

Thanks all for your thoughts. Things are evening out, I think. I managed to bake and relieve some stress so that was good.

Shines - it's impossible to keep the mask on all the time. Don't be hard on yourself.

Hope everyone is managing.

Today is difficult ... I took my DS2 to his first day of preschool, and it was very hard watching the 1st graders go by ... all of DS1's classmates ...

DS2 also turns 4 years old on Saturday. Hard to believe he is getting so big, and his big brother isn't here with him.

I miss my sweet boy so much -- he loved school and was excited that he would have a "real desk" in 1st grade.

Morning everybody....not been able to get onto MN for about 3 weeks because of the hacking thing. Hopefully everything is back to normal now.

Cathpip what an amazing weight - welcome to the world little lad. Hope you are doing ok.

xxx

Thanks, Shiney
Hope the birthday is good, and that you are doing okay. And DT1.

Oh, Shiney, I am so sorry. What a difficult time. I wish I could say something that would help, but I know nothing does. Just know that I am thinking of you.
It isn't irrational, either ... nothing feels rational after what we have lost.

That is hard with DD2 ... sometimes kids don't really know what they need/want.

Hang in there ... thinking of you.