Love, like starlight, never dies - In loving memory of all our darling children gone too soon!

[Bluetinkerbell]

I am the gentle breeze upon your face
The twinkle in the stars
I am the sudden ray of sunshine
That warms your broken heart.

Thank you Whatevertheweather for starting the previous thread! :)

Let this place be a place of support for all of us on this path together, with lots of smiles, lots of tears, lots of hugs and lots of understanding x
A place where 'new' and 'old' bereaved Mums and parents can share their grieve, experiences and memories of their darling children.

Oh MrsY, sending you so much love ((((()))))) I am very glad that your car wouldn't start - as Chip and FM have said, that sounds like a definite sign. Have you taken any/too many tablets?

I started the previous thread to this so don't feel it's my turn to start a new one!
Any volunteers?

Sorry MrsY, just want to check that you're OK (in the very, very general broad sense, I know you're not 'OK') xx

No, I've not taken anything. I went at looked at the Mouse asleep in bed. I can't bear the thought of her being sad, and even though I'm being a rubbish mum at the moment, I can be a better mum. I'm sure I was at some point.

I'm sure she wouldn't think you're being a rubbish mum. I know that I could be a better Mum too, it's very hard at the moment but I'm trying my best - it's all any of us can do (((()))))

Hi ladies xx

If there was a cliff nearby when the policeman came to tell us that Richard had died I would have run and jumped. But there wasn't so I didn't. That is what I thought during the early days. BUT what gave me the strength to carry on was my grandchildren. If they could carry on after losing their Dad so suddenly then I had to.
They are here now for the weekend. They live about 2.5 hours away so we only have them to stay every couple of months because of school and other things they may be doing. They are 12 and 14 now so have their own things to do. We also have a baby grandson in Australia. He will be 1 in September. He is coming with our elder son (his dad) and his mum in 2 weeks. We haven't seen them since last Xmas.

Although they all live away from us they all know that they have a home in our house. They all have given us hope for the future and the strength to carry on.
This path of grief has been so difficult but we have our beautiful grandsons to give us hope for the future.

Please don't think that if your children move away that they will not need you, that is not how it happens, they will need you forever. I am 60 but if my Mum was still living she would not have left my side until she knew it was ok to do so, and I will stay for my son and my grandsons. xxx

haha fm ;) I'll volunteer for new thread if no-one else wants too, but please speak up if you do want to and I'll happily pass it your way instead. :)

Please someone tell me why I thought studying was a good idea? When Belle died I was in the middle of my post-grad. I've deferred for two years and just started again but my confidence is shot. Sometimes I can't tell what is grief inflicted and just normal nerves you know. So far its reminding me a lot of what I 'did' with Belle, e.g. the last time I was at uni she was physically there with me. I feel too old for this studying malarkey now. Sigh.

Today X had his first settling in at nursery. At the same nursery we had chosen for Belle and had her name down ready before she was born (oversubscribed), that seems silly now, that we did that for an unborn child. how naive and sure we were she would go :( X didn't get his name down until he was 3 months old, lucky to have a space and today sat there with X, I thought 'I was supposed to have done all this with your sister'.

Where are you Shab - you've been quiet!

mrsy I'm also very glad your car wouldn't start. please remember you are being the very best Mum you can be in the worst of circumstances. Keep looking at Mouse, she needs you. xxx

Hi fioled you have jumped a hurdle today well done, you did it!!! xxx
Don't worry about studying you are still young, do it when you are ready xx

will be going to bed soon, will start new thread tomorrow if no-one else has. xx

goingtoexplode much love to you and your angel Emily x

Hi ladies, I hope you do mind me popping in.

It's Erin 1st birthday today - can't believe we've lived a year without her. We love and miss you so much beautiful girl. Can't describe how much we wish you were here xxxxxxx

Love to you all xxx

whatever Erin is so loved. Thank you for sharing her with us.

fioled you are asking a lot of yourself, but you can do it. Be confident in your abilities - they are huge. Easy peasy compared with dealing with the loss of Belle. Do try to get some sleep though!

mrsY the thing is, whatever you may be thinking, you are the best mummy Mouse knows, and she wouldn't want anyone else.

goingtoexplode please keep writing here about your lovely Emily if it helps.

Mia's Wood is getting closer. The company Mia's Wood was formed officially yesterday, and now we have to be approved by the Charities Commission.

Happy Birthday Erin! Sending floaty birthday kisses to you.

Love to you all, WTW, and of course we don't mind you coming by. Have been thinking a lot about you - hope all is well.

xxx

Whatever Happy Birthday to Erin! (((hugs))) to you. She has such a clever, caring older sister, and a beautiful little one. I wish she was there to celebrate with you in person, but I'm sure she's joining in, in her own way. Hoping you have a peaceful day... lots of love xxxxx

happy birthday erin... a candle is shining for your little girl in glasgow today ..first birthday is soo hard ... what are you going to do with yourself today wtw

fioled i had the similiar sort of thing with Fraser being booked into nursery before he was born and then Ross going there a year later..its realy surreal .. and each time he moved up a room it was hard as well.

Shabs is quiet cos she is in Greece... she wont be back till the beg of Sept

Happy Birthday Erin. Hope you get through this tough and surreal day as unscathed as posible WTW.

Glad you're having some time with your grandsons Lavandes, and I can't believe your other gs will be one next month. Where has the time gone? How lovely you get to see your son soon too.

Well done on getting past the nursery hurdle fio. I need to start thinking about studying again

When C died I knew I wasn't ready to leave this earth. I knew I wasn't done yet. But dh and I don't worry about death anymore as we know we will see our darling boy again.

Expat , you mentioned that you think you will die relatively young. Have you always felt that? I ask because dh has an unshakable belief that he will live into his 90's. He has felt it since he was very young.

I liked MrsDV's description of 'the pit' up thread. It describes perfectly how I feel at times.

Love to you all

New thread here

Happy Birthday, Erin.