Thank you all for your messages. It is truly heartwarming to see so many people give me a virtual hand hold through this most awful time.
DD1 is utterly amazing. Last night we had a good chat about Daddy and that his body has gone but his spirit is still here and always would be. She pointed to the ceiling and asked if Daddy was up there. I said yes, she replied, well let's say hello to him then. So we counted to three.."1. 2. 3 Hello Daddy!!!" and waved. Jas waved too. Since then DD1 has caught me crying a couple of times and immediately has said, let's say hello to Daddy, and then we count, wave and say hello. 3.7 years old.
So many people have been so wonderful. My GP (not Richard's crappy one) was in floods of tears when I saw her on Thursday, saying how deeply his death has affected her. Have had lots of family coming and going. My SIL who has been here mostly for the last couple of months will be staying for the foreseeable future - although of course she will need to return home at some point, but just not yet. My DSS has returned here after a couple of days home. It's so sweet as rather than staying in a room of his own, he's decided to sleep on a futon in the room his aunt is in. 20 years old, 6'5" tall and needing lots & lots of love.
Everything is in motion now. Richard's funeral will be at a beautiful local church on 28th April. I just spoke to the vicar and she sounds lovely. The wake will be very fitting as it's in a pub where Richard and I used to regularly share a bottle or two of wine and stagger walk back up the hill to our old house.
Anyone who saw my thread regarding the awful credit card company will be pleased to know that the calls have finally stopped. I know a couple of people asked, but Richard's bank - who handled the matter so sensitively and appropriately - is Nationwide. Or NatWest. He banks at both and I can't remember which it was 
I have to take lots and lots of deep breaths. I am barely sleeping - the last 3 mornings I have woken at 3 or 4am and then not gone back to sleep until around midnight. Broke down totally today when I was tidying the sitting room where Richard died. Should have got someone else to do it really.
One last thing and I don't really want to post on S&B because it seems so trival to be worrying about, but I really want to find a super dress for the funeral. Richard was an amazing dresser - he is laid to rest in the purple Ozwald Boateng suit he wore to our wedding, so I feel I need to wear something to make him really proud of me. I am 5'10", good legs, about a size 14 with a tummy (think apple). I have highligted hair in a bob. I'm not sure if I want black, but something classic, understated and elegant. Does anyone have any ideas please? Budget, I guess less than £200 ideally.