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37 weeks pregnant and found out yesterday that our baby has died

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CheeseandGherkins · 03/12/2010 12:17

I'm still totally in shock, as is DH, our little girl has died. I hadn't felt movements since late on Wednesday and when I went in on Thursday they couldn't find a heartbeat with doppler. Sent straight for a scan and there was no heartbeat.

I already have 3 dcs who are so upset but it was DH's first baby.

I have to go in today, in a few hours, for a tablet to start things off but I can come home after an hour apparently and then go back 24 hours or so later (if nothing happens) to start inducement properly.

Does anyone have any experience of this? I'm scared of being induced, which sounds stupid under the circumstances but there it is. How long will it take? First 3 labours were fast, 3 and a half, 3 hours and just over an hour.

I still keep expecting to feel her move but of course she won't. Feels so surreal and that it can't be happening but it is. I was due on Dec 23rd.

I don't know what to do.

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BecauseImWorthIt · 04/12/2010 20:41

I'm so sorry. Sad

thegrowlygus · 04/12/2010 20:42

So so sorry to hear about your baby girl.

Almost 8 years ago we lost our first son at 26 weeks - on the 17th Dec. We treasure his photographs. I wish we had more, and more of his hands/feet.

We spent some time with him, but I do slightly regret not allowing some of my family to see him - my sister was with us when he was born so she met him but no one else did. I sort of wish my mil had had the chance. But I was adamant that I should be the last person to see him and I didn't feel I could go back with her once I had said goodbye.

It takes a long time to feel anything like normal again (not sure you ever do to be fair).

Sands are fantastic.

Message me if you would like.

rubyslippers · 04/12/2010 20:44

So sorry Sad

chipmonkey · 04/12/2010 20:47

So very sorry, Cheese.Sad

madamimadam · 04/12/2010 20:48

Cheese, I am so so sorry. You, your family ? and your beautiful daughter ? are in my thoughts and prayers.

xxx

ClaireDeLoon · 04/12/2010 20:48

I'm so very sorry :(

Sidge · 04/12/2010 21:06

I'm so very sorry to hear such sad news. Sad

Thinking of you.

momino · 04/12/2010 21:12

Cheese, I don't know you but just wanted to say take care, thinking of you, sending prayers and hoping you will find the love and support needed to get through this.

cba · 04/12/2010 21:27

oh cheese. I am so sorry you are going through this. I sit here crying at your pain and loss but I know this will be nothing compared to your feelings.

cradle your beautiful daughter and gaze at her face and cherish those special moments.

wish you strength and love for you and your family at this difficult time

TaperJeanGirl · 04/12/2010 21:34

I dont have anything practical to add, just wanted to say how very sorry I am that you have lost your little girl Sad

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siilk · 04/12/2010 21:48

I just wanted to send you big hugs. We lost DS2 in very similar circumstance last year. I remember the utter feeling of devestation that comes with the news.

People here have given very good advice. I know it will sound strange but I remember so fondly the time we spent with him. Those hours are etched on my heart.

My labour was bout 16 hours. From point of induction to birth. I also had morphine.

Make sure you have a private room. Kick and scream until you get one if they are difficlt. You so don't need others around you.

I also recommend sands.

WhyIsThatThenWithJingleBells · 04/12/2010 21:52

I'm so very sorry to read of your loss. I have neither advise nor experience but my heart aches for you tonight.
Lots of love to all your family.

fannybaws · 04/12/2010 22:20

Cheese, I am so sorry for the loss of you little daughter.
Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason to life, but remember all those months in your tummy your little one felt your love.
You will always be her perfect loving mum.
xx

duchesse · 04/12/2010 22:27

I am so sorry for your loss.

LadyInaManger · 04/12/2010 22:36

I am sat here crying not knowing what to say but just wanting to post and say I am so sad for the loss of your angel and want to say you are in my thoughts and prayers x

pinkpalace · 04/12/2010 22:37

God bless you, your DH and your beautiful daughter.x

namechangedfor3months · 04/12/2010 23:30

I am so sorry to read of your terrible loss. You are in my thoughts. xx

differentnameforthis · 04/12/2010 23:35

Thinking of you all. So sorry.

dearprudence · 04/12/2010 23:43

This is so, so sad. I'm so sorry for you and your family. x

cariboo · 05/12/2010 01:44

As I said elsewhere, am in shock at this dreadful news. I hope the delivery is now over & that you're able to find some rest. Much love to you, dh, dc & special love & prayers for your baby. xx

mumnerves · 05/12/2010 14:12

C&G Been following this thread since hearing about your news on the Dec thread. Just wanted to say thinking of you and your family today and please be kind to yourself. x

Charleymouse · 05/12/2010 14:28

Thinking of you Cheese, please be gentle with yourself and do what you want. There is no"normal" there is just whatever you have to do to get through this. You & your daughter and family are in my prayers.

ItalianLady · 05/12/2010 16:01

Just wanted to say I am thinking of you Cheese.

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CheeseandGherkins · 05/12/2010 16:54

In hospital now and had first gel about half hour ago. I'm so scared.

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