Support thread for women who are pregnant or TTC after a termination for abnormalities 3

[LittlePoot]

So, New Year, New Thread. And the next set of New Babies are arriving! I hope they prove that there can be light at the end of the very dark tunnel we have all had to come through and I hope there are many more babies to come. In the meantime, we're here, as ever, with supportive words, virtual hands to hold and multiple fingers to cross to help everyone through these nerve wracking waits and scans. A more lovely group of ladies you could not wish to find. xxx

DD has started shouting at my bump 'NO BABY' then running away! Sometimes she'll wave and say 'hello Elmo' but I think we may be in for a bumpy ride with jealousy issues for a while.

I had no idea what to do with a baby either when DD arrived. Literally not a clue. We muddled along quite happily though. And I had a mental check list of 'feed, sleep, nappy, cuddle, activity' to run through to figure out what the squarks might mean at any given time which sort of helped.

tbh I still haven't got a clue. Any ideas what to do with a toddler who keeps waking up at 5am shouting for 'curryporridgemummypeppapig?!

Hi everyone. I am here, reading, but I struggle to find time to write a proper post with shout-outs, and don't like just popping in and not speaking to everyone. However if I want to speak at all I guess that's how it has to be!

Firstly, congrats to Natz. Here begins the anxiousness and the happiness. You're in the right place. Also Turners isn't a condition expected to recur, so you have a v good chance of a healthy baby. Keep us posted.

Lily, hope things are okay with the baby, and Eavers, too. I had bleeding in three of four pregnancies and it meant nothing - I did lose two of those babies but much later and nothing to do with bleeding.

Stormbird, glad things are going well.

Katie, cannot BELIEVE Felix is 5 months. Wow.

Kittens and Mimsy, hope you are okay; thinking of you and wishing you BFPs and sticky beans shortly.

And the pregnant ones - some of you are near the finishing line! For monitoring, Coffee, I admit I felt like you. For my first baby (DD1), I was induced so had constant foetal monitoring, which was a godsend as there was a serious problem and we were rushed to theatre for emergency section. I really valued the monitoring, BUT it was like Catlady said - it kept coming off and causing panics, it didnt seem to be fitted on properly, also everytime the heartbeat dipped (even within normal limits) I was panicking. So I would go with what the midwives/consultants suggest - if you aren't being induced/other problem, the constant monitoring IS a pain and apparently checking regularly is just as effective in picking up foetal distress. However a lot of it is about how you feel - and if you panic, and it will help, then have it. And also a lot is down to how the labour is going.

On another note, I didn't complete labour with DD1, but I did - obviously - with the two subsequent babies, albeit at 13 and 20 weeks gestation. The labour was completely different so I don't think you need to imagine things will be the same as they were with Silvia.

As you know I had an elective with Babycant, having had a section with DD1 and being v anxious about it all after losing 2 babies. My feeling is: go with what makes you feel most in control/least stressed when the time comes.

All is well here, the two DDs are doing well and very funny. DD1 is so hilarious. She is witch obsessed atm and recounts fairy tales all the time. Babycant is also on good form, although a dire sleeper which takes its toll.

Mishta, Numpty, Shangrila, etc, hope you are all okay.

Hi Cantdo, good to hear from you and that all is well with you and the little ones. Witches, this sounds fun :) I always remember you having very little sleep, no wonder it's taking its toll.

I know it's not a very MN thing, but sending you a big hug nevertheless.xxxx

Oh Cant, I feel for you with the sleep thing. Since turning 2 DD's sleep has suddenly gone from text book perfect to awful. Last night she was up at 2 and again at 5 (for the day). Hoping it's a phase but I'm exhausted today.

Something horrid happened on our road last night. One of our neighbours was mugged by a gang with knives and a hammer in the early evening. Feeling very unsettled today. It's normally so quiet here.

Gosh, fingers crossed for you Babylily. I really hope everything works out ok.

Mantiz, congratulations! The first thread BPF of the year. Fingers crossed for you too.

Sorry for brief post, not been around much.

Hope all the willful little monkeys settle down, play nice and give their poor mums some peaceful time - especially those poor tired heavily pregnant ones!

All mostly ok here, apart from feeling a bit jarred by talking to my pregnant friend. She didn't say anything bad, just that the other friend is due in March and she is due in June or July, I think, and someone else we know is due next month so it was a bit overwhelming. Last time we met the three of us were pregnant. They were the ones I was getting ready to meet the week after our meet up. She suggested another get together before our friend's due date but now I am thinking the three of us together with me being the only non pregnant one might be a bit more than I can deal with for now. And there was me thinking I was fine with it all.

Hello everyone - some of you I've spoken to before from the termination thread. I have liked reading this thread over the last few weeks as it's nice to see so much good news (congratulations on all the pregnancies - and babylily my fingers are so crossed for you) but I haven't posted as we haven't felt ready to try again since our most recent loss in November.

But today I am freaked out and would really appreciate your advice. I haven't had an AF since losing James on November 22 so thought I'd go and see my GP for some advice. But I knew the first thing she'd ask was whether I could be pregnant so thought I would test just so I could say I wasn't when I saw her (appt is on Mon afternoon). Tested and got a BFP. And not a faint one either.

I have no idea how to feel. I have no pregnancy symptoms at all, and the last few times I have been pregnant I have known straight away. I don't think it can be leftover hormones as I actually tested 3 weeks ago and got BFN. Could it be a false positive? Cannot quite believe I might be pregnant.

Grandji - I know you from the other thread. I dont really have much advice other than it may be worth you doing a clearblue test that tells you number of weeks? I was told that you are more fertile following birth so I guess it's entirely possible (and probably likely with a BFP) that you are indeed pregnant. A cautious congratulations, and I'm glad you dont have too long to wait to see the GP.

Babylily - what a rollercoaster. I'm really hoping that things work out well for you.

Kittens - good to hear from you, not surprising it's difficult to hear of impending due dates. It would be totally understandable if you chose not to put yourself through another get together just yet.

Natz - hope doctors went well today?

Catlady - my DD has just started waking in the night again and she's always been a fantastic sleeper. We, having been throughly spoilt in this regard are finding it a complete shock to the system and I'm knackered. I'm really hoping it's a fleeting phase.

Coffee - When I was pregnant with DD I read stacks about pregnancy and about labour but kind of forgot about the being a parent bit. We didnt have a clue what to do when she arrived! Its amazing how you get into the swing of it though.

I'm not bad, currently mid cycle so thinking we need to start making more of an effort. I'm feeling a bit ambivalent about TTC at the moment, not sure why. DD has been difficult this week and I'm maybe just feeling a bit low on energy.

Hi to everyone else, flower, hope you're ok?

hi cherry
I havent been on so much lately, getting a bit obsessed with babies, my way of coping was to be pregnant by due date, dont think that is going to happen. I start working nights in a couple of weeks, which is when my maternity leave would have started, its all a bit raw at the moment, and as Isabelle was my first pregnancy i have no idea how fertile i am or how long it takes, like when people say they fall easily i dont think thats the case for me.

Cant good to hear from you.

Babylily thinking of you, hope things work out for you x

Grandj sounds like you got a BFP, hope things go ok for you on monday.

hi to everyone else

Hi all. Have been reading but, as with Cant, find it hard to find time to post properly, so tend not to post instead. Just please know your all in my thoughts. Fingers crossed for you Grandj and Babylily, and hopefully Eavers, your bleeding was just 'one if those things'. I can't believe how close we are to some more thread babies, and also that Felix is already 5 months old!

I wanted to come on here before the days end (nearly midnight here) as it's Bella's first birthday today and have been thinking of you all lots, and the support I received this time last year when I thought there was a possibility of losing her. I didn't want to talk to anyone in RL (besides DH) at the time, and found the support here, half a world away, a lifeline. I get teary just thinking about it, and will always be thankful. And also for those times since, when I have had 'issues' (ie breathing monitor, tick bite etc) you lot have always managed to make me feel better. I miss Bee, Bezzy
and the others, though understand their need to move on. I'm so glad this place continues to be a support for people in so many ways. So much more I could go on with though now it's actually after midnight, so I'll leave it at that for now. Love to you all xxx

Oh Mishtabel - hugs to you and the lovely Bella. Happy birthday to one very special girl. Where did that year go? Lins too, must be celebrating now or anyday soon. Happy celebrations to you both and much love to everyone else. xxxx

Hello everyone. Just found the new thread!! It's been a while since I logged onto Mumsnet!!

Ladies due in Feb, how are things progressing?? Poot, you must be due anyday??! Any twinges??! With regards the monitoring, I was hooked to the machine with the midwife holding the sensor to me as it constantly slipped and I was 'active'. They were close to taking me for a section as heart rate dipped several times very low. Good to have the monitoring but intrusive I would say.

Baby Alex is doing well! We have been oficially signed off to the health visitor and Alex is no longer looking tangoed!! He is a bit of a pickle with feeds, some go really well and others not so much. Both MrGina and I are exhausted but Alex is gaining weight and seems alert (when he's awake!) which is fantastic!! He's absolutely gorgeous and we are both proud but tired parents!!!

I'll be back with proper posts soon
xxx

Thanks Shangrila :) I've been thinking of you, Lins and your LO's also. I think, at one stage, we were all due to have our babies on the same day! Lins and I did, but you had changed your mind about the C-section and soldiered on for a week or so more from memory. Happy birthday in advance to your darling boy xx

I've been lurking on the allergy threads a bit lately, as poor little Bella has been diagnosed with dairy, cocoa and potato allergy :( Trying to find out all I can - never had a problem with my other girls, so it's all new and a bit scary to me (and very confusing). Hopefully she will grow out of them. The big girls and myself are devastated at the thought of her having a life without chocolate!

Natz, did I congratulate you? If I didn't, I certainly meant to! Also want to wish Cherry, Flower and all our other TTCer's luck for this month xx

Gina, lovely to hear from you and that Alex is well. You sound suitably smitten - brings a tear to my eye :)

Must go do SOME housework at least - gotta try to keep the place looking new (ha)

Hope you're all sleeping peacefully (that goes double for you Cant). Love to everyone xxx

Mishta, belated Happy Birthday to little Bella, what an emotional day it must have been! Last year after I lost Silvia and was reading back on the thread I remember your birth story and the worrying days you couldn?t cuddle her. I can?t believe it?s already been one year... I hope the allergies will gradually clear by themselves.

Grandj, have you tested again? It does sound like it is indeed a BFP, since you had a BFN previously. Have you seen your GP and has he/she done a test as well? Natz, how are you, did you see your doctor last week?

Catlady, very scary about the mugging, are you feeling a bit better now, have things got back to normal? Are they investigating?

Gina, great to hear the three of you are doing ok and little Alex is gaining weight! Your little one was really keen to have the First thread baby of 2011 prize! :) I?m getting all emotional thinking about it, and also about all the upcoming arrivals! By the way, Poot, how are things? Any signs yet?

We had the maternity unit tour on Saturday, as last time we had only seen part of it and did not go onto the labour and delivery wards. I found it very hard, harder than I thought it would be. We walked past the room where I had Silvia and past newborns and happy parents, and I had a meltdown in the car on the way back, I can?t believe how much it affected me. I just feel like I?m not coping very well with all this, and I?m a bit ashamed as I am very aware of how lucky I actually am being here one year later.

Babylily, I hope you are ok? Your scan is this Friday, isn?t it?

Hello to everybody else xxxx

Hi again everyone
Sorry my last post had no replies to anyone - I was pretty freaked out at the time, feeling marginally more normal now.

Babylily, Eavers, how is everything? I hope ok. Belated congratulations to you Natz too x

Kittens, I hope you are feeling a bit better. It is so hard to deal with other people's happy pregnancies sometimes, isn't it? Maybe just make an excuse to stay away from the get together - I know I wouldn't be able to handle it, but perhaps you are braver than I am.

Cherry and Flower, thank you for your replies. And hello to everyone else - I feel I should introduce myself for those who don't know me. I have my wonderful DD who is 4 but since her I have had one early miscarriage, my daughter Grace who was lost to Turner's Syndrome in May last year (we were advised to terminate as she was incompatible with life) and my son James, who we lost to Edward's Syndrome in November (we had the amnio results back on Grace's due date). Such an unbearable year.

Anyway, I am seeing doctor this afternoon but I think I must be pregnant again. I have done 3 tests now, all positive including a digital one which said 2-3 weeks, kind of matches when I know it must have happened (have not exactly been at it like rabbits this month if you know what I mean). And now I am analysing how I feel of course I think maybe I have got a few symptoms. But having been pregnant for 11 out of the last 18 months it's sometimes hard to remember what it feels like not to be pregnant.

If I am pregnant, I'm not really sure how to feel. I want to be positive but it's so hard. I don't think I associate being pregnant with actually having a baby any more, which seems a weird thing to say - I suppose I mean I just can't believe it won't all go wrong. Sorry for negative post. Will let you know what the doctor says x

Hi Coffee. I am going on maternity leave on 9th February. I have such a lot to finish. And my boss, has just decided to reschedule my performance review for ... 9th February at 5pm. What a time to do it! What about you?

Hello Catlady.... re the toddler napping ... DS has totally abandoned naps now he is in Big Bed and now is just when I need him to settle off happily for a 2 hour lunchtime nap. If I put him in his room because I'm shattered, though, he just trashes his room so like you I have just given up and land up in a semi coma on the sofa for an hour with some TV on for DS. On Friday I was so tired and frazzled I put him back in his cot to try to get an half hours kip. He took his nappy off himself and peed the cot. Then when I went in to get him he announced "done wee wee in bed". I felt bad having put him in the cot because it obviously really upset him and he's obviously freaked out by the concept of "Baby Brother" too as we've been telling him the cot is for baby brother, so decided not to discuss it with him again. It will become a reality soon enough, I guess. I have come to the conclusion all of this is sent to start conditioning us for the sleeplessness plus toddler bit that is now imminent. Sorry to hear about the mugging in your road. I know how upsetting these things are. Some years ago I lived in a ground floor flat and my neighbours above saw someone trying to break in my bedroom window. I heard a curfuffle outside the window then police arriving. Although nothing happened I was really shaken up for weeks and wouldn't go to bed without the light on.

On the topic of consistent monitoring, I didn't manage to keep the monitors on until I had an epidural. Then I felt so lovely and calm and in control and laid in the bed with the monitoring beeping away happily. It was nice seeing the baby's heart rate and seeing the awesome rate of contractions without actually feeling them ...! Don't really understand how you would manage to deal with the pain and the monitoring at once. There was no way I could have laid on the bed for any length of time pre epidural.

I have started to feel exactly how I did with DS when his head engaged and just before he arrived. Really heavy low down, the bladder pressure is really intense and I have trouble walking. I took DS for a walk around the block yesterday and could barely get along and was nearly mowed down on a pedestrian crossing it took me so long to get across. Have appointment with consultant on Monday so hopefully will get some info on whether this suspicion is correct!

Finally big wave to Gina ... great to read news of Baby Alex.

Morning...very sleepy eyed Catlady here. DD was up at 4.30am and didn't go back to sleep. Three weeks of very early mornings are really taking their toll (why is there no smiley for 'tired' on MN? ). Trying to get my head together to write some messaging for a media launch and sustaining myself with tea and toast and marmalade!

This is my last week doing client work, then just all my company admin to sort out before I can take a break for the birth etc, and hopefully a few months afterwards.

Reassuring to know it's not just me coping with toddlers fighting sleep. Cherry how is your DD sleeping now? Rachel your nap story sounds like our house, except we get the most terrifying angry shouting in place of the weeing and trashing if we try and put her in her cot. Sofa naps it is for now.

I had a MAJOR meltdown with DH last night. Proper blubbing, tears, shouting... I think everything is just a bit intense at the moment.

Lots of news from everybody which is lovely - Gina I'm so glad you and Alex are doing well. Hello Kittens, hope you're doing ok, I remember you talking about that group of friends before, so hard for you especially as they're good friends you would want to see. Mishta, hope Bella had a lovely birthday and you enjoyed celebrating, that first birthday is so special.

Flower - sorry things are difficult at the moment. I too wanted to be PG by my due date. I ended up having my nuchal scan on what would have been my due date, so while I was happy to be PG the cross-over with dates was very very difficult.

Grandj sounds like a BFP - totally understandable that you have mixed feelings, it's a natural protection mechanism. It's sad that we have to lose that 'innocence' of creating new life that others can enjoy, but I hope everything progresses smoothly for you.

Coffee, Poot how are you both? Coffee I am glad you had a chance to go into the labour and delivery ward on the tour. It's probably a very good thing to have done that and dealt with the emotion a bit before going in there to give birth to this baby. How are you feeling about it now?

Seeing my midwife on Monday to talk about birth plan and make final arrangements for homebirth. Fluctuating between moments of serene calm and positivity and utter crazed tearful madness... poor DH xx

Babylily, I hope you are ok and hanging in there. I hope you are feeling sick and knackered and that all will be ok tomorrow. I'm thinking of you and wishing you all the luck in the world. You must've had a nightmare week.

Eavers, I hope that you're bleeding subsided completely and that all is well with you too.

Grandj, it does sound pretty conclusive! You've really been through the mill so I'm not surprised you have mixed feelings. I can absolutely relate to what you say about not associating pregnancy with having a baby. I have compared early pregnancy in the past with being in some sort of 'holding bay' waiting to qualify for the next round if you see what I mean. Where most people refer to the agonising 2 week wait to find out if they are pregnant, I think we sort of have a 14 week wait. Last time I was pregnant my grandma told her friend that I was 'expecting a baby', I told her that 'hoping for a baby' would be a more accurate statement.

Hi Gina, great to hear news that baby Alex is doing well. I hope he gets the hang of feeding soon.

Mishtabel, Happy belated Birthday to little Bella. Was this the first thread baby birthday? Very exciting! I hope she, and of course you and the rest of your family are finally enjoying your new dream home. Are you going to put up some more piccies for us?

It's so lovely that you, Shangrila, Cantdo and Numpty still come here and say hello and tell us how your little ones are progressing. It's like a ray of sunshine and hope to us all! I guess Lins has found/and given the support here (or on the mother thread) when she needed too and is now happily enjoying her little one without the need for the support, which is also lovely and completely understandable.

Natz, how are you feeling? Have you been to the doctors yet? I just realised that I congratulated Manitz instead of you by mistake. Sorry about that! God knows what happened there, I think it's because you have similar letters in your names

How are all you imminently due ladies doing? Sorry I've been quiet and rubbish at posting. I'm thinking of you all and looking forward to a flurry of announcements over the coming months.

I am just taking some time out from thinking about pregnancy really. I think OH is keen to get cracking but I feel quite happy to wait until I've seen Dr Shehata. I hope the whole testing process doesn't take to long but if there is a reason why I keep miscarrying then putting myself through it all again before I find out isn't going to be good for me. It's difficult though as I am now 41 and very conscious of time slipping away. Especially as it's not just miscarriage I have to worry about, but also all the other risks that have brought us all to this thread in the first place.

I told my friends how I felt about meeting up with them both together and, being the good friends that they are, they completely understand. The one who is due in March had IVF after trying for years so she can kind of relate to how I feel having been in the company of many pregnant friends comparing notes whilst she felt fed up about her own circumstances. I will probably meet up with them individually though and be fine.

Better go. I still have to do my tax return - I always leave it 'til the 11th hour!

Ha ha kittens, I haven't done my tax return either! Realised last Friday I need to apply for an activation code , so still waiting for that to arrive... I will be one of those people trying and failing to log on to HMRC at 11.59 on 31 Jan...

hi there. coffee - my first baby was a cs and no2 was a vbac so was monitored throughout. not a great idea as i had to lie still when i wanted to be up and about. have read since that you could have regular rather than constant monitoring ie every ten minutes or something. I think it's really important to relax during labour as much as possible and I know we know what can go wrong but statistically it is not likely to. You just have to go with it. Monitoring really doesn't help you relax at all imo. Having said that dd1 and ds were cs and i will have an ecs next time for that reason if I'm lucky enough to get pg.

kittens i was surprised to be congratulated but not yet there but have decided to go for it now so am actively trying. It seems a lot to put myself through and selfish as well as if something goes wrong my kids will suffer but i feel a need. is that terrible!? Lots of people at work are due a month or two after i would have been and i'm approaching my due date. I try not to think aobut them at the moment.

Kitten i also completely understand a need for a break, it's exactly how i felt just after having my boy in october. I have found it useful to have a bit of time to heal. Being pregnant is so physically and mentally draining.

Natz, fantastic news. I hope not too much of a rollercoaster. and grandj of course. What a shock.

coffee, poot and crazycatlady good luck. i shall be looking out for your new arrivals. hope everyone is well and fingers crossed for only good things to happen.
rachel, maybe you wont make it to that performance review if the head is engaged?! You could mention that you are feeling like things are moving along and you are worried about scheduling important things so late on and could he bring it forward? it's pretty unreasonable in my opinionxx

Yeah, I still need to check my log in from last year works too. Gulp. I hope so! I was surprised last year that it still worked from activating it the year before so fingers crossed. I hadn't even thought about it until a friend mentioned it on Facebook.

If they have a record of you applying for the activation code before the deadline date they are usually fairly sympathetic if you're a couple of days late and don't fine you. I think. Don't quote me on that though! If it doesn't show up on time it's worth calling them before the deadline for negotiations though.

Manitz, I am very much hoping not to make it to my performance review. I don't know if it's just wishful thinking, though, telling myself this is how I felt last time or if things have really changed. On my last day, though, I just want to clear the desk and put on my out of office, not have to be told about my many failings (I'm told about them often enough I know what they will be, but it'd be kind of nice not to go out on that note).

Catlady sorry you had a big stress on DH. It's really hard when you have a toddler playing up to try to distance yourself from the situation and say to yourself "he or she's only 2, they are not rationalising". You just want to beg them to be nice to you! I think it's really quite hard being mum, professional and pregnant lady all at once.

Busy thread since I last got the chance to post, and even this time I've no chance to write personals - night wakings and weaning keeping me busy! But Josie is fine and very happy to be nearly crawling now - she's mastered rolling and gets on all fours, just doesn't know how to go forwards. Laughs about it though, which is really sweet - she just loves her own accomplishment.

Anyway, belated happy birthday to Bella and Franklin and in due course to Shangrila's wee boy. Got me thinking about all the folks we've met along the way, some of whom have moved along elsewhere perhaps because of the need to distance themselves from sad reminders - so if you are reading, Bee, MrsBrightonGirl, Bezzy, I'm hoping that life has brought kindness and love your way. And for those others who are still here but still hoping for that BFP, I truly hope that this will be your year and will pop in when I can just to make sure of it! In the meantime I await news of Poot with baited breath...

xx

Hi Numpty, Josie sounds like a sweetie. Won't be long before she's off round the house like a shot, amazing how quick they can move on all fours...

No posts from Poot for a week. Poot if you're reading but just in that pre-birth space where communication with the outside world seems too much, hello, and hope you're ok! Or maybe Baby Poot is here already and keeping you busy? Looking forward to hearing when the little one is here xx

Hi everyone, busy thread these days.

Rachel, I?m off on maternity leave on 08 Feb, I mean the 8th is my last day in the office. Can?t wait, but my head is buzzing with things I need to do before then. I just can?t believe your boss scheduled your review on your last day, maybe as someone else said just explain it might be a bit late for that, would that work? Coffeebean hasn?t engaged yet, but he has been head down for weeks now, I hope he will hang on in there for a few weeks more.

To those of you heavily pregnant and with a toddler, you have both my admiration and my sympathy for the lack of sleep. Not surprised you had a meltdown Catlady, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now. As for the birth, I feel the same, sometimes really confident that my body can do it and I will find all the strength I need then, and some other times I just want to have a good cry and feel overwhelmed. But I guess this baby needs to come out, one way or another.

Thank you to all of you who shared your experiences of constant monitoring. It sounds like it might not be the best idea if things go well. I need reassurance, but at the same time I don?t want the birth to be defined by my anxiety and I certainly don?t want to make things more difficult for me and the baby. I?ll just see how I feel then and how things develop, but it?s good to know I can choose to have it if for any reason I need it.

Kittens, it?s totaly understandable you couldn?t see your friends together. Also, I think I would be the same and wait for my appointment before trying again. It?s good though that your OH is keen to TTC. I so hope this will be your year, you more than deserve it after all you?ve been through.

Manitz, good luck with TTC. It?s not selfish at all, and there?s nothing terrible about it. I think all of us in here felt the urge to be pregant again after our losses. Fingers crossed it will happen quickly for you and it will all go well.

As for Poot, I?m also wondering if Dot is here now, I think her due date was 1 Feb? Exciting weeks ahead for our thread. I?ve also been wondering how Drama is doing, we haven?t heard from her in a while.

Wow, very busy thread! I hadn't realised how long it's been since I popped on. Babylily and Eavers, I hope things are going ok?
Manitz, just wanted to wish you luck with the TTC, I know you were in two minds about trying again. I hope you dont have to wait too long for a BFP.

Coffee and catlady, you are nearly there now! I found the last 4 or 5 weeks dragged by, especially when I went on maternity leave! I left 7 weeks before my due date as I was not returning and had annual leave to use up. I wasn't working when I was expecting DD2, but that pregnancy flew past, with a 16 month old at home there wasn't much time to take notice of my growing tum!

Rachel, sounds like baby is ready to go. Although DD2 kept popping in and out of position for the last few weeks, I convinced myself at 34 weeks that she was on her way, so much so that I got my hospital bag to the front door and demanded my OH take me to the hospital, but half hour later refused to move from the sofa because the feeling had passed....! I was a tad difficult during the last phase of that pregnancy.

Grandj, congratulations on your BFP, I hope you are ok. I understand the mixed feelings. Even though we were actually TTC, I was quite emotional when we got the BFP last week. Although it is good news, I feel guilty and scared as well as happy.

I have finally begun to 'feel' pregnant. My boobs have gotten very tender over the last couple of days and the nausea is creeping in. The doctors went well, I made sure I saw the GP who delt with Cara's pregnancy as she was amazing. She spent a long time chatting to me and reassuring me, I didn't realise it until she put her hand on my arm, but I was shaking. I know Turners is a rare and usually non-reoccuring syndrome, but I dont see statisitics as I used to. 1 in 2500, well I was that 1. I dont see it as reassurance anymore, I cant get it out of my head that the 1 in whatever is there because it happens to that 1. Does that make sense?

I have to go for a dating scan as my periods have been all over the place and I cant say for certain when my last true period was. They will be seeing me in just over a week, not got the date yet. The GP has given us an estimated due date of 2nd October 2011.

We are being booked into a different hospital this time as the one I had my other DC and Cara at has now closed its maternity unit! But this means I have to go to Kings College for our nuchal scan. I felt sick when the GP told me as we had to go there for the CVS and Cardio scan. I know it sounds insignificant but this is where we were told the devestating news about the Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. Just wish we could step away from all reminders and enjoy this pregnancy.

I did another test on monday as had no symptons, but then woke up with killer boobs the next morning!

Sorry for the long post and very few personals. Kittens, I wish you luck with Dr Sheheta and hope they can give you some answers and head you on the road to success.

Hello to all the ladies TTC, hoping to see some more joinees for September/October babies. {