To want to say what I really feel hear goes?anyone else care to share

[mummybegood]

Fil & Mil no I dont want you phoning me everyday and checking up on the kids telling me what best for my children and no I dont want you to just tell me your coming over now without asking its not convient.
I really need to grow a backbone and say how I feel to people but in a nice way instead of being walked over like I do aibu.

friend, stop bloody phoning me at 7.40am just before getting into work just because I mentioned I get up that early. I do not want to listen to your drivel and I am NOT going to pick up my phone until you get the hint!

same friend, stop asking me to edit your assignments - they are your business not mine and if you can't write then maybe you should be taking English lessons instead of studying.

same friend, stop phoning me 5 times a day and stop giving me detailed account of your day - I don't have time to listen to all that!

Oh fucking lodger, just fuck off and get out of my face, no, I don't give a sh* how your night at work was! You stupid twat and alcoholic and I cannot stand you. I am sick of you.

MIL, you are a nice woman but please don't lift your skirt to show me the warm tights you're wearing... And I don't need to see your back teeth that need fixing. Please.

to my former friend: you stabbed me in the back when i was at my most vulnerable, you decided that you deserved better than our friendship, you kicked me when i was down.
kindly stop trying to wheadle your way back into my life. i do not like or trust you in the slightest. i have absolutely no desire to stand up for you when you piss people off with your nasty attitude, so don't ask me to. i laugh every time you create yet more social problems for yourself by being a very unpleasant person, i laugh because you cannot manage your tenancy because your housing manager will not give you the 'respect you deserve', i laughed my ass off when you caught an std from your latest loser. i'm not laughing about the way you fail your dc, and blame the world and his wife for their behavioural problems, the problems exist as a direct result of being dragged up by you.
now keep your shit away from me!

i enjoyed that!!

Mum, we don't ask you to babysit because you are a drunk. That's right, until you can prove that you can spend a day without a drink you will never be left in sole charge of my daughter.

And even though I pretend everything is fine between us, just thinking if you and the way you behave makes me angry.

Bloke. I love you. Utterly, desperately, completely. When you go away it terrifies me in a way I can't admit to myself, let alone you.

Dear older people who do not have 3 kids under 5:
Quit telling me that it's "alright" that I "only" have to get up once in the night to feed DS3!! I don't just wake up once but umpteen times you stupid people - bad dreams, cold, poorly, lost dummies, lost teddies, snoring etc etc. And don't tell me it doesn't matter if DS3 has a 3 hour screaming fit in the evening or won't sleep much in the day beceause he sleeps relatively well at night.YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW TIRED I AM!!!! And I do not care about how many times other people are up in the night when they have less kids and people running round after them. I COPE BECAUSE I'M NOT A LOSER OR A DRAMA QUEEN SO LEAVE ME ALONE UNLESS YOU WANT ME TO EAT YOU!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

I miss you. Badly. It hurts sometimes and I am trying to be OK about it. But I think of you loads and hope I never embarrass you.
I wish I'd had the courage to reach out, but am just not sure of myself enough.
I dream of you......
Always wishing you well........ xx

DH; I have opinions and beliefs of my own. Just because they don't conveniently fit with your own, and how could they when you keep changing the goal posts, at least show me some respect. And yes, they are MY opinions, not just a continuation of those of whom I may have visited/spoken to.

DS1: 16 you may be, but you are still a CHILD who needs to be parented. You may NOT do/say as you please and expect us to all come running after you a couple of hours later when you think we have forgotten your attitude. You really are your Father's Son!

DM: you made your bed, so lie in it. Just because you choose to live in your depressed bubble, some of us choose to live our lives, you are in the minority most of the time, not the majority with your extreme opinions. Oh and to you both, 'Grandparent' is just a title - needs to be backed up by actions to mean anything.

Friend; you will reap what you sow. Take a look at your kids, what they are getting up to, and try to get a grip rather than being 'cool mum'. You're not actually being cool, you're just being lazy. I think you are just pushing buttons, and you will realise what you should have done when it's too late.

Grrrr!

Dear DS2 - we will always be here for you no matter what, but we want you to stand on your own two feet so you have the best life possible. Please find some confidence in yourself to reach out for what you want. You are a brilliant lad who is going to be the most amazing young man. We are inspired by you.

no, I will not get my children christened as a I don't beleive in God
b I don't attend church
c It's none of your business

to DH: Sometimes I so HATE your parenting methods -although I don't fully trust mine either- but yours annoy me so much and( many others who have witnessed it by the way)especially cause your attitude reflects the way your father brought you all up and we both know I can't stand your father..growl!Just learn to play with your kids instead of focusing on discilpining them..for pete;s sake they are not eve old enough to dress themselves! i can tell you were never really a child or else why can't you be one with your own children ..you just treat them so rigidly and when i see how other dads play with their sons I feel like banging my head on the wall.. as for DS2 he is totaly invisible to you which makes my blood boil..just because he is a bit more difficult and stubborn does not mean you should give up on him..why do you bloody think they are so attached to me?
Groan..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to FIL: get alife and stop thinking it is all about you ..you can take your money and Bleep bleep bleep it..we don;t owe you anything and if you can't tell hardly anybody likes you ..they just ca't face you cause you are so darn diplomatic and cunning..you can't love anybody you just want everyone to be idnebted to you so you can reign them in..well you know that won't work with me..so go jump and don't come bouncing back..
sigh...

Dearest Friends,

Just because I don't whinge about it doesn't mean my labour wasn't damn hard work.

Just because I don't feel the need to moan constantly about my lack of sleep and how knackered I am doesn't mean I'm not done in.

AND just because I stay at home doesn't mean I don't do anything or have nothing to do!

Wonder Woman is a fictional character!

Mother, when I ring you to tell you that dd is school refusing and self harming and that Social Services are involved, what I do not want it is a string of cheery little anecdotes about how my nephews get themselves dressed and out of the door in 5 minutes flat! There are many ways in which you can support me, but this is not one of them. I am pleased that my nephews are such little wonders (no seriously, I do like them). BUT THIS IS NOT THE TIME AND PLACE.

Dear School

My 3 DCs have been with you since you opened five years. You cost an arm and a leg.

Would you please concentrate on teaching the DCs, not telling them off for:

a) looking at the head teacher in a disrespctful way

b) appearing to be wearing eye liner

c) wearing a scarf that should be navy blue but is, in fact, black.

d) expelling my DS for the most pathetic reason EVER, nine days before the end of term. We promptly removed him and got him into a much better local school where he is thriving.

Maybe if you concentrated on keeping your staff instead of upsetting my DS by giving that class four teachers in a year; or my DD who is now on her third science teacher this term I would be a bit more appreciative.

My DD is doing her GCSEs at the moment and you have caused yet more disruption to her triple science teaching. This is the qualification she needs to get into sixth form college and then to get into Uni for her medical degree and future career.

THe current chemistry teacher has never taught science, but is a DT teacher.

So I am, quite rightly, fucked off.

Oh and I am now paying a tutor an additional £150 month for science tuition at the weekend to try and repair some of the damage your fuckwittery has caused.

Needless to say at Easter notice will be served for removal of other DC.

And as for you Mrs Head I think you are an arrogant, self centred witch.

Needless to say when we do leave I WILL be going back to the national Sunday papers who were interested in interviewing me when the school opened, to do a follow up. I will tell them exactly what I think of your shower of shit school. Let's see what that does for recruitment.

In the meantime, God that felt good.

Me
x

DB & DP (his not mine) stop acting like twunts, yes you are moving out of mums, you have lived with her rent free/bill free and responsibility free for 3 yrs now. you have stopped her having her grandchildren there, you have smashed up her home in your temper tantrums DB and i have had to hold my tongue. So now you are moving out stop with the pretend guilt, you are both grown men go and act like it. Mum is 63 yrs old she does not deserve the crap you are dishing out to her. if she comes to see me and is 10 minutes later home than she said so fucking what she is an adult, and is allowed out. You need to realise that she is not reliant on you but you on her. Mum asking you to buy her one pot of paint out of your decorating allowance is not a crime, think of all she has done for you both and just buy it, it would mean a lot ffs.

Dsis, me moving out of london because i want a better life for my 2 ds's does not mean i am walking away from you and my nephews. I have told you to look into moving as well. Your DS's deserve more as well, and saying i still need to work to live the way i am used to is crap. Tell your DH to stop buying xbox, wii,psp,ds games every month and start contributing to the household. Also while we are on the subject tell your DH that letting your 9yr old watch lee evans and other adult dvds is not funny, it is disgusting!!!
Also Dsis, While you can find your way to your mil who has ignored you for 6 yrs until last yr just before xmas please remember your own mum, she needs you as well. If i was not moving with her she would have nobody. You only want mum when you need someone to look after your DS's, yes she enjoys spending time with them but not when the youngest is calling her stupid FFS, he is 6 stop it now. Mum is too old to be at your home by 7.30am to look after your children, between you and your DH you need to sort your jobs out or pay someone to look after them, mum works as well so her weekends/holidays are just as important to her.

DP get your butt out of bed and lets do something arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ahhh thats much better!!

Dear Mum,
You are a selfish cow and always have been.
You didnt let me have a childhood and put your abusive BF before me and my sis.
Your twisted forms of emotional abuse are shocking to those whom I confide in and in the lats few years I have seen you for the wast of space you are.
Stop trying to get symathy from my nan & grandad. They are totaly supportive of me and after I shared a few highlights of your twatishnes, couldnt give a sh1t about you and your self pittying tripe.

Dear sis,
You are about to have your first baby.
I wish you all the best.
I feel bad that whilst I really do wish you well, I cant help thinking that it would be good if you realised now how bloody horrid it was to have you and your Dh being arseholes to me just 10 hours after I had given birth to Dd.
You are not a nice person so I have no contact with you.
I hope you manage to stop being a bitch and bring up your child well.

Needed that!

Thought of some more..

FIL - I am totally and utterly fucked off with you for dying.

You were a waste of space when you were alive, blaming everybody else in the world for your alcoholism and making your kids lives hell. You hurt your kids more then I ever thought possible, and even when you had the chance to rebuild what you had broken you had to fuck it up by celebrating 3 weeks of sobriety by getting wankered.

You slagged me off to all and sundry, accusing me of stopping you seeing your grandchild. The reality is you were so pissed you forgot you had a grandaughter until you saw me at a football match with DD1 when she was 3 months old, and then you only poked your head under the raincover on the pushchair, said hello then staggered off. So yes, I did stop you seeing her. It's not my fault you were never sober enough to hold your grandchild.

And then you died. And my DP had to find out by being told by your neighbour that you'd been carried out in a bag. No-one knew you had died until the police broke in after complaints about the smell. So know my DP and his siblings have to live with the guilt, wondering whether they could have saved you if they'd just gone to visit you over the weekend. No-one could have saved you. You drank yourself into your grave, no-one forced you into it.

MIL - I will never forgive you for making me tell your children that their father had died. And to not go and hold them as they cried was even more unforgivable. You truly are a cold bitch.

You know who you are - Believe me, I will never, ever forget what you said during our heated phone conversation. And driving up to yours and beating the everloving shit out of you is always an option. I would happily do time for you sweetheart.

Aaaaaaaaarrgghhh!

DB - Sort your head out and if i find out you are lying again, i will punch you.

Mum - I love you.

Dad - SHE will never be my stepmum and you've changed sooo much since you've been with her. I dont like it.

DH - I do love you but you are rather annoying at times.

DS - I love you more than words can say and if it turns out you have autism, then nothing will change my darling.

L - Im confused, leave me be. Let me make my own decisions.

J - Not one day has past when my feelings for you have changed, I wish i could tell you that.

Cousin - i dont want to be your bridesmaid now you spoit, selfish little bitch!

That was good.

Nan - i miss you more each day and i wish you were here right now. I need you. We all need and miss and love you so much.

Students - You are intelligent. You are at one of the best universities in the country. So how difficult is it to read your emails!! Don't come complaining to me that you have been cut off from online resources. You have been notified multiple times that this will happen. You have been told how to rectify this. I've told you, Registry have told you, your tutors have told you, everyone has told you!! You manage to send emails. I do you the courtesy of reading and responding to what you've written. Please do me the courtesy of reading what I and everyone else has written to you. (and writing in intelligable English would help too)

I do love you, but I'm really scared because you've hurt me in the past and I'm worried about what will happen if I do step into anything more.
You are very special to me. I wish I could talk to you about it, but I'm worried that it will ruin everything.
Please don't think that I don't feel anything, I'm just confused I guess.

Dear dad

You have torn my world apart by finally confessing recently that last year you were convicted for possession of child pornography.

You are about to be sentenced and will probably go to prison.

I don't know how I will tell the rest of my family, my friends who all know you, some of whom are friends on your FB profile.

You promise it was only ever on the internet and did not involve the children and I believe you but will my friends?

For that, I hate you.

I hate that I cannot talk about this in RL. That I cannot tell friends what is wrong when they ask me why I am so quiet.

And what will tell the children when their grandfather "vanishes" for maybe months or a year. What will I tell their schools? Will you be allowed to see them when you come out? You have signed the Sex Offenders Register so you cannot do school runs for me anymore.

You didnt think about any of this, did you?

I love you as my dad, but right now as a human being I hate you.