To want to say what I really feel hear goes?anyone else care to share

[mummybegood]

Fil & Mil no I dont want you phoning me everyday and checking up on the kids telling me what best for my children and no I dont want you to just tell me your coming over now without asking its not convient.
I really need to grow a backbone and say how I feel to people but in a nice way instead of being walked over like I do aibu.

MIL - Stop being a knob and treating BIL like some kind of china cup you are afraid will break if you dare to say anything to him. It is your fault he has no job or education. Also, do not smoke in my utility room again. As you can plainly see, the ironing was in there and it now needs to be rewashed. Thick bitch.

DD - I will never be able to explain how much I love you and how much you infuriate me at the same time! I wish there was a pregnancy-style test for Asperger's.

DH - I can't explain how much I want another child. It is a longing I will never be able to put into words. We joke about it often, but I wish I could tell you I was serious. It's on my mind every day. If I ever do get pregnant I would know the signs of PND and not shut everyone out of my life for 3 years again. I am so sorry. I feel so guilty for you having the sleepless nights and not me but I never heard her cry, not once. I promise it would not be the same if we were to have another baby.

TLES - If only I could tell you how your story has affected me. I feel so many feelings on your behalf but most of all want to give you a glass of wine, bar of chocolate and a giant (((hug))). (Oops, you'll probably read this )

Ta. Soooo much better now

TLES - reading your story has moved me so much. I hope you continue to be strong. You are a role model for others. ((hug))

Soon to be EX-H. Stop putting yourself before the DDS. They come first, not you. I am happier now. I gave you 18 years of my life. You never put the effort in. I am not sorry i left. I will always put the girls first. I don't hate you. I'm pleased you have found someone else. Don't make the same mistakes again.

Soon to be EX-MIL. You are a nasty interfering bitch. You will never be alone with my girls again. You will only see them when supervised. You will never bad-mouth me to my girls. They are happy now. They love me and their father. Your son was not a good husband or father. He now has a second chance to be a better dad. You don't know everything. You never saw my girl run to safety when she thought he would hit me. That was the last straw. Thank goodness I'm strong enough and able enough to live away from him. I will always support them so they can see him and continue the relationship. He is struggling but that's not my fault.

Mum and Sister - I love you. You are and have always been supportive without interfering. I am sorry that I did everything on my own but I didn't want to involve you in this. I chose to do it the way I did because of his temper. I was scared. You are everything to us and we are very lucky to have you.

friends - I have good, loyal friends who I love very much. You have always been there for me and I hope I have repaid that too. I hope some of you find your way, I can't advise you, my situation was different but I will always be here for you if you need me.

DDS - you are my world and I will spend my life making sure you are happy and loved. I could spend all my time with you just playing, talking and sharing time and special moments with you. I love you.

Nan - can I just have one more hug please? I still think of you all the time and I hope I make you proud.

M - thanks, for everything.

TLES I'm glad I didn't freak you out!

And it did help me. I stopped putting myself into potentially dangerous situations. Throughout college and when I first moved to London, I was always up for new experiences, trusting strangers and never thinking that there were evil bastards out there.

I'm truly sorry that you met one of those evil bastards.

Friend - Why are we the best of friends when I listen over and over to your mostly self induced problems? Why do you think it is ok to bad mouth my children to my face?
Why have you showed 0% interest in my new baby? Just f**k off.

Great thread. I have lots of angst need to get out......

Mother - Do not keep sending things in the post for my children and letters filled with self pity and lies. I don not want you in our lives.

Friend - cancelling arrangements that we have made with crap excuses does not wash anymore. You keep telling me you are rubbish at keeping in touch. Goodbye.

Friend - I know you have had your own troubles, don't we all? I was there for you, where are you now?

Friend - yes I am a good listener but I am more, what happened to our night out?

Self - Stop being a door mat and find some conidence.

dear flab, will you please just fuck off youre really getting on my tits now

confidence

more....

FIL stop trying to do diy in my house and ballsing it up

MIL shut the f up

Husband - I miss you. Spending six weeks with no adult company is really really hard. I hate being so needy and dull with out you.

To myself - get a fucking grip, you are pathetic. Contact your friends more, drink less wine and be a better mother

To my children - I love you so much it hurts and I am sorry I am a shit mother, I really want to do better by you but mummy is sad right now

To my friend - your h is unfaithful, i should know, he tried it on with me. Twice.

To my mother - we are moving house. Get over it it. If everytime i talk to you, you cry it just makes it harder on everyone

To another friend - I am so so sorry about the mc. I wil try to be more supportive.

I think i could go on and on!

neighbours - you seem like lovely girls, thanks for being tolerant re. DS's 6am wake-ups and all-the-way-up-to-11 volume setting. It makes me a bit embarrassed to think of you hearing me through the wall as I keep up my constant nonsense conversation with him. I'm sure hearing about his stinky bum bum or how he's the cutest little boy there ever has been gets kind of wearing, so cheers for never mentioning it when we bump into each other on the doorstep

dad - karma has bit your arse because you will never once be alone with my dc's and i have forgiven you for the past but i will never forget like you have.

mum - i pity you, you left me and db for years on end with no contact and now think we have a great relationship. we don't.

Nana - i wish i could spend one more day with you and for you to see how ds1 is getting on and to meet ds2. I love you very much and miss you.

first love - i do still love you deep down and think about you i'm just not going to bother trying again just to get hurt.

everyoneelse - you already know how i feel about you all!