To want to say what I really feel hear goes?anyone else care to share

[mummybegood]

Fil & Mil no I dont want you phoning me everyday and checking up on the kids telling me what best for my children and no I dont want you to just tell me your coming over now without asking its not convient.
I really need to grow a backbone and say how I feel to people but in a nice way instead of being walked over like I do aibu.

TLES you are such a brave person, I've sat and cried over your terrible ordeal.

I don't know how anyone could ever get over something like that.

I'm humbled by some of the posts on here, puts my life into perspective for sure

TLES- Am humbled by what you shared...

To DD's dad- I'm so glad you married a total nutcase. You didn't deserve to land on your feet with anyone nice after dumping me with our new baby.
However I think you should have start paying me proper maintenance before having another kid. Plus having a new one with a nutcase wife is bound to cause fireworks.. You've got a rough few years coming and hope DD doesn't lose out any more than she already does.

To DD's new step mum- I know you are jealous of me, of your husband's DD and insecure. Get over it.

To ExP- I think you're a real weirdo. I only realised after moving in with you. I think you might have Asperger's.
I know you can't help it but I can't help still being angry at the way you made me feel.

To Mum- Please stop saying: 'Parents only do their best at the time.' We both know you didn't and it's cost me £2k in therapy.

To my Dad's sister- Not sure why you promised him you'd be a better Auntie to us as he lay dying. Haven't heard from you since.

Gosh realised these are all really depressing!

To MIL :

Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up ...

Dear work collegues,

You are a boring and irritating I am so glad to be on maternity leave and I fully intend to use my 'keeping in touch' days to come back into the office to fuck with you before handing my notice in.

xxx

How stupid are you exactly? It's not difficult to file things in a logical way so other members of the team can find them. When are you going to be leaving to join clinical coding, I do hope it's soon.
I hate the way you and other colleague act as if you know everything just 'cos you've been here longer than I have. I have been doing this job a while you know, yes it was on a different site, but I still did it.
And yes other dear colleague, I know you've only got 3 more days before your maternity leave, but you are actually being paid for those days, so trying doing a bit of work.

Dad
You put your needs before my safety. I was only 8 and I didnt understand why I was being screamed at and threatened . I've spent years not blaming you but now I have children I can see what a useless selfish prick you were.

theladyevenstar I have some idea of what you went through, now go back and take that fucking blush out! You shouldn't be even the slightest bit embaressed, you should be VERY proud of yourself that you've pulled yourself together after this terrible thing was done to you. Huge fierce non mny hugs.

Tiggaxx

PS typing a bit sloppy due to tears

TLES: sending you good wishes for the future. You are very brave and very strong and that awful man HAS NOT WON. You have.

Dear all of MN'ters on this thread

I am sorry i can be a PITA at times, i don't mean to be but i get defensive at times.
I wish you could all realise how much i appreciate your kind words on this thread to me but at the same time understand that i am and do get embarassed by such things as i feel i have let my guard down and thats not me

oh TLES your post has sent a shiver down my spine. I remember reading about your ordeal. It changed the way I behaved with strangers and acquaintances.

Stay strong.

And you are allowed to behave like an arse now and again.

Sil, the likes of you should not pro create, your 4yr old dd spits in your face and tells you to shut the fuck up, why the hell have you got pregnant again. Idiot.

Work colleague, you have wind - at 12 weeks pregnant your baby is the size of a bean and is not kicking you.

Dear everyone and anyone,

You know, as much as I think my life is shite, as much as I think that I cannot go on, and as much as I think 'I don't want to wake up in the morning' I realise that there are much much worse of people out there than me.

I may not be the best person in the world, but I am certainly trying my best.

Dear ExBf, why did you report me to SS? What had I done in our 'fallout' that was so bad that warranted me possibly having my dc taken from me? You know they are my world, and that I would be forever lost without them.
I am sorry for being an arse with you just before we stopped talking. I was depressed and had just had a mc and didn't want to trouble you with all my worries because I know you were depressed too. I know I made excuses to not meet up, but it wasn't anything to do with you, it was all me. I couldn't face going anywhere with anyone.

Dear ExP, I know you are a good dad, but you are not a perfect one, so please don't criticise me on being a mum. Our kids eat plenty of fruit and veg so the occasional biscuit or packet of crisps is not going to harm them. I know I don't go out with them as often as I should but you try taking two young children out, one of whom won't go in a pushchair and wont hold hands when walking, whilst trying to push a pushchair, without a car, and see how bloody far you get.

Dear DS, I'm sorry there's a lot of upheaval at the moment, I know being a new big brother is hard and I'm sorry I shouted at you this morning when you were just being mischevious not really naughty. Mummies don't get it right all the time either but I promise I'm trying really hard. I love you so much and sometimes I wish it was just the three of us again too - but DS2 is part of our life now and I know that in a few months you won't remember life without him.

ps. Seeing you kiss your baby brother makes my heart melt.

Dear DS2, I love you too but its going to take time to get to know you. Letting me sleep occasionally would go a long way towards making friends .

Darling sweetest most adorable DS - stop twiddling my other nipple when yoiu feed!! It hurts!! Otherwise, carry on as you are

Dear boss,
Seriously, hair-flicking? In front of a Rear Admiral? The giggling didn't work either. Tell you what, invite him round after work to see your my little ponies.

Mum... shut up with your conspiracy theories and get some help for your drinking. Oh, and by the way, you made the period of time when our foster daughter and son were being adopted absolutely horrendous for me. I was in bits and needed your support not your nasty drunken phone calls at 2am. Furthermore, you will lose your son if you don't learn to love his beautiful new wife and I know that you do care really so stop saying you don't.

Sister... stop encouraging Mum.

I feel cleansed....

TLES.... I hope one day soon your nightmares will stop. X

This is the best thread ever...

Mother: I will never forgive you for telling me that you had got a new lover 6 weeks after my father died. You STOLE all the money that DSis and I were supposed to get from his estate, you monster. Stop selling off everything the family ever owned to fund your first-class travel, champagne, shooting-and-fishing lifestyle. Why do you have to be such a self-centred bitch? Telling my sister that she's going to be sponging off you forever when she'd just lost her job was nasty, and telling me I was too fat to get married was horrible (and untrue). And how DARE you tell your 93 year old mother that she can't travel when she needs to because it's not convenient for you as you want to go on holiday? You haven't even made plans yet. And how DARE you tell me not to take her into account and to move to NZ with DS because she could 'go on for years yet'. She ADORES DS and if he ever turned out like you and acted towards me like you act towards her, I'd shoot myself.

MIL: Did you know that we have a two year old son? Oh yes, I remember, you sent him a card once about a year and a half ago. Are you interested in meeting him at all? Because we are not interested in begging you to come and stay to see him any more. We're fed up. Come or don't. Up to you. Meh.

Step sis: We all hate your husband. He's a pompous, misogynistic, arrogant tosser. Leave him.

Step bro: Your wife is the best thing that ever happened to you. Don't fuck up. And don't listen to your appaling mother who hates her because she's not from the 'right sort' of family.

Friend: Yes, I do think I'm more intelligent than you, and it hasn't got a bloody thing to do with me having a DPhil from Oxford and you having a 2:2 from Bournemouth. It's beacause I read things other than Hello and I talk and think about things other than celebs.

Nan - I miss you and I need you right now. You were the bravest lady walking this earth, in my mind. I need you to reassure me.

K - despite everything - I love you. You complete me. I'm sorry it has come to this. I hope you sort out your problems and have a peaceful happy life, that I'm sure I can't be a part of. The day we are divorced will be the worst day of my life.

J - you are the truest friend I will ever have. You're amazing and I hope I can repay you one day.

Mum and Dad - the best people I know. You are wonderful people and I thank god you are my parents.

to mum you are a narrissitic bitch and dont care about anyone but yourself. Stop phoning me to moan and bitch about others. Stop thinking you have become the best grandma since sliced bread she isnt your grandchild and her mother will do her damnest to drain you maybe you are suited together after all. ASD does exist and no it isnt cos I raised him alone for a few years. Now that was nasty.

Step dad-you are a pervy wanker and will never never be left with my children. I would kill first.

Sperm donor - you have grandkids remember oh thats right your too busy shagging everything that moves to care.

bro- get a life and stop being a bully to everyone it isnt big you know and no I wont leave the kids with you. Oh and my youngest doesnt need a slap when he goes into meltdowm thanks.

wee bro love ya's your the best.

Friend 1 love ya and your family as always

Friend 2 love ya too

Friend 3 well you turned out to be a surprise thats for sure and you shat on me cos of friend 1 cos you didnt like her so fucking what take it up with her not me and stop bitching about her as it isnt pretty and its all about you isnt it and if others dont toe the line you dump them. Well your loss mate.

ExH stop with the woe is me crap to our daughter as its pitiful and she knows its crap and will stop comong to visit

H will you finish one fucking job before doing another or I will get folks in to do it for you. Oh thats right it isnt benefitting you is it. Oh and stop with the name calling it isnt funny any more you know so stop already. Oh and another thing the dog is old stop being a wanker and have him put down. Oh and how about this as well switch your fucking phone of at night you do have a family or are we invisible these days or what maybe one day we might be invisible for the rest of your life wanker.

Oh that felt really good getting that off my chest

Mum: Yes i love you but no i will not just say poor you what a terrible life you have. You lie in bed all day on your computer and stay up until 3am you do not work and you just wallow in self pity at what a boring and skint life you have. You have one son who disowned you for choosing a pervert over your children and grandchildren and your only daughter out of 4 children who actually speaks to you does not want you to criticise her life when yours in a pit of selfish and lazy shame.

Db's: Hi im your sister im the one you all come running to despite being the youngest, im the one that picks up the peices when you fuck up and i am the one you all ignore when your lives are going great and mine is shit. Would it kill you to come and see me once in a while for me?

ds1's dad: Ok so its been 5 years and you are finally stepping up to the plate and have agreed to get to know your son but no being in the forces does not excuse you for seeing him once and then leaving it for months on end. Also no i am not going to sleep with you and if the only reason you are meeting your son because you think you can get a free fuck out of me then you can piss right off.

ds2's dad: you left me when i was 6 months pregnant and you have seen your son once when he was 3 months old. You have a new son now he looks just like ds2 as a baby how can you kiss him at night and not feel guilty for the son you dont want to know. Also you may move and change your number but i can garuntee you that the CSA can and will find you if you ignore my last attempt to contact you.

DS's: Im so sorry im such a shit mum im trying my hardest and everyday i promise you i will be a nice person and not shout at you and everyday i fail and make you sad. Im so sorry i love you and i will try harder.

Dear nursery staff: Thank you so much for helping me out by giving me 2 free days at nursery for ds1 you will never know how much you have helped me by giving me time to myself to get on top of the house and go to college to study.

Dear school secretary: Fuck off you snide bitch, yes i am often late, i am unorganised and deppressed and i dont sleep anymore butits never more than 15 mins and "OH DEAR MUMMY IS YOUR ALARM CLOCK BROKEN!?" makes me want to slap you in your smug face.

Dear mumsnet: Sometimes i think i wouldnt be hear at all if it wasnt for you. Thank you.

God that felt good!

Brother - you are in your mid-twenties, time to put the 'man-suit' on and stop getting Mum and Dad to do everything for you. Oh, and if you could stop being such an attention seeking self-absorbed prick that would be great.

M - Do not marry D. You don't love him and the reason I know this is because you have told me you don't love him on numerous occasions. And he is odd and has no sense of humour and we can't stand him and he doesn't act as if he loves you either. I know you are scared of having no-one but you will be lonelier with him than without him.

Friend's husband - you are a total cock and a bully. I have wanted to tell you to shut up numerous times for the way you speak to my friend. You are a very sorry excuse for a man.

Grandpa - The reason I never visit you is because you have never ever showed the slightest interest in me and you have been rude to people I love.

That felt great!!!!!

I hate you with every fibre of my being. It has been a year and you never once gave us a chance you kept crawling back to her.

You are a spinless slefish little man and you never put our son before your own needs.

I hope you get what you deserve.

I know all about your secret. It will catch up with you one day. It would be better for your daughter if you came clean to her and your wife about your son but I don't suppose you can see that from your murky little viewpoint.
I'm so glad I didn't let you draw me in to your web of deceipt and I don't think of you fondly anymore since I found out what a horrible secretive little cheat you are. I feel sorry for your wife, daughter and the son you pretend doesn't exist.