AIBU to think my DH is overreacting about my eating habits?

[LPLJS95]

This is genuinely mortifying to post but here goes.

I’ve put on quite a lot of weight over the last few years since marriage and having kids. DH and I eat pretty normally at home, we have family meals together, don't live on takeaways etc, and from the outside people probably wonder how I've managed to put on as much as I have.

The problem is that I’ve developed some really bad habits over the years. If I'm out running errands, driving home from work, doing the food shop etc, I'll often stop and get food. McDonald's, Greggs, KFC, chocolate from the petrol station, coffee and cake, whatever takes my fancy really. Usually I'll eat it in the car before I get home and throw the evidence away.

I also order takeaways when I'm home alone and get rid of the packaging before he's come back. It's become a bit of a habit if I'm honest.

Before anyone jumps to conclusions, DH has never been controlling about food and has never made nasty comments about my weight. If anything he's always come across as supportive.

Anyway, the other day he borrowed my car and found loads of wrappers and receipts that I'd forgotten to clear out. He asked me about it when I got home and I ended up admitting that this has been going on for ages.

He wasn't angry exactly, but he seemed really upset. He said it wasn't even about the food, it was the fact I'd been hiding it and acting as though I had no idea why I was putting weight on.

I got defensive and said that what I eat is my business.

His argument is that I've basically been lying by omission for years and that he feels a bit stupid because whenever I'd complain putting on weight I'd conveniently leave out the daily snacks, drive-thrus and secret takeaways.

I feel completely embarrassed and wish I'd never been as honest with him as I was

AIBU to think he's making too much of this, or would you also be bothered if your partner had been secretly eating like this for years?

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OP, ignore the troll.

A friend of min eused to be a secret eater. Long before the jabs came along, she managed to turn her life around. It took a while, and therapy, but she did it.

However you choose to move forward, you can do it. Especially now that you will have the support of your husband. Best of luck to you.

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“AIBU to think he's making too much of this, or would you also be bothered if your partner had been secretly eating like this for years?”

@LPLJS95 you have lied to your husband, you’re putting your health at risk.. which impacts him, you’ve been pretending you don’t know why it’s happening.. whilst secretly spending family money. Not surprised he’s upset. YABVU.

It’s probably the secrecy of it… like you didn’t feel comfortable to tell him. I’m prone to picking up a cheeky snack from takeaways spots, mostly after work (I finish at 12) when I’m running errands. DP knows, I’ve never kept it secret from him, just as he picks up a cheeky snack here and there. The only people that don’t always know are the kids.

OP I think you need to cut DH some slack. He's had a heck of a shock on many levels - a combination of the amount you've been eating, the fact that you've lied to him (telling him you don't know why you've put so much weight on when you do), possibly the cost, concern about your health. I think you need to give him some time to process what he's just learned. You've known for a long time what you were doing, he's only just found out.

Let the dust settle and then talk again.

Yes, I’d probably cut him some slack. None of us can say for sure but…He’s probably been worrying about you because he couldn’t figure out what was going wrong to make you that BMI, and now he’s clearer about what’s happening for you, he’s wondering why you felt you couldn’t confide in him perhaps?

And what are you going to do? You could do the Zoe app if you don’t fancy WLI or standard diets. I found that I craved those kinds of foods when my blood sugar plummeted, so eating slow release energy foods really helped.

You are upset at the moment that your guilty secret has been found out but I wonder if you subconsciously made your tracks more obvious so that things could be brought out into the open. Once your husband’s shock and hurt begin to subside, it will be time to have a deep conversation and make plans for the future together. You never to be a team in this. Your weight is so high now that you will find it very difficult to lose on your own, especially with such a large emotional factor coming in to play. I think you need to see your doctor as a first step and explain everything to him/her as you have written it here. It would be good if you could be referred to a nutritionist and a psychologist or counsellor as l think you have a lot of underlying and deep-seated issues. WLI may well be suggested and l think l would take up the offer in your position. I also think you have been very brave to open up here.

As someone who had extremely disordered eating in their teens and 20s, this would really concern me because secret eating is one of the signs of an eating disorder.

I’d really recommend you seek professional support to better understand what might be driving your eating habits and weight gain. Beat eating disorders have some great resources on their website if you’re not comfortable speaking to your GP yet.

He doesn’t have a right to know what you are eating, however, to engage in conversations with him about how you can possibly be gaining weight is disingenuous.

that being said, if you were my partner I would try to have empathy. I would imagine your dishonesty comes from a feeling of shame. Maybe take this opportunity to have dome honest conversations with him (or someone else) about your eating habits.

I really dislike when people compare alcoholism to eating disorders. We NEED food to survive, we do not need alcohol to survive. Hormonal changes in women through menstruation, pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding and menopause can wreck havoc with many women's eating habits and weight.

In terms of you asking if I would tell her to stay or leave, I don't know why you are jumping to asking me that, as I was not saying the same thing in my post to her. I was suggesting she ask him to support her, that's entirely different from suggesting she ask him to stay and not leave her.

This is such a good thoughtful post OP. And 100% right. Your DHs reaction is an absolute wake up call. I really hope you can find the strength to tackle this. It sounds as though he really cares and hopefully will support you.

Just wanted to ask really if you are eating in secret and throwing away evidence etc, iis there is a particular trigger for you, and are you are trying to compensate for something emotionally difficult through food?

You'll get through this and come out healthier, but you just need to find your motivation. You deserve to be healthy and live a long and happy life, just like everyone else.

Please ignore the snarky comments! You’ve taken the hard first step of acknowledging your disordered eating, on here and to your husband, and that’s very brave. It’s not an easy thing to understand until you’ve been through it, so some people won’t give the sympathy and support that you deserve, but there is help out there and you can get back on track. I’m sure your husband was shocked and upset because he wants the best for you, given you’ve said he’s always been supportive. Wishing you all the best as you move forwards