Kissing a corpse (signs of decomposition)

[HardyGreenMentor]

OH’s parent sadly and unexpectedly passed away 5w ago. Due to needing an autopsy the chapel of rest could only be arranged now. OH devastated and struggling to process it, went to the chapel after being told by funeral directors that there is discolouration. OH said there was a veil over the coffin but they could see through dark patches on the face and fingernails turning black. Suspecting it, I asked if OH kissed the corpse. OH said yes, on the hands. OH also said they want to go back to see their parent’s corpse on Monday despite the appearance.
I am weirded out that OH kissed over a month old corpse (a week or so I think might be debatable). I am also disturbed that OH wants to go back on Monday. I am not OK with OH coming home today and kissing our toddler on the head and face, so I washed our toddler.

I visited my mother at the undertakers. I felt apprehension about making this visit, having only seen older relatives very soon after they had died before - at home, in a hospice and a care home.

While it was odd to sit with my dead mother, it felt like a good - even healthy - and necessary thing to do. Before I left I put my hand over hers. Knowing that was the last time I will ever see her.

This is such a difficult subject, my husband passed away 5 weeks ago, im going to get negative comments but its so personal to how we cope as people, husbands coffin is to big to fit in the fridge at the local funeral home, so he's led on the tray, its decorated lovely, where there's not a coffin between us, I still lay my head on his chest cuddling into him, place my forehead onto his, I still kiss him, touch his face and last week shaved and groomed his head/face, he liked to look smart, and where the skin retracts the hair looks longer than it normally does. I have researched tonight as I went today 5 weeks exactly did all the usual kisses and cuddling crying into him, but I feel I may be pushing it now, I have a headache and sore tummy, but may just be the chemicals from being embalmed, but I am questioning Wether im going to make myself poorly, a week today until funeral so would be 6 weeks from death. I've asked to see my husband every day this week until the morning of the funeral, I wanted to have the last kiss and contact.i know people find it a taboo subject when it comes to deseased loved ones. R