to ask you to tell us something you’d never admit IRL Thread 2

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Continuation of previous thread.

I wish I had never been born.

I didn't feel anything when my mum died.

Once my dad passes away I will kill myself.

I married my ex as I felt sorry for him. Hes an utter twat and I cringe when I think I've been with him.

Im getting on now but when I was young i was stunning. I didn't know how good looking I was.

Im married to a lovely man with money and people are jealous of me.

Nor should you. Nobody should feel guilty about wanting the family they want.

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Not really and I don’t even know what happened to him

Neither am I . I’m a marmite . If people don’t like me without getting to know me then they can fuck off and do one and if they treat me like shit they get ghosted . I rely on no one . In fact a lot of smiley bubbly people are self centered underneath and put them selves first . Just my observation.

I don’t blame you . I stopped working at 60
because I was made redundant and we can manage on my husbands wage and I’ve never been happier. I’m spending time with my GC and it helps because my DS and DIL don’t have to struggle to pay for childcare. I’m much much happier because I don’t have to deal with workplace politics anymore. I’ve hated work . I did 45 years and I’ve done enough.

I did something similar , and I have no memory of it . Felt so ashamed . It scared me . I still drink but in moderation. Two glasses of wine and thats it .

Well done you for giving up. That’s brilliant . Keep looking after yourself

Oh shit. I’m sorry for your loss

Oh no, I’m so sorry 😢

I really thought he'd leave his wife for me. I feel so stupid, heartbroken and unlovable.

AP?

I have a friend who is lovely but my god she goes on and on about boring shit. For example she’ll tell me every detail about an episode of a series I don’t even watch and have no interest in - so I often interrupt with weird and random questions - example she’ll be mid way through telling me about Dave having an affair with Sophie’s school teacher on some shitty tv program and I’ll randomly ask her if she’s ever fancied watching a live autopsy. Her sudden confusion amuses me.

Affair Partner

I developed a crush on a guy in a band when I was 14. It never went away and now 30 years later I have built up a parallel universe in my head where we’re together. Things aren’t good at the minute, we’re not talking but I dare say we’ll kiss and make up 🙄😂

That i judge everyone, everywhere all of the time. Mainly weight and success - it says more about me than them seeing as I'm not exactly young and thin. I feel like people can see my judgyness from a mile off even when I try to hide it. Its just become a habit but I hate myself for it.

I have very little empathy and have to pretend to feel emotion just to appear normal.

When I’m at home eating, I chop up everything on my plate into bite sized pieces so I don’t need to use a knife, just a fork.

After watching loved ones die. I have decided if I can when the time comes that I'm going to take control of the situation myself. If I'm diagnosed with anything terminal I'm going to spare myself and my family the agony. I've had a stressful few years looking after my mother in law and I've hated it. I'm about to start all over again with my own mum. I'm not subjecting my family ro the misery and stress I've felt.

My in laws make my life a misery the majority of the time.

I can't stand my mother. I am sick to death of her condescending tones, self centredness, total self boasting, aggressive eye bulging lectures and constant boring diatribes of shite about other people. She does know about my struggles about a single parent with a stressful job and that i'm going through the menopause and other health problems (because she always seems to think I'm making stuff up... Like WHY would I do that?!) I'm sick of her lack of empathy and understanding but she wants all the attention over her health problems ALL of the time. I just can't stand justifying myself to her and her talking to me like i'm a total moron. I have a responsible stressful job and have brought up a son with disabilities on my own and deserve more respect. She seems to enjoy paying me off with the odd monetary gift as a boomer and behaves like I should be licking her boots over it. I'd rather have a kind empathetic mother really instead. It's really hurtful

I know exactly what you mean.
Hoping she goes within the year frankly.

Not an admission as such, but a belief I would never say IRL: That I think that 95% of women settled for their DH/DP. Mainly because they wanted children, or for money/security, all their friends were coupling up/getting married/having babies, or they felt pressure to. The other 5% who are genuinely, truly, madly in love, plus the ones who get to be with their crush/"first" choice, are the lucky ones. I am single and not engaged/married in my late 30s* and don't have children simply because I don't want to be one of that 95%. I want to be one of the lucky ones.

*username says 90s but I grew up in the 90s, not born in them.

Actually, scratch that- 95% is a huge percentage. So I'll say the majority of women.